"Dimitri, please don't do this."
I sounded weak. The tears that went down my face, made me feel even worse. The bitter taste of salt in my mouth had nothing to do with crying. I don't know what happened to my Dimitri but he isn't here in front of me, the kind man that would never hurt a woman is gone. We've been through too much together and for him to do this, throws that love right back in my face.
I fought so hard for us. I never gave up. I never expected this.
"Roza, you don't understand." Dimitri's voice was ice, his eyes no longer the warm, kind brown I've come to love. They were onyx. Hard, cold. dangerous onyx.
"This is me, the real me. He's been here all along under that sickening mask of indifference and respect. Under that nauseating pretense of kindness and justice. I've just been waiting for the right moment. I need you, right here right now"
Dimitri walked toward me, toward the bed i was bound to only in my cami and boy shorts I like to wear to sleep. He laid on his side next to me, trailing his graceful fingers up and down my arms, leaving an icy trail.
My pulse quickened when he slid the strap of my cami down so that it now hung loose on my arm. My arms were bound to the bedpost above my head. Suddenly I realized that my legs were free. With guardian speed I kicked out toward him . . . what a stupid mistake to make. Dimitri, seeing my attack, rolled off the bed and popped up like he was standing the entire time.
"You shouldn't have done that Rose," Dimitri's eyes flashed, but not with anger. They changed somehow. It was like they were the same but they were different at the same time. My thought was interrupted by a loud slap. It took the stinging pain in my right cheek to figure out that Dimitri had hit me, hard. Hard enough to make me bite my tongue, to make blood pool in my mouth. I spat the concoction of blood and saliva right in his face.
"YOU STILL HAVEN'T LEARNED CONTROL!" Dimitri screamed. He jumped onto the bed putting both if his legs on either side of my waist. I stared in shock, my eyes wide, my heart stopped. To say i was scared shitless would be an understatement. His fist pulled back and i braced myself for the blow, closing my eyes. What i felt instead was surprising.
Lips. Starting on my cheek, going slowly down my neck, then back up to my chin until they got to just below my ear. My eyes opened and my head turned. Why do I have to love him so much, why do I have to love him even though he tied me to a bed, slapped me, and is going to rape me. My body responds to him even though my mind is trying to yell at my body for being so stupid.
Dimitri pulled out a knife from his pocket. He rubbed the blade along my cheek, down my throat and stopped between my breasts. He turned the blade so that it faced him and he began to cut my shirt in half. I'm sure he could have ripped it with his bare hands but he probably wants to freak me out, and if that was his objective, it worked. My heart was pounding.
With my shirt split like a vest Dimitri now had access to my upper body. I wasn't wearing a bra since he got me up in the middle of the night. He looked at me hungrily and I racked my brain for some kind of solution to this big jacked up puzzle that is my life.
Its crazy because I've heard so many Moroi girls going on and on about how badly they want to be me. How badly they wished they were me. And I just want to slap them and tell them how much shit I actually have to go through. I'm in love with the person about to force me into intercourse Isn't that the perfect life or what?
My thoughts were interrupted by a large bang. Dimitri jumped which I found weird because he was a guardian. He was supposed to be alert at all times. The door to the room we were in banged again.
"ROZA!" a voice screamed outside the door. I looked at Dimitri and my mind was officially fucked. He was still straddling me, he was still holding a knife to my navel, and he was still him. He was the only one who called me Roza so I didn't know who could possibly be at the door. And suddenly it didn't matter because whoever it was they were coming to rescue me.
Don't get me wrong, I don't damsel. I'm not the girl who sat around and waited for their prince to rescue them from the big bad villain. Thats not me, but right now, I couldn't think of a better solution.
"HELP! SOMEBODY HELP M-RMPH..." My words suddenly became muffled from Dimitri's hand over my mouth. The banging resumed and I realized that someone was kicking the door down. Dimitri suddenly got off me and,with his knife, tore a strip to strips of cloth from my shirt. He frantically ties it so that a large knot was in the middle of it. He placed the knot in my mouth and tied the makeshift gag around my head, lifting my head gently to tie it around then just letting it drop as the kicks persisted created splinters and cracks on our side of the door. He took the second strip and tied it around my eyes, blindfolding me and having no time to be gentle. I was surrounded in darkness but I felt my pants and underwear being removed. I kicked and screamed but soon they were off. I heard more ripping and tearing and felt my right leg being pulled to the right side of the bed. I felt cloth around my ankle then it tightened painfully. The same happened to my left side. I was now tied to the headboard by my arms with my legs wide open. I was also completely naked so anyone could see everything.
"I'm not done with you yet Roza. I will finish this." Dimitri whispered in my ear, sending chills through my stomach and goosebumps on my arms. Then the room was silent, except for the pounding on the door getting worse and worse with each passing minute. Finally there was a cracking of wood, a thump on the floor, and a sharp gasp. Whoever rescued my probably saw my naked body by now and I wished more than ever that I could cover myself.
I felt fingers on my wrists and a minute later my hands were free. I reached up and undid the blindfold to see Adrians back to me. I reached forward and undid my ankles. I took the gag out of my mouth, slid my legs up to cover my woman parts, and bent my waist forward resting my chin on my knees.
"You can look now." I whispered. Adrian turned around and picked my up. I rested my head on his shoulder and he jogged me to the infirmary. The whole way there he kept whispering that he was sorry, that he should have come sooner, that he wished it happened to anyone but me.
I didn't say anything in return. I just closed my eyes and laid there.
When we got through the doors all hell broke lose. Some people thought he raped me himself. Others were just trying to get me a doctor. When a teachers asked me who did this to me, I didn't know what to do. I couldn't get Dimitri in trouble. Even with what he recently did, I couldn't do it. But that doctor wouldn't stop until she knew who was responsible. She let Adrian set me down on a hospital bed and told me to open my eyes.
"Rose this is a serious matter. Rape or the attempt of cannot be tolerated on campus. We need to know who did this. Parents send their children here to keep them safe from Strigoi. We can't let their children be in danger on campus too."
I looked her in the eye and bit my lip. Could I betray Dimitri? He b betrayed me so I don't see how its wrong, but something in my gut is telling me to not say anything.
"I will tell you but only if you promise they won't get in trouble. You have to give me your word as Moroi that whoever it was wont get expelled or fired."
I looked into her eyes, searching for the proof that she would keep her promise to me.
She nodded.
I look a deep breath.
"It was Dimitri Belikov." I whispered into her ear.
