I don't think that it's a really good idea to start a new fanfic when I already have three WIP's buuuuut, I had this little plot bunny thing-y buncing up and down in my mind so, there you go!
Thank you soooo much to my amazing beta 'thebadwolfthatwaited' in tumblr!
Disclaimer: I don't own Doctor Who :C
It was hard.
Being left behind, it was like a punch right in the stomach. It felt as if your heart was being stabbed with knives. A lot of them. It had happened before, so it was somewhat not a new feeling.
But there wasn't really a choice to make. That was what hurt the most. Her happiness was always what mattered. And that was something that he couldn't give her.
Dårlig Ulv Stranden. Bad Wolf Bay was again the scenario for a bitter goodbye.
All kinds of familiar emotions were filling the air when the Tardis dematerialized; happiness, love, relief, sadness, anger, regret, bitterness.
"Are you sure about this?"
"No, but that's what love is don't you think? Letting go."
The memories of that day became blurry a few hours after it happened.
"Your brain is trying to erase them. It just hurt too much to think about it so it's easier to forget that it happen than accept it." Jackie said with the knowledge of someone who's been through something similar.
"That's what happened to you when you lost him?"
"Yeah…" She answered with a sad smile, looking at the sleeping figure of Pete Tyler that lay on the sofa next to their table. "I've been with him for four years and I love him with all my heart, but still hurts a little bit when I think about what happen that day, not nearly as much as it did twenty years ago, mind you, but with the years you became harder and harder and even though we're not even in the same universe, I know he still watches over me from up there and I know he's happy for me, because that's the thing about true love; it's not your happiness what matters, it's theirs. " She said looking through the window at the clouds outside the zeppelin that would take all of them back to London.
"When did you become this wise?" He said with a little smile and teary eyes.
Jackie just chuckled and rolled her eyes what caused the fall of tear. "I'd always been wise. You just never stopped to realize it. So what are you gonna do now?"
"I don't know, build a life again I suppose, I know I can't find a way back to the other universe and I don't even have a reason to return, so I'll have to settle down here. God what I'm going to do? I don't have anything left."
"Oh don't be daft you're not on your own. You have us. You have me. Maybe we can't give you the stars, maybe we can't give you the universe, but you can stay with us at the mansion for as long as you want, yeah? You don't have to worry for clothes or food or anything like that. We can help you start all over again and, I know it's silly and it's not much, but I'm here if you need someone to just be...there, to hear you and to hold you. People say I have a maternal instinct." She said with a small laugh.
He just looked at her and felt the tears starting a fight to fall and in the blink of an eye, Jackie stood up, crossed the little table that separated them and hugged him, resting her chin on top of his hair and rubbing comforting circles on his back.
"Just let go. I'm right here. You're not alone." She said with a soothing voice.
She felt as his body became stiff and started to feel how little cold and wet spots formed in her shirt. Her own tears began to fall as she spoke, her voice quivering and thick with emotion
"I miss her too…"
And that was what broke them. They cried and cried, at some point falling at the floor where the two of them remained on a thigh embrace.
With all the tears out of his body, he felt just a tiny bit better, just enough to actually sit down and eat a small plate of chicken soup and even managed a little smile at a comment of the youngest of the Tyler's, Tony, who now saw him as his new friend. His innocence and solely presence gave him a tiny string of hope.
There were still things worth fight for in his life.
When he was sleeping in the bed that would be his for at least a couple of weeks later that night, he didn't have nightmares, of course that her absence remained in his mind and it tore his one and lonely heart apart, but that didn't occupy all of his now human unconsciousness.
Touching the little piece of chunk of what had been his ship, his best friend and his home for centuries, he dreamed about a 3 year-old brunette girl running to him with a dirty uniform and a backpack on her back, she had a big grin on her face and jumped directly into his arms, he hugged her tightly and when the kid separated just a bit to look at his face, he saw her eyes; whiskey-coloured pupils that he would recognise everywhere.
Eyes that belonged to the person who had gone inside the Tardis with his Time-Lord self in that bloody Norwegian bay after he had 'made' the decision of staying behind with Jackie in 'Pete's world'. He saw in that little girl the eyes of the woman he loved and lost but whom now was traveling the stars with the man she loved.
The eyes of Rose Tyler.
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