It always feels like a joke to play a part when you are not the starring role in someone else's heart. You know I'd rather walk alone then play a supporting role if I can't get a starring role. - Marina & The Diamonds ~ Starring Role

I know it's really short. It's just a little something I wrote trying to understand the mysterious thing that is Jade's mind. It didn't really work she turned out way to OOC but w/e have fun reading. ^-^


Jade POV

I look around the courtyard of Hollywood Arts as I walk up to the Grub Truck, scanning for that one person. No doubt he's probably talking up some snotty cheerleader with his shirt off or some chiz. I reach the Grub Truck and pull my leg back and forcefully kick the edge of the truck to alert the workers that I'm here. I don't feel like screaming at them today after I wasted all my energy on the stupid Hollywood Arts cheerleaders.

The Hollywood Arts cheerleaders are just a group of talentless girls who only got into this school because their "daddies" bought them a spot. Obviously we don't need cheerleaders since no one even plays sport at this school (except for that one time we formed a ping pong team but those days are over now). So all they do now is run around in their ganky outfits hitting on all the hot guys at the school. And "all the hot guys at our school" includes my boyfriend Beck. They always seem to have their hawk eyes all over my Beck. It's weird since there are plenty of other guys who are just as good looking at our school but it always comes back to Beck. It's like they're just trying to get to me. Which I wouldn't be surprised if that was their plan all along.

The cheerleaders and I never seemed to get along ever since I first came here in eighth grade. See the cheerleaders are supposed to be happy and full of pep. And obviously since I'm the complete opposite they seem to pick on me even more. Like just this morning before class a couple of them walked up to me and poured water down my back. When I screamed at them asking what it was for they just told me that it should only be fair for them to be able to rain on my parade since I always rain on theirs. They throw one last cup of water in my face causing my dark make-up to run so I took out my scissors and started polishing them in front of the two cheerleaders. That seemed to scare them off.

I try my hardest not to show how much it gets to me. I'm not supposed to show weakness. I am the most feared girl at this school and if I start showing that the cheerleaders hurt me then they'll be the ones ruling the school and I'll just be another nerd. Sinjin will think it's Ok to talk to me! Just the thought makes me shudder.

So I just keep all my insecurities inside and just try my best to save my tears for after school. I usually cried at home in my room until I realized my entire family could hear me. How embarrassing. So now I always get in my car and drive to a spot not far from home. It's a tiny field surrounded by huge pine trees. It has no sign of human activity besides the fact that the grass always seems to be mowed every second week. So I feel safe to just drive there, and sit for half an hour or so and just let it out. It certainly helps me to pull myself together and become the fierce Jade that everyone seems to think I am.

I would never let any of my friends see me cry. Especially Tori (yes I see her as a friend. Sort of. Kind of. Not really). She already seems to have a one up on me in everything we do. Ever since she came she always got the leads, she always got the guys (not that I need any because I have Beck but still), and she always got the solos. And I can't help but be extra protective over Beck around her. She just has that aura of perfectness about her and I can feel it drawing Beck in. I can't help that she's prettier than me, more talented than me and a lot nicer than me but that doesn't give her a right to go around flaunting it in front of everyone and showing me up! Just the thought of her almost encourages me to bring out my scissors and just slowly drag it across my wrist.

I can hear some dweebs panicking in the truck as they try and put my burrito together as fast as possible. I can't help but laugh at how much power I have over these nubs. I shiver as the wind hits me because my shirt hasn't quite dried from the cheerleaders' attack this morning. Ugh If only I could tell someone without sounding weak. But there is only one person I can trust and expect nothing but kindness. And that just happens to be dear old Cat. Cat couldn't give me advice if her precious Skystore depended on it.

"Hear you go Jade. Now I was wondering, if this weekend..." Ugh the nerd is trying to ask me out. Gross. Doesn't he realize I have a boyfriend? Even if I didn't I still wouldn't touch him.

"No." I say clear and emotionless so he gets the point. I then quickly snatch my burrito and stalk off in which direction I do not know.

I stop suddenly when I finally spot Beck. He's sitting at a table in the corner of the courtyard, surrounded by 5 cheerleaders. He's smiling and laughing and he sure looks a lot happier than he does when he's around me.

I can't stand to watch anymore so I turn to the nearest table which is filled with freshmen and I just utter one word: "Leave." They all run off leaving their food in their feeble attempts to escape my wrath. I know it's stupid to sit here by myself when my boyfriend is just a couple steps away from me but I can't risk showing my vulnerability to him. And while he's around cheerleaders especially 5 of them that would be a challenge. I start to eat in silence with a scowl on my face when suddenly I am bombarded with noise as Tori and Cat head towards me. I don't try and hide my loud groan as they sit down and they turn to me with hurt faces and shut up.

Tori's perfect face looks at me hurt for a while before she brushes it off and asks the forbidden question. "Hey why aren't you sitting with Beck? Or at least dragging him over here and forcing him to sit with you?"

"Yeah" Cat feels the need to add with a giggle on the end. Jesus Christ.

"Well if you must know, I thought he looked like he was having a wondrous time surrounded by so many gorgeous girls and I didn't want to interrupt." I say with heavy sarcasm in my voice even though everything I said was entirely true.

"Alright, I'm sorry I asked." Tori said as she gives me another hurt look. She raises her arms in defeat. Don't you dare play the victim, Tori.

"Well you should be. Beck is my business not yours." I am not in the mood for snooping ganks at the moment.

"Ok!" Tori raises her arms in defeat again. "Come on Cat she obviously wants to be alone." Tori takes Cat's hand to lead her away to another table. Not before shooting me a death glare which I gladly return.

"Oh gravy." Cat says sighing, allowing Tori drag her away. I just give Cat a weird look. Sometimes I wonder what goes on in that girl's head.

I continue my silence when I am rudely interrupted once again. Someone puts their hand on my shoulder and I am just about to turn around a punch that someone in the face when I hear their voice.

"Jade? Babe, are you okay?" My body stiffens under his hand. He must've finally realized I've been sitting here the whole time.

"Of course I'm okay Beck. Why wouldn't I be?" I keep my gaze straight ahead not wanting to surrender under his gaze.

He sits down next to me and tries to catch my gaze but I don't let him, looking anywhere but at him. "Well first of all I was sitting right over there and you're sitting here by yourself. You didn't even say hi." His voice sounds kind of sad almost frightened. I can tell he's worried that he's done something wrong. Well you have done something wrong sweetie.

"Oh I didn't want to interrupt. You looked like you were having fun. I thought I'd give you a break." I finally look at him knowing I've gathered up enough anger to look in his eyes and not forgive him on the spot. He realises his fault and starts stumbling over his words trying to explain. "Save it. I know I'm not as appealing to look at and I know I'm not much fun to be around but you don't have to shove all the girls that are fun and appealing in my face." I can feel I'm on the verge of crying and I know I need to get out of here. It's way too public and if I show tears now Beck, Tori and the cheerleaders will all have seen my vulnerable side.

Beck seems shocked at my words and starts to hesitate. That's when I know what I said wasn't wrong. He knows that he'd rather spend time with other girls than me. I stand up trying to find the fastest way out and I know where I have to go. I have to get in my car and drive to the field. I need to sort myself out. I quickly run to the parking lot shoving a couple of freshmen along the way. I know that Beck won't be following. He doesn't care enough about me to chase after me and set things straight. I get to my car and it takes everything I have not to let the tears pour out right then. I look out the window and see that everyone is still staring at me. So I pull out and onto the road.


Beck POV

I'm sitting in the courtyard waiting for Jade and everyone else to come and sit with me. I guess they were all kept back in class. So I wait silently for a while before I'm joined by a bunch of girls. I don't want to be rude and tell them to go away so I just flash them a smile. "Uh hey girls, what's up?"

They all giggle at that and start crawling all over me. It's so weird and uncomfortable. Don't they realize I have a girlfriend and that girlfriend happens to be Jade? Jade will slice them up the moment she sees them looking at me. But they continue giggling and stroking me and telling me how nice my hair is and how chiselled my abs are. I don't know what to do but smile and laugh back awkwardly. I'm about to crack and yell at them to fuck off when I spot my tiny gothic princess a few tables away eating by herself.

I begin to get up and use my excuse to leave. "If you would just excuse me ladies I need to tend to my girlfriend." I emphasize on the word girlfriend hoping they would get the point. They obviously don't because they push me back down in my seat and crowd around me again. Except this time they aren't giggling, they actually look pretty damn nasty. "Um, I said excuse me." I try and push away again but I am outnumbered and I can't hit a girl (even if it is the tiniest shove).

"Yeah we heard you." The only dark-headed girl says spitefully. I still don't understand what they want from me so I just wait for her to continue. She sighs at my cluelessness and she begins to explain further. "We think you're hot." I still don't get what she wants. If she wants to hook up that's obviously not happening. I just told her I have a girlfriend. She sighs again. "We're hot too. We are just showing you some other options that I'm sure you'd like to take." I finally understand what she wants and I've decided that I don't like this girl at all.

I run my hand through my hair. Some girls really need to learn to chill out and respect themselves. What they're saying reeks of desperateness and bitchiness. "Um let me get this straight, you know I have a girlfriend." They all nod their heads so I move on. "And you know that girlfriend is Jade." They all laugh (not giggle this time) and nod again. The dark-haired girl's expression turned to one of disgust when I mentioned Jade.

"Ugh, yes we know Jade. But you don't have to worry about her anymore. We've already dealt with her. She is completely under our power." She stands up straight with her hands on her hips. She looks as if she's proud to tell me this information about Jade. What the heck? They do realize that I am her boyfriend by choice right? I'm not under some weird voodoo spell. I do have feelings for her.

I look back over to Jade just in time to see her snap at Tori and Cat. Well at least I know the cheerleaders didn't break her personality when they 'dealt' with her.

"I'm sorry but you girls need to leave me alone now. And whatever you are doing to Jade needs to stop. She is my girlfriend and I love her so you better back off or I will tell Lane." The girls are caught off guard at my words and are worried about me telling Lane about their antics. Their surprise gives me time to get away.

Finally that's over. I breathe a sigh of relief and make my way over to my multicoloured-haired beauty. She has her back to me so I put my hand on her shoulder. I know the cheerleaders have said/done something to her that involves me in a way so I'm a bit worried about her reaction to me. "Jade? Babe, are you okay?" Her entire body tenses as she hears my voice. Oh dear this can't be good.

She continues to stare in front of her instead of turning around to greet me so I slide into the seat next to her. "Of course I'm okay Beck. Why wouldn't I be?" She says forcefully and I know something is up.

"Well first of all I was sitting right over there and you're sitting here by yourself. You didn't even say hi." I know she must've seen me with the cheerleaders. I now realize my mistake knowing that the cheerleaders had already been giving her a tough time. Seeing me with her antagonists mustn't have been a nice sight for her.

"Oh I didn't want to interrupt. You looked like you were having fun. I thought I'd give you a break." She says it with so much hurt in her voice it breaks my heart. It almost sounds as if she's about to cry which is strange because I have never seen her cry before. I start to try and explain how the cheerleaders forced themselves on me but I'm finding it hard to find the correct words. Anything I say could set her off. She finally looks me in the eyes and it's making it even harder to explain. "Save it. I know I'm not as appealing to look at and I know I'm not much fun to be around but you don't have to shove all the girls that are in my face." Whoa, whoa, wait. Where did this come from? Now I know I need to do something quick before she does something irrational. I'm still in shock from the tone in her voice. She sounds so fragile. I know I need to stop her from running away but I don't think it will help now. I had my chance and I blew it. She's already in her car by the time I stand up to go after her. This cannot be good for me.


I might continue if I get some good feedback. I'll probably just abandon it.