Johnny Cash- Hurt.

I hurt myself today

The bailiff halls me, one hand on my shoulder, into the court room. Standing next to my lawyer, in front

to see if I still feel

"Any last words before you here the verdict you'd like to say Miss Beifong?" I open my mouth but it goes dry and nothing comes out. What is there left to say anyway? I'm innocent, I really am.

I focus on the pain

Well it's too late for that they've already made their decision. "All right," says the judge in his loud booming voice "Let's hear the verdict." His face is in a scowl. I steal one last look behind me, at my parents, worried and scowling, Katara holds Aang's hand for dear life, Sokka smiles weakly.

the only thing that's real

A middle aged man in overalls stands up, his voice shakes slightly, "We the jury find the defendant…"

the needle tears a hole

I close my eyes. I know I should have gone to see her as far gone as she was…

"TAKE IT!"SHE SCREAMS! "JUST TAKE IT AND SHOOT ME!" She hurls the silver hand gun at my head, I block with my arms and it clatters to the ground."COME ON, I KNOW HOPE MUCH YOU GODDAMN HATE ME! DO IT!" "No." I bend over and pick it up, "If you want to die so bad, do it yourself." I hand it to her…."…guilty"

the old familiar sting

I wince. She grabs hold of it. "Fine," her eyes wide and filled with pain, tears spill tensely out. Her hand rises. Only then to I realize what I've done. I gave her back the gun. I stare down the barrel. I duck as the shot goes off. The bullet soars behind me just as her boyfriend walks through the door.He doesn't even have time to yell.

try to kill it all away

Against the side of her head it goes and she closes her eyes. In that moment… "…of murder of the first degree…"

but I remember everything

Her face takes on an utter calm I haven't seen on it before. And for some reason for that one second I just reach out to her. The shot fires off. I scream my lungs out. "NO!" Then I regain the ability to move. I dive, but it's too late.

what have I become?

I gave her back the gun. I said those words…"…if you wish to die so bad…."

my sweetest friend

I didn't kill her but…I let her die. "I sentence the defendant to the maximum sentence, death by lethal injection.

everyone I know

The bailiff leads me away, forcefully by the elbow.

goes away in the end

I gaze back at everyone, people cheering and moaning. My mother sobbing, my father holding her. Most look back at me dread and sorrowful, but Sokka stairs up at the ceiling.


and you could have it all

He's praying.


my empire of dirt

I will let you down

The stick me in the car and hall me off.


I will make you hurt

They slam the cell doors behind me.

I wear this crown of thorns

I gaze over to the window, past the bars, to the sky, a single black bird flies away.


upon my liar's chair

Sit down on the bed and wait. Holding my knees.

full of broken thoughts

8/24/09 at exactly 11:11 am

I cannot repair

No appeal.


beneath the stains of time

"I should have listen to you, Sokka." He told me not to go see her. I roll to one side and let sleep take me.

If only it would keep me.

the feelings disappear

you are someone else

6 months, never thought they could change a person this much. Of course having your best friend sentenced to death probably do it to most people. I wonder what it's like on the outside for them. My parents have become closer I think. They hold onto each other for dear life.


I am still right here

I blow my bangs out of my face. "You came," I whisper up at him from where I'm strapped down. The over head lights are unbearably bright. I can only make out a blur of him. "Of course he," whispered back standing over me. I can hear him smile. Tears fall and land on my face like rain. Last drops of rain I'll ever feel.

what have I become?

Then my tears blind my sight the rest of the way.

my sweetest friend

He grasps my hand for dear life. The only piece that I have left.

everyone I know

"I didn't do."I say shaking my head. "I know."He answers.

goes away in the end

"But I gave her back the gun." He squeezes harder, "It's not much different is it." "No it feels the same."

and you could have it all

I'm not sure what else to say now…what is there left to say…"How's Katara and the pregnancy."

my empire of dirt

"She lost it."

I will let you down

11:10

I will make you hurt

"We will start the injection process now." A man in sea green scrubs walks in he sticks a needle into my elbow. "It'll be about 45 seconds before it takes full affect so you can say your last goodbyes."

if I could start again

My parents kiss my cheeks. Tear blend with tears.

a million miles away

Sokka kiss me too, tears blend with tears and I taste them in my mouth. Never letting go of my hand. "Tell them Aang and Katara I'll look after it if I get there." "I think they'd like to hear that Toph, and I think you'll make it to heaven," he whispers.

I would keep myself

I close my eyes, take one last deep breath. I don't feel a thing, but I know its coming.

I would find a way

In the end you just have to let go.

A/N: wow this is more than I expect to do tonight I wrote this in like two hours time. For the Tokka writing contest on kataangforever. net.

Hope you like it.