This sense of birth
This sense of joy
This sense of pure hate
Holding your hand
Hopeful anticipation
But cold, cold, cold
Hands no longer soft
Eyes no longer shining
My life without your touch
Someone has stolen you
Rage
Anger
Fury
Revenge is what I seek
Feeling livid
Growing hard
Ignoring all light
I lie in wait
Building my strength
Mourning my inspiration
Jolly, he arrives
Boisterous as always
Zeal in his step
Pity it was him
This lively boy
This hyper boy
This poor, poor optimistic boy
His adoration aimed toward me
My knife aimed toward him
Acting calm
Feigning serenity
I stroll to my energetic friend
Thrilled, he runs
Amused, I smile
His enthusiasm rolls of in waves
My triumph is tucked away
Finally composed
He presents a colorful team
Such zest in his starter
A dragon type filled with power
A placid, beautiful flyer
And a tired, hungry normal type
A content four legged beast
And a graceful creature of water
What a noble group
Dealing with a corrupt trainer
Forced into submission
I pretend to be glad
I act very tranquil
As if I share his bliss
As if I am fine
His question strikes
And I reply in delight
Pleased, he sends out his starter
Satisfied, I release mine
Overwhelmed by my strength
He falls, defeated
Acceptance in his face
I take his worship
Secretly full of disgust
Embarrassment strikes him
As he sense my agitation
His humiliation quickly flees
As he notices the weapon reflect
Takes in my grim, pessimistic face
Horror dawns on him
But my obsession has already won
His infatuation
His love
Have been greeted by death
I expect relief
Not goosebumps
Not remorse
Not tears
The duty fulfilled
And shame, shame, shame overtakes me
Depressed Pokémon lost a companion
Grasping for an explanation, a reason why
I am hit with stress
I glance at his body, confused
I feel like I have done something
Wrecked my life, perhaps
Then I look down on that tender face, that boyish face
Once full of affection
Now empty
I realize my crazy, crazy lust
I thought, I thought coping with death
Meant worthless murder
I've lost my pride
I am broken
Abused by my own hand
Utter neglect towards life
I have degraded myself
Exhaustion settles in my bones
And I am thankful, relieved for the distraction
I deserve no sympathy
Only loneliness, only pain
But my longing results in my downfall
My bloody, horrific rebirth
