Author's Note: this is just some drabble until I can get my story up.
Twilight belongs to Stephanie Meyer, if I owned it then Jacob would have died in Breaking Dawn.
Thoughts on twilight. Character POV
Chapter 1
Bella- Post New Moon
I've always thought about what might have happened if Edward hadn't left me. Would I be the same woman I am today? Probably not. I wouldn't have known what I would feel like if I ever left him. I would never have felt my soul die and disappear when he left me. I hated every moment of it, but now I am thankful for that opportunity.
They say distance makes the heart grow fonder, I know that is true now. Even when I thought that he hated me, I still could not stop loving him. It pained me to admit that to myself then, but Jacob was a good distraction. He made me forget the hurt Edward caused me unintentionally when he left me, something that I will always thank him for.
Jacob. When I first met him again after all those years I started to love him. Not like I love my Edward, but like Rebecca loved Jacob…as a brother. When he tried to kiss me after Alice told me that Edward, my Edward, was going to kill himself by signing a suicide warrant in Voltera, Italy I was confused. I wanted to get out of there. I knew that I loved him, but I was too blinded by my quest to forget everything Edward that I forgot to ask myself how I loved him.
Alice. She was there for me every step of the way. She was there when my leg broke and spared me the embarrassment of Charlie helping me wash myself in the shower. She was there for me when I jumped off that cliff and nearly died. She would treat me like a Barbie doll, but did it for my own good in a way. She even told me she would change me on that blasted flight to Italy to save the love of my life… Edward.
That is where I am now, half asleep on the way back to Forks, Washington. My adopted home, my chosen home. It's not just because of Charlie or getting away from Renee, it is being with the people I care about: Edward, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, Esme, Carlisle, Charlie, and to some extent Jacob. I hope Edward won't leave me now, I don't think that I could take it; I love him too much. I know he loves me but now thanks to that promise to the Volturi I will have to be changed. So even if he runs now, I will soon be able to follow.
I don't think that I can take this any longer. It doesn't matter now 'cause I'm drifting down a river, a river of forgotten dreams.
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