This is for loveislouder94's John Green Appreciation Challenge. I am huge fan of John green and this was great fun to write :D This is a wolfstar fanfic :)
Disclaimer:- I own nothing but the words. . .
We made our way down to the whomping willow on the twenty fifth of November 1977, our sixth year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot and Prongs. The marauders, on yet another night time wandering. Because of me.
"Moony, you ok?" Padfoot asked me, he looked concerned, he could tell when I was upset, he is my boyfriend, but no one else knew, at first I thought he just wanted me for sex, but he didn't, he doesn't. He really cares and hates that he can't tell the world how he feels, but he knows his family would kill him.
"Can we, you know, talk alone a second?" I asked gesturing to the lake. I had about half an hour before the moon came out and I had to be out of sight, but it was better to be down here early than late.
"Um, yeah sure, what's up?" He said as he made his way over to me, and then towards the lake. James and Peter continued towards the whomping willow, out of earshot.
"I can't do this," I whispered to him, "Not with you, I'll hurt you. . ." I said, I couldn't hurt him, not in any way.
"What do you mean?" He asked, looking worried, "You. . . you don't want to be with me Moony?"
I didn't know what to say, I wanted him, I wanted him so badly it physically hurt to be away from him. I learnt that over the christmas holidays when I had to go home to see my family. Sirius had shown a different side of himself to me this past two months, less of the inappropriate joker, more of a caring guy. He was exactly what I wanted. He was everything.
"I can't stay with you in a relationship. I will end up hurting you, you are too precious to me. . . I can't hurt you Padfoot. . ." I said, reaching out to him, trying to make him understand.
"But Moony, why would you think that? I want to be with you, I know what could happen but I don't think you could ever hurt me. Not in any form. Please. . ." He looked at me, his hands in mine, I needed to persuade him to let me go, not to worry about me and find someone safer, better.
"I was made," I said, gesturing at my body, "this. I can never stay with anyone, I will hurt you too much, I can't stand hurting you."
"Well, the world isn't a wish granting factory. You can't get everything Moony, But you have got me. And I will stay with you no matter what. I love you, I don't want to lose you."
But he did lose me, I didn't end up hurting him, he hurt me. He was sent to Azkaban, I didn't think he deserved it, but he was sent to Azkaban and then when he was free, he was murdered by his own cousin. Leaving me.
We were eventually reunited though, in the afterlife, but this time I had Tonks, my wife, i didn't need him in that way any more. We hurt each other.
Well, The world isn't a wish granting factory, afterall.
Thank you for reading, please R&R :)
