Lena Pov
I have come over to Kara's house for our weekly Friday night movie. A tradition that has held strong for the last four years, ever since we moved to Midvale back at the beginning of sixth grade. My mom had just died; meaning I had to move in with my dad, Lillian, and Lex full time. Before then I had spent the school year, living with my mom in Ireland, only seeing my dad on school breaks. It worked best for everyone though. Dad and Lex were always loving and considerate of me when I would come to visit and would always keep in touch while I was away. Lillian has always been forever cold, but I've never cared because the disdain is mutual.
Everything changed one day though with one simple car crash. So, I had to move to America, because dad took full custody of me without hesitation much to Lex's joy and Lillian's displeasure. Dad decided to move us out of the city to a smaller town. Thought it would be better for Lex and me to spend our teen years in a place like Midvale. He could see Lex starting to hangout with people that could get him into trouble, and he hoped it would be easier for me to find a new normal within a smaller town.
Luckily it didn't take me long to find my place, because Kara Danvers claimed me as her best friend; when she sat down next to me in first period math, on the first day of school that year. Now it's our Sophomore Year and I have long since found my new normal. Mostly thanks to the Danvers sisters.
As I'm sitting on the Danvers' couch waiting for Kara to come back with the popcorn, when Alex comes down the stairs looking stressed out.
"Hey, Alex. You okay?" I ask trying not to let the laugh bubbling in my throat escape out into the world. Because she looks so cute.
Alex jumps at the sound of my voice, dropping the book she was carrying. It falls to the floor with a soft thud!
This time I do laugh. I hop over the couch, picking it up and hand it back to her. "Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you."
"No, it's not your fault Lena. I've been distracted lately, kind of lost in my own little world." She gives me a small tight smile. One that contrasts the usual warmth starting in her smile and spreading all the way to her eyes. A warmth that's been absent ever since Maggie moved away at the end of summer. I've missed Alex, something makes me happy knowing I can call both Danvers sisters my friends.
"I'm sure reading The Great Gatsby creates a nice world little world for you to hide away in, but you should join Kara and I for movie night?"
"Yeah Alex, come watch a movie with us please?" Kara pleads walking to us a big bowl of popcorn in her hand, its buttery aroma filling the room.
Both of us can already see the excuse forming from Alex before she even speaks.
"We're watching The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. We all know how big your crush is on Blake Lively."
Alex's cheeks turn the slightest shade of pink. I find it cute. I hope my own cheeks don't flood with color, giving my own secret away.
"I would love to Kar, but I have so much homework I have to get done this weekend. The joys of taking three AP classes. I'll try to come back down later." She offers before stealing a handful of popcorn and disappears to the kitchen to grab whatever she needed down here in the first place. Kara sticks her tongue out at her as she goes.
We return to the couch with disappointed plops. Placing the popcorn between us, Kara grabs the remote to start the movie.
"I'm worried about Alex." I voice out loud about half an hour into the movie. Mostly to distract myself from the thoughts that have crept in my mind about Blake Lively. Thanks Alex.
"So am I." Kara agrees, swallowing the last bits of popcorn remaining in the bowl.
"She's really taking the breakup hard, isn't she?"
"Yeah." Kara goes in the kitchen to pop another bag of popcorn. I don't know where she puts all the food she consumes, because her slim figure sure doesn't show any of it. "I think she's throwing herself into schoolwork to avoid her heartache." Kara places a bag in the microwave closes it, pushing the button for it to begin popping.
I take a seat across from Kara. The movie remains playing, unwatched in the living room. "Maggie Sawyer is so stupid for letting someone as awesome as Alex go."
Kara gives me a questioning look, pushing her glasses up her nose. "Her family moved it's not like Maggie had any say in her choice to leave."
"I know but I'm angry because it's not fair to Alex. I hate seeing her hurt like this." I say lowering my voice, hoping Kara won't read too much into my little outburst.
"Lee, are you okay? Kara reaches out to grab my hand, but I pull away, suddenly needing more space between us, not wanting to have this conversation right now, or if I even want to have it at all. The Luthor way to keep all my emotions to myself, especially those I can't place a name to.
"I'm fine Kar. I'm going to use the bathroom really quick before we get back to the movie." I excuse myself, heading for the upstairs bathroom; still needing more space between the conversation and myself.
I almost slam into Alex full force. She grabs my shoulders to keep me from stumbling backwards, as she comes out of the bathroom.
"Easy there, slow down Lee." Alex laughs, normally Alex's laugh is a happy sound to my ears, but right now I can only concentrate on the heat of my touch. I feel hot tears start to spill down my cheeks. "Lena what's wrong?" Alex tries to catch my eye. I know the tears are visible to her, they are coming faster now. I can taste salt on my lips. I avoid her question trying to push past her into the bathroom.
Fingers around my wrist pull me back, a grip that is firm yet soft. "Let's try this again Lena. What's wrong?"
I stay quiet. Not really having the words to voice my thoughts.
"Lena, are you okay up there?" Kara calls from downstairs, I can hear her footsteps shuffling closer to the base of the stairs. Alex must feel the muscles in my arm tighten up and watch the rest of my body tense up as well, because she answers Kara for me.
"Yeah Kara, everything is fine. I'm just going to steal Lee away from you for a little bit."
"Alright, maybe Lena will be able to convince you to join us afterwards?
We both pick up on Kara's hopeful tone. "I'll try my best Kara." A small smile forms on my face, when Alex gives me a slight nod of confirmation.
My body relaxes slightly, Alex takes this as her cue to lead me to her bedroom.
I always love being in their room. It's the perfect combination of their own distinct personalities. Kara's side is covered with posters of popstars, drawings of various planets and constellations. Multiple sketchbooks of varying sizes scatter the floor next to her bed. While Alex's side might be a little neater, it's just as cluttered with, books, magazines, and some school books thrown here and there. Band posters line her wall space; pictures cover the closet door and any bare space the sisters have yet to fill.
Alex guides me to sit down on her bed. She sits cross legged across from me on the bed. Her mouth opens and closes a few times, like she's trying to find the right words, like they are pieces of a very complicated puzzle.
"Is it me? Have I done something wrong? Because you've been very distant for months now. I don't know why so I can't do anything to fix a problem when I don't know what the problem is." She runs her fingers through her long hair a clear sign of her nerves.
"I haven't been distant. If anything, you've been distant ever since you and Maggie broke up."
"No this started long before my breakup and you know it Lena. I know it's not just in my head. We used to hangout all the time just the two of us. Now the only time I see you is if Kara is there too." She pauses I can see her frustration visibly building. "If I'm being honest Lena, I feel like you started to pull away from me, right around the time I came out."
Her voice grew quieter and now she won't meet my eyes, but I can see the hurt shining in her deep brown orbs. Suddenly I see the thought written across her face clear as day.
Lena Luthor comes from a rich powerful privileged family it wouldn't be a huge leap to think that I was anti LGBTQ+ especially after how I've acted. That's the furthest from truth. But instead of voicing these thoughts like a reasonable person; I explode like, a volcano.
"I know Lillian and Lionel aren't the first people you would catch waving rainbow flags, and marching in pride parades, but you need to know that Lex and I love and support you for everything that you are! And as one of my best friends you should know what kind of person I am! It hurts me Alex that you would ever think so little of who I am!" the volcano inside of me finally erupts.
"I'm sorry Lena. I don't think that. I honestly don't, but what I'm supposed to think?" She runs her fingers through her hair again. My heart hurts when I see the tears glistening in her eyes. I want to tell her everything. I want her to know that I only started to pull away; because it terrified me just how much closer I wanted to be with her. It hurt me to see her with Maggie, but I can't tell her that. I can't risk ruining us. So, I decide a half truth is better than nothing.
"I pulled away because when you came out it scared me, because I think I feel similar things. I think I'm bisexual." It's the first time I've said the word out loud, it instantly brings a smile to my lips. One that only grows when I see Alex beaming up at me. The warmth back in her expression for the first time in months.
AN So yeah, this idea wouldn't leave me alone. I think I've accidently fallen in love with this little universe I've created so there will be more! Thoughts? Reviews would be greatly appreciated. Goodnight Lovelies!
