this is my second KuroNoBasu fanfic. this time i tried to make it more longer... hope you all enjoy it..


Because the reason I live is you..

With my heart..

I hope the remaining flickering memories will be sent to you..

I, who used to love..

And

Love you more remain here..

Alone..

My love has all burned up..

And

The only thing remaining….

Are the exhausted scars from waiting…

I cannot forget a person like you..

So..

I cannot forget you..


{2 years ago}

In empty classroom-Teiko Middle School

"May I know, what is the meaning of this, Tetsuya?" ask Akashi to his Phantom player, who sitting in front of him. On the table, a letter placed while the red man stand beside him.

'Kuroko Tetsuya - resignation letter.'

A small gulp released from the small boy. He already knows that this will happen as soon the resignation letter received to their captain. And, he know he need to faced it even it will be hard to imagined.

"I 'm asking Akashi-kun permission to resign from basketball club. And. I hope Akashi-kun allow it" said the boy politely.

"And, may I know what the reason for you to quit? We already win in National championship and each game always ended with our victorious winning. Isn't that what your dream?"

It's true that the reason he enter basketball club is to feel the winning. However, the main point is he wants to play his favorites, playing together with his fellow friend, shared the tired and happiness form playing basketball. For him, basketball is everything in his life since he had less of presence in public. Since birth, he difficult to recognized, and sometimes people will forget him, although he had introduce himself several of times.

From basketball, he finally is being able to gain his presence from the public, even a little. For him, although his presence recognize by others even slightly a little, it's already make he feel happy. As soon he being recognize as a part of Generation of Miracle, it's make him feel more treasured. Able to play something his love and get a lot of friend already treasured him the most.

However, nobody know what he had being hiding from all his former members. For him, it's really something that no need to involve all his precious friends. Being together with them gives him more than what he need. But, his captain know that he had been hiding form them.

Thus.…

"..I have my own reason why I'm quit. So, I hope Akashi-kun understand my situation."

"You know, you're hiding something from us. What is your problem? I know lately you look spaced out, and seem run further from us. Now, tell me the reason, Tetsuya." Ask Akashi as he softly tiled the smaller boy's chin. He knows, Tetsuya is stubborn person, but he always obeys his order.

Kuroko avert his eyes form those red-yellow eyes, avoid to make any eyes contact. He now once he made an eye contact with Akashi, he will be melt and fall in him. For him, Akashi is his important persons; since he is the first person recognized him and helps him a lot.

'I need to find a reasonable excuse. There's no way for me to tell the truth even…'

"Tetsuya… I'm waiting your answer."

Alright, I'll tell him the reason although it really painful for me to admit it…

"Lately, I felt like I'm not playing something that I love before. For some reason, I start hate something I love. I know, it's sound like my own selfishness, but lately I fell that we not played as a team. But…as individual. Akashi-kun, do you know how it is fell to be left behind when you already used to be together? If you know it, then that's what I felt. It's really hurt… I just do not want to felt more hatred to it, but if I continue it only make me more hurt. So.."

Kuroko see directly to Akashi's eyes.

"…for my very unpleasant selfishness, please let me quit form basketball club." Said he politely and bow to Akashi.

'I know it hurt to hear, but I cannot tell the truth of my withdraw. Just, the truth is more hurt than this and it's now way for me to hurt you' said Kuroko in his mind.

Akashi sense that Tetsuya didn't tell him the main reason. But, he know once he said it, he will do it. He closed his eyed and made decision.

'I know this is not a good decision, but if this make you happy then I need to be happy with it' . though Akashi.

"I had decide, I approve your withdraw. I cannot push you into something that you are not willing to do"

A smile draw in Kuroko faced.

Akashi continued …"however, in one condition…"

'I know it will not be that easy…'

"…once again, if we meet at this court, we will be an opponent. Thus, if you lost to me, you need to obey all my order. Agreed?"

"Akashi-kun, isn't that a little bit …"Kuroko unable to finish as Akashi slap his hand on the table

"Yes or No, Tetsuya? That the only answer you need to say"

"…hai…(Yes)" answer Kuroko as he eyes on the floor.

"Alright, then this is our farewell and our last meeting. Next time we meet, we will be an opponent." Said Akashi as he went out of the room, leaving Kuroko in the room, sitting on the chair quietly. However, deep in his heart, he not willing to release his Phantom. For him, Kuroko had been half of himself. Before he left further from the room, he hears sobbing…

"I'm sorry, Akashi-kun. There's something better for you not know about. I'm…really sorry… Just you know that I'm never hate you and I always…always love you…" said Kuroko in tears…

Tears trickling through his cheeks. Akashi lean at the wall, gathers some energy to stand… Hearing it make he felt lost and weak….

'Tetsuya….What are you hiding from me? It's painful when you not telling me the truth…'

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{2 years later-before the final Winter championship}

At Seirin High School

"Alright, let's take five, everyone." Said Riko, Seirin's coach.

All members had a hell practice today since next week they need to played in the final. It feel like dream for them to appears in final, since Seirin's basketball club is a new school and it only been 2 years.

At the corner of the court, Kuroko leaning his aching body to the cold wall. Lately, his body feeling really ach, not because of the training, but something that he had been hiding from everyone.

As he closed his eyes…


{Flashback- 2 month before}

As usual, he went to the hospital for his usual check-up. What make he be more nervous, today the final result for his health. It had been 10 years, he need to go to the hospital for check-up. Since 'that incident', he need to do regular check-up. He knows that, since he is little, he had problem with his health. His family had done everything to cure him, but he knows that his chance to cure is low.

'I hope there's nothing happen' pleaded him in his heart. Waiting for the result feel like Hell. Luckily, his mother is with him.

"Tetsu, don't be nervous. It'll be alright." Said his mother, grip firmly his hand. In her eyes, it mix. Sadness, scared and courage mixed in the sight.…

'She seem more nervous than me' tough Kuroko. Softly, he placed his small hand to her cheek.

"Don't worry, Mum. Everything will be all right. I already prepared myself for this." Said Kuroko.

"Tetsu…You know how lucky me and your father had a son like you. Even situation like this, you still calm and accept it full in your heart. If I had strength like you…I.." she unable to finish as tears drops on her hand.

"It's alright, Mum."

"Kuroko Tetsuya. Please come in". The nurse calls for him.

In the room, the young doctor sits firmly on his seat. Politely he bows to both of them. He had been their family's doctor since Kuroko eight years' old- Dr. Kusama. In his hand, there is the result.

"Great to see you today. How are you feeling today?" ask with full of concern to his patience.

"I'm feeling great today, thanks to your medication. So, can we proceed?" said Kuroko anxious.

Suddenly, the happiness moment being crush.

" It's difficult for me to said. Just, I hope both of you be strong to hear it." Said the doctor with low tone.

"Why, doctor? Does something happen to my son?" ask his mother.

Dr. Kusama unable to meet his eyes with her.

"Kuroko-san, I hope you be strong. It's something out of our expectation. From our examination, we found that it cannot be stop. Tetsuya's body unable to fight the virus and it slowly weaken his antibody. "

"WHAT? ARE YOU SAYING THAT…." Kuroko-san unable to finish as she drop on the floor and start to bawl.

Kuroko just closed his eyes. ' I know that this will happen. Since the beginning I know that I cannot be saved.'

"I'm really sorry. We, all doctors have tried our hard to find the cure. However, we still cannot cure it. It seem that we unable to suppress it anymore. I'm really sorry, Tetsuya." Said the doctor, as he feels sad.

He knows that Kuroko had been fighting against his sickness since his young age. See his courage fighting for his life make him really touch. In the young age, he unable to enjoy his usual life like others children. Since he five years old, he always in bad condition. Always been weak, getting cold and sometimes he will faint without warning. However, Kuroko never show that he weak. He always smile and said that he is alright. But, in real his eyes show a lot of sadness and regret.

"I know this will happen to me." said Kuroko calmly.

"Mum, please stop crying. Seeing you cry make me feel useless and it only make me feel weaker. Onegai, yori mo sensou nai (please, no more tears).. "said Kuroko as he creased tears from his mother's cheek.

"So, how much time do I have?"

"..You only have about one year. But, it based on the current condition. We never know, since it act randomly, which sometimes it become active and sometimes not. So, you need to take all the medicine every day."

" It's enough for me to complete my task. I just need to be healthy for this three month, right ?" ask Kuroko with bright smile

It's bitter for to answer it. He knows that Kuroko had final Championship and it had been his dream to be in it.

" ….Yes. As long you not exert yourself too much, you able to make it."

"Thanks.."


{end of flashback - back to current condition}

Slowly, he open his eyes. See his former light and others member resting. For him, playing basketball had been his courage to continue his life. His family disagrees with him when he said he want to play it. However, he strongly said it and finally they agree with it. Be in Teiko until Seirin, his love to basketball never change. And his love to Akashi never changed. He knows his action 2 years ago had made Akashi mad. But, he never regret it. For him, it's better to hurt himself than hurting his love. Since his resignation, he never meet or in contact with Akashi. Unlike others Generation of Miracle, they still in contact even all of them at different school.

Now, he finally meets Akashi's expectation. They will fight against each other's. It painful, but it cannot be avoid.

'Finally, we will meet again, Akashi-kun. This time, it will be a real farewell for us..' said Kuroko in his heart as he tried his hard to avoid from tears.

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