As If

I trudged through the snow as I observed the wall that extended over the whole country. A large wall of cement and barbed wire, built almost built over night. No way to get to the other side.

I placed my hand on the vile thing.

As if I could push it down.

I walked along the structure.

As if I could get to the end of it.

Is there an end to it?

I looked in front of me and saw no end. I looked behind me and say the same thing. I looked up at the tall barrier.

As if I could jump it.

Being East Germany, no… Prussia, I'm still Prussia… still Gilbert. Being controlled by Ivan, Russia…. He almost had his wish, what could I do?

"Hello, Gilbert," a voice said behind me.

"Guten Tag, Ivan," I replied coolly, still facing the wall. To tell the truth, I was scared of him. The Great Prussia, no, I'm now East Germany, not Prussia, Prussia….

"How are you?" he asked. He always checked up on me.

"The same as always," I replied.

"Good, I always like my people to be happy, right Latvia?"

"Y-yes, sir," the small nation squeaked. Russia finally got a hold on the Baltic States.

"Well, I best be on my way," Ivan said as he turned and left with the three Baltics.

"Bye." I kept by back turned, for the fear of me punching the cold country. I wanted the hit him, cause him pain.

As if I could hurt him.

What could I do to hurt him? He's been through so much that he's now used to the pain. I can't, no I can punch him in the face, but that would that do?

"Also," Ivan started.

"What?" I managed to peek over my shoulder at the painless nation. Why is he still here?

"I'm going for a quick visit to your brother's," he said. I froze. Bruder. "Ah, yes," he continued, as if he knew the questions flying through my head. He examined his fingernails, looking at them, rather than me," I'm going over to his place to discuss terms of land, because one day everyone will become one with Russia, da? While I'm there is there anything you want to say to him?" I stayed quiet. "Hmm, I'll just say that you said 'hi.' Be good or else." He left on that final note.

'Be good or else.' I was terrified at the things he could do to me. Torture was one of the last things I wanted, along with death.

"I'll see you tomorrow," Ivan said, walking away. Of course, he'll always come back, all the time, everyday….

I took my sights back up to the towering wall. Now, thinking about my brother's position.

As if, I knew, no, wished I knew.

Is his life better than the one I'm living?

I pressed my forehead up against the cement wall.

As if that could break it.

As if I could see through it.

Would I find Bruder there? Or would I just find a cold barren land? Would I be gone if the east and west unite as Germany? Germany, Ludwig, Bruder….

I thought about him again, wondering what he was up to. Wonder what he's planning to do about the wall. Wondering, wonder….

I thought about how my life would be when this despicable wall fell. Free from Ivan's rule…being free, freedom.

I thought about it some more.

As if I really was free.


Hello! This is my second story and I'm sorta nervous about how it turned out. I hope that it's any good, so please review! ^.^

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