Disclaimer : I do not own twilight! It all belongs to Stephanie Meyer!

Summary:

In the beginning, you remember that puppy love. But eventually things begin to happen that know one understands and isn't always fair. All in all, as long as you stay strong, the love you once carry can live for an eternity. E/B

Chapter One

Edward POV

Looking at my ceiling became one of the top things of my agenda lately. Every once in a while I could imagine my world upside down waiting for the love of my life to come back to me. It has been one month since I have lost my Bella. She was everything to me, my heart, my body and my soul. I don't think anyone could've compared to her, and here I am going back at school, since my parents thought I had my grieving time in. It was getting close to graduation and I needed to get my final grades in to graduate. But I think I need more time off. My parents understood a little of what I felt for Bella but at the same time they knew life would have to go on, I wish it could just stop. Life will never be the same.

I got up off my bed, making my way to the shower when I could hear Bella's little voice telling me to wait for her. My imagination was on overload lately, I could swear I really heard her. At the same time I know it was just my mind. I couldn't mention my voices in my head, knowing that people would think I was insane. She was gone and I wasn't going to see her again, flashing back to that one night that changed my life.

We were out on a date for our four year anniversary, we had been dating since the beginning of our freshman year. We clicked from the moment we met in middle school but after one year of being best friends we decided to take the next step. We took the next step and I asked her out. After that all of our pieces came together and we formed one. Unity was what became of us, we even got to the point where I could tell exactly what she was thinking in that small beautiful head of hers.

Seeing her that way that night was to painful, even imaging it now. I can't think about this right now. I pulled my thoughts together, while tears are making their way down my cheeks. "Why her? Why now?" I keep telling myself that over and over that night. If I had been more careful, I always protected her from everything but I couldn't control what happened that night. I made my way in the shower and let the water fall over my body as it helped wash away my tears. I wish that the pain I felt would wash down the drain also, but that was impossible. I leaned my head against the wall of the shower and let the memory take me over again.

"Edward, where are we going?" Bella said, she was so excited to be out for our anniversary.

"I am not telling you, it is a surprise! But I will tell you this, you will love it almost as much as I love you." I told her with a smirk on my face. I glanced over at her to see her reaction. She gave me that heartfelt smile I loved. Man did I love his woman. As we pulled up to the river, she noticed what I was doing for her. A romantic cruise for two, with a candle lit dinner.

"Edward, this is amazing. How did you.." Bella said openly.

I managed to cut her off, "No questions, I just want a night to enjoy with my beautiful girlfriend on our anniversary."

Dinner and the cruise went through without a hitch, but when we were on our way back home, that is when it began. I was driving my father's car at the time, a black Mercedes, when a car came out of no where.

I don't know if I can do this, why was it so hard that night. I keep asking my self over and over. I can't hold on to this much longer. The tears engulfed me again.

The car hit the passenger side, but when the air bags alerted Bella's was stuck. My first instinct was to grab her and hold her next to me. But it was too late. The car struck very quickly and I heard the screech from the tires and the screams from Bella. When I got enough power to pop my air bag and take my seat belt off, Bella was laying on the ground next to the car. Someone had pulled her out. The passenger side of the car was demolished and I am surprised she was still there in one piece. I rushed to her, but I thought I was too late. She looked into my eyes, as I did hers, even though we were speechless for a little while, I know what she was thinking. Before I could read her mind anymore, the tears were already falling. I whispered to her, "Bella, Please, calm down. We will be okay. You will be okay, stay with me. They are on their way."

I keep rubbing her hair out of the way, our tears were running. And we were running out of time, we found a lost for words when she whispered, "Please, Edward, tell my father that I love him. Tell your parents I loved them as if they were my own."

My life was shattering in this moment. "No Bella, you will be okay. Keep your heart beating for me. Please, you're my life, you can't let go of all of this."

I couldn't control the tears as I saw her eyes flitter open and shut. Bella gasped trying to speak, "Edward, you must live your life for me. I will always love you, you are my heart and my soul, and somehow I will find you again."

At that moment I lost my Bella. I lost my life and love that night. I pulled her in for one last hug before the EMT's took her away from me.

Finally the water started to run cold and I turned the knobs. I felt this pressure pushing on my chest, like there wasn't anyway out of these flashes of the past. I will never forget that night.

After what seemed like hours of getting ready for my first day back to school, I rushed out the back door before mom could even get one word in. I didn't need her to bring anything up to help my aching heart. I know it would be a bad day but soon I would be with Bella again. There was always hope. I made it to the garage and climbed into my silver Volvo, if it weren't for this car I would have nothing left in this world that would be mine.

My way to school was of course boring as it always was, except I didn't have anything to look forward to after this drive. There won't be a brown haired girl with a beat up truck waiting for me when I pulled in. Instead when I pulled into the parking lot, there were a lot of stares and lots of whispers. All I could hear were people thoughts, most of them were girls wanting to console me through my pain. I didn't need this and I can't do this right now. At that moment I decided to keep driving. My mom would understand me and why I couldn't go back just yet. She was a good mom, especially lately. I could talk to her and she would let me cry on her shoulder when I needed too.

I keep driving for almost an hour until I reached Bella's favorite part of the beach. We used to come here when the sky was clear and we could see all the stars at night. Always spending the days in the water and wrapped up in each others arms on the beach at night. I got out of the car and got into my trunk and pulled out the blanket we always used.

Walking to just the right spot where the driftwood stood up just to form a bench, I knew this was the spot. There were many days we would sit on the log and talk about everything that was on our minds. How life can change. Just five weeks ago we were here watching the waves and talking about our final college plans. We were going to go to the local college together so we could still be with our family here. I still hadn't asked her to marry me yet, that was for this Christmas. I had it all planned out already, but now it was all taken away from me. We wouldn't get our happy ending. I am starting to believe that nothing in this life is fair.

I laid the blanket out on the sand and sat looking out over the ocean. It didn't take me long to lay back and close my eyes, enjoying the sound of the waves hitting the beach when I heard this wonderful sound that I knew all to well. It was her voice, the one I have been longing for, to hear just one more time. "Edward, Where have you been?"

I opened my eyes and sat straight up but I couldn't see anything except the sun shining off of the water. I looked everywhere, even behind me, and there was nothing. I closed my eyes again and this time I heard her again except a little louder, "Edward, Why haven't you come to see me?"

I decided to keep my eyes closed this time. "Bella, Where are you? Why can't I see you?"

Waiting for a response, I really don't know if this will even work. There is know hope to hear her again. And here I think I can talk to her again? There is something wrong with me. Maybe I should just get out of here. Just when I was about to open my eyes I heard her again. "Edward, I am right here. I have been waiting for you to come to me."

"I can't see you Bella, I want to see you. I miss you so much. I don't know if I can live any longer without you."

"A little longer Edward and we will be together again. I love you always."

My heart grew heavy. Is she leaving? Why? "Please, don't leave me again, I will leave my eyes closed, just don't leave me. I need you right now."

"Edward I am always with you, yes I will stay a little longer. Just lay here with me."

We laid in silence and the nice part about it was I could feel and hear her next to me. She was certain not to touch me but I could hear her breathing. To have her so close and not be able to touch her again, this might hurt me more when I have to leave. I decided to make a move, "Bella, where have you been?"

As I started to open my eyes she whispered one last thing to me, "Edward, I have to go before they see me. I love you with all of my heart and I will see you again soon. Remember we will be together again. Bye my love, for now."

I rushed for something to say, "Who will see you? Bella, please don't leave me. Not yet, Please."

My eyes flew open at that note and she was gone. I tried to find her. I ran around the beach trying to even find footprints in the sand, there were none. Where was she? Why couldn't I see her? Or find her? Why weren't there any foot prints? Where did my Bella go?

A/N : This is my first time ever writing anything that my husband wasn't the only one reading, so if you want to review you can. It depends on if I get reviews, I might now continue the story. Who know where it will take us...