Song of right now:
Misery Loves its Company by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
-I never really knew what I was good at in life. I never knew my place, my talent, my defining feature and that always bothered me more than it bothered anyone. I wanted to be someone. Something. Part of a gift or god or situation so much bigger than me. I always just went along with everything, supporting everyone else in my life with their endeavors, and left my situations to the backseat. I just sat and stuck to my sanctuary built out of sunsets and cigarettes and trying to be as good at anything, whether it be art like my cousin Namine, or really strong like a friend of ours Riku. But it never came for me. The only things that really came for me were shitty situations, cheap thrills, and lonely nights on my rooftop.
I wouldn't call me broken. I think I'm stronger than that. I wouldn't call me tired. I'm fucking exhausted.
Now that I'm finally getting out of this place, maybe somewhere else will see me for me, and maybe I'll finally figure out who the fuck I am. But we'll have to see about that. No fingers crossed or anything like that.
