Hi everybody! This is actually not Eraman but her lovely younger sister who is visiting her for a few days. The thing is she doesn't know I'm posting this. She was reading through some old documents on her computer and found this. Anyway when she left for a class I took it and posted it here. My sister forgot to logout from here so she can only blame herself. I think she'll need your opinions on this. I like it but i I don't know much about the Outsiders so I don't know who it is about. So happy reading!


The church was cold and dull and he hated it, with all his heart he hated it. He knew that church for some people was a place for prayers and comfort but every time he'd been there someone was being buried. This time wasn't different... today was the funeral for his younger brother the brother he hadn't had such good bond with until just shortly. He felt pain in his chest as he thought of that little guy's laughter. Little maybe isn't the best word but you know what it's like. Your younger siblings are always little to you. He saw his brother's best friend not far from him and the guy was crying his eyes out. He wanted to cry himself but couldn't. He'd been crying for days now and didn't think he had more tears to cry. Suddenly when the preacher was talking he remembered the song he'd heard his little brother sing weeks ago and he could swear he heard it now too. The melody was a bit sad and powerful and he was angry for not listening closely to the words until it was too late.

"It won't be easy, you'll think it's strange
When I try to explain how I feel
that I still need your love after all that I've said

You won't believe me
All you will do is listen to him
Although he's lying to you
But you never believe me do you

I had to let it happen, I couldn't win
Could not fight back to defeat him
He is always too strong, I am always too weak

So I chose hatred
Trying to run, yelling, hurting you too
But I didn't hate you at all
He never tried to do it to you

Don't cry for me big brother
The truth is I never left you
All through my wild days
My mad existence
I kept my promise
Don't keep your distance

And as for anger, and as for hate
I never invited them in
Though it seemed to the world they were all that I had
They are illusions
They are not the true sides of my heart
The answer was here all the time
I love you and hope you love me

Don't cry for me big brother
Hmmm mm
Don't cry for me big brother
The truth is I never left you
All through my wild days
My mad existence
I kept my promise
Don't keep your distance
"

Have I convinced you?
There are so much lies he tells to you.
But all you have to do is look at me to know
That all my words are true
"

Suddenly he could swear he heard his brother's voice singing some new parts. The words were like whisper in his ears. Whispers that closed everything else out.

"I want to tell the truth to you my brother
I know now that you believe
All the horrors and pain that he put me through
Though I'm defeated
I know that you will win and defeat him
For both of our sakes

Don't cry for me big brother
The truth is I shall not leave you
Though it may get harder for you to see me
I'm with you, and always will be

Have I said too little?
There's so much more I can think of to say to you
But all I can do now is tell you that
I'll always love you
"

He looked around the church and at all the grieving people and realized he couldn't take it. He shot up from his place and ran down the aisle, ignoring the voice calling his name. He just couldn't be there... He just couldn't. So he ran and kept thinking: how did it come to this?


Oh I forgot to tell you that the song is "Don't cry for me Argentina" and that the last part is from "Eva's last broadcast". Just so you know.