*I do not own any of these characters or the show, unfortunately*

*Special thanks to paris-and-cupcakes on tumblr for editing*

*This will be about 5 or 6 chapters long and I will add a new chapter each day, maybe earlier :)

CHAPTER 1

Just stay calm, Rizzoli. It's nothing different, you two have been doing this for years now. Jane was giving herself a pep-talk as she briskly made her way down to the medical examiner's office. It's just dinner and t.v. at your apartment like every other night.

The only reason that asking Maura to hang out tonight felt different is because Jane Rizzoli has come to fully understand that she is in love with Maura Isles.

"Oh hey, Jane. I was just about to come up to you and see if you had any plans for tonight." Maura looked up at Jane with her warm hazel eyes as she smiled.

Jane couldn't help but melt instantly on the inside at the sight of Maura and the softness of her voice. "I was actually wondering if you wanted to come to my place at around 8 and get take-out and watch something. The Red Sox are playing and I know how much you love them." Jane replied sarcastically as she crossed her arms and leaned against the door frame.

Maura giggled as she replied, "I will pick up the food on my way over. I have to feed Bass and change into something a little more suitable before I come over." Jane already had Maura's outfit memorized but used this as an opportunity to look her up and down without any repercussions.

"Yeah, we don't want your Lou Vuittony dress to get wrinkled or food on it, it's too precious." Jane replied, smirking.

The sarcasm was not lost on Maura as she smirked right back at Jane and said, "It's Louis Vuitton, Jane, and they make handbags, not dresses."

"Whatever, just get Chinese tonight. I can't do any more of the fancy organic stuff you keep feeding me." Jane teased but was also honest. They shared a smile and Jane walked back upstairs to finish up the rest of her paperwork from the week's cases.


Maura was smiling to herself as she made her way from her office to her Mercedes. However, her smile faded when her brain reminded her that she had some news to share with Jane that isn't easy for her to say. She quickly made the drive from work to her house because she wanted to spend as much time tonight with Jane as possible.


Nervousness set in even more when Maura finally reached Jane's door precisely at 8 pm. She gave a soft knock on the door and then let herself in, an act she had been committing for about 3 years now as she became increasingly comfortable at Jane's apartment. Maura was scared for what she was about to potentially lose. She has been in love with Jane Rizzoli since the day she shot herself to save everyone else. Since that day, she had been relentlessly flirting with Jane and testing the limits of their friendship to see if Jane showed any interest in crossing boundaries. Maura thought that she had seen sparks of romantic interest in Jane's dark brown eyes on several occasions but of course nothing ever came from it. Maura never started anything romantic because she was afraid she would lose Jane forever, something she could not live with.


"Finally, I'm starving." Jane exclaimed as Maura walked through the door. She jumped up off the couch and rushed to where Maura was standing to help her with the food.

"I arrived at the specific time we agreed upon, Jane. If you were so hungry you should have had a light snack an hour ago." Maura said defiantly as they placed the food on the counter. Jane got a beer out of the fridge for herself and wine that Maura had left at her apartment for times like this. As soon as Jane poured the glass Maura took it and drank the entire glass. Jane looked at Maura with surprise.

"Are you thirsty, Maura?" Jane could tell that there was something bothering Maura. She figured she would tell her when she was ready so she kept herself busy bringing the food and drinks to the couch. Jane sat in her usual spot on the couch and Maura sat a little farther away from Jane than usual. Jane immediately dove into dinner while Maura just sat there poking around at her food. Jane looked at Maura confused and put her food on the table. She took the food from Maura's hand and sat it on the table alongside hers. "Maura, what's wrong?"

Maura looked up at Jane and she could see the nerves in her hazel eyes. "Jane, I got a call from the NYPD yesterday. They're in need of a new chief medical examiner."

"Well did you tell them to look somewhere else because you already have a job?" Jane replied laughing a little.

Maura looked at Jane with more concern and despair. "I actually inquired for more information, Jane."

Jane's jaw dropped and she couldn't believe what she was hearing. "You can't be serious, Maur. You have everything you need right here, you can't possibly just leave."

"The pay would be a little bit more significant if I went there and I would have more people working for me. That means I could potentially have a little more free time."

Jane interrupted, "If you need more free time I'm sure you get it if you just asked. Hell, I'll help you find more people to work for you".

"Jane, it's not the free time I'm concerned with. I feel as though I've been at a standstill here in Boston. The only strong relationship I have here is with you. Maybe there's more opportunity for me in New York." Maura replied sensitively.

Jane looked into Maura's eyes with disbelief in her own. "I can't believe you're seriously considering this, Maur. You can't just leave me here. I don't know what-" Jane stopped just short of saying what her mind kept saying over and over. I don't know what I'd do without you. I need you here, Maur. I love you.

Disconsolate hazel eyes looked back into Jane's and Maura replied "Jane, I haven't agreed to take the position yet. I'm leaving next Saturday afternoon to shadow their current chief medical examiner to see if I would enjoy working there at all. I'm only going to be gone for 5 days." Maura kept searching Jane's face for any sign of her willing to fight for Maura to stay the way that she wanted.

Jane sighed and looked down at her hands on her own knees. She couldn't just simply tell Maura how she was really feeling. There's no way she feels the same. Especially since she can consider just up and leaving me. Jane felt the hot burn of tears starting to come down and she couldn't hold them back no matter how hard she tried. "I can't believe this. Just get out. Leave." Jane sputtered.

"But I-"

"Just get out!" Jane yelled at Maura. She couldn't bear to have Maura watching her break down so she did the thing she was so used to doing; she pushed her away.

Tears started quietly falling down Maura's face as she sat and looked at Jane, waiting for her to say something else. When nothing else came, Maura quietly got her stuff and walked out.

When Jane's door closed and Maura was outside, they both let their sobs fall freely.