Hi I am back I hope you like this fic. I am not sure where it is heading but please bear with me.

Disclaimer: Nope I still don't own Criminal Minds. (One day hopefully) *dreams*

Warnings: Slash don't like, don't reid.

Spencer Reid sat alone is his quiet apartment. He was writing a short poem, because he couldn't make himself write a letter. Reid kept glancing at his revolver as he
wrote the poem. He couldn't believe he was doing this. Leaving this life. Reid continued writing blinking back the tears as he wrote. I hope they understand. I hope they do. he kept repeating in his mind. He continued to write while still glancing at his revolver. Oh, he really didn't want to do this but he could see no other way. The pain was becoming unbearable. The one thing that was there that he couldn't have made his heart squeeze and finally a tear escaped, running down his cheek and landing with a plop on the poem he was writing. He finally finished the poem and folded it into a heart and left on his desk. He placed his letter of resignation, gun and badge beside the folded heart. With silent tears he picked up the suitcase and left his apartment.

Everyone was at the BAU waiting for Reid, which was weird because Dr Spencer Reid was never late. Hotch became worried and told Garcia to track his phone. Reid's phone was still at his apartment. Hotch and Morgan went to investigate. Morgan walked up to his door and knocked. There was no answer. Simultaneously they searched their pockets for the keys he had given them when he had admitted that he was in love with them. And said they could come anytime. But they never did. Guilt flashed in their eyes when they looked at each other. As Hotch slid the key into the lock Morgan's mind flashed back to that moment.

FLASHBACK

Morgan had stayed behind to talk to Reid about something when everyone else had left to go home bar Hotch. Morgan went to say something before Reid had stopped him and said he needed to talk to both him and Hotch. Together they had gone to Hotch's office. Reid had sat fidgeting before finally blurting out that he loved them, more than friends. Hotch and Morgan had just stared open mouthed. Reid had then placed to keys on the desk and said if they wanted to talk come anytime before racing out the door.

END FLASHBACK

Hotch slipped into the apartment, it was a bit dark so he switched the light on. Morgan followed him in. They looked around in awe. Reid's apartment looked more like a library then a place to sleep. They walked in further and noticed his gun and badge on the desk. Morgan looked at the resignation letter with guilt. While Hotch picked up the folded heart that read 'to my beloved Aaron and Derek' Hotch moved to the couch with Morgan and read it together.

I lost it all

When I said I wanted more

And I left you at the door

Now it's been a long time

And I had to say goodbye

But I never meant to make you cry

Will you ever forgive me?

For setting myself free

More then I could have ever been.

I never meant to hurt you

Just wanted you to see the truth

That I was suffering from a bad blue.

Maybe now you'll see

Just how much I am free

To put away everything I've seen.

I'll miss you more then you'll ever know

Your life was my favorite show

It made me when I was low

So friends I'm sorry for your loss

And that I couldn't be more.

Now I close my door.

By the end of the poem both men had tears in their eyes. They looked at each other with guilt clearly written in their eyes. They head back to the BAU to tell everyone the news. Everyone had mixed reactions, Rossi looked at Hotch and Morgan withknowing eyes.

TBC