He can feel the slow consuming emptiness that burns much like a flame
It travels from his insides and through his veins
Nothing can stop it as it constricts his heart
Making breathing difficult as he drags the razor down his arm
A numbing effect that cannot die down
The sting of the sharp point cannot be felt in which makes him frown
He wishes for tears that boils behind his eyes
A gasp of breath to fuel his lies
It shouldn't have ended much like it did
Wishing the road he took wasn't quite like this
How could this have happened
Why did it all went so very wrong
This wasn't what he was asking for
Not one bit at all
Love was all he wanted
Something to give him hope
A reason for living
But not with this much pain
He was just wanting a lover's touch
A person to hold him with confident arms
Slow shy kisses to cover his skin
Love bites and hickies which he can wear all around town
Why couldn't he have been more brave
Instead of watching the person he loves in someone else's embrace
No one to blame except for himself
Once bright honey eyes now full of melancholy
Dull and damaged that cannot heal quickly enough for his tastes
He's been told many times before
If you keep pursuing that man your heart will be torn
But he was stubborn and thick headed too
So he didn't listen to anyone at all
Just continuing on much like a fool
And as he watches with the brooding man laughing and smiling with that dame
Why couldn't it have been with him that made that man so joyous
No more without that blame that hovers that man since that unfaithful day
So right now he just watches from afar
With unshed tears that lingers for too long
Though he wishes them happiness that he knows he cannot encroach
For now he will just leak with his tears and his blood
I just wish this story that I have made
Couldn't have been happy and as bright as sun rays
But right now that isn't possible
So because unlike you I can hear that fragile heart
That has already been cracked by his mother's death just a few years past
And all of that stress when werewolves came to town
With fangs and claws and bloody backgrounds
Stiles just wishes that it was him by that broody man's side
But that isn't going to happen
At least in this lifetime
He could only see with sadden eyes
That Derek is happy by that woman's side
One inhale and slow exhale
Stiles took a breath
The slow spreading emptiness that numbs his limbs
With a sluggish heart that is so alone
Crumbled pieces thrown in the wind
He just wishes that it ended so very differently
Instead of him lying in bed
And his blood soaked in his sheets
Good bye he said to the world
With just a picture in his head of Derek smiling at that girl
His arm slightly raised now fell dead by his waist
Now this is where my ending takes place
Of a boy whom fell in love with a man
A werewolf no less that has a dark past
