Impossible?

A/N I had this up a while ago but I thought there could be more done, so I took it down and added a few things to it.

Disclaimer I don't own anything, wish I did then Addek would be very much alive!

Chapter one.

Addison Shepherd sat in the remorial garden of Seatlle Grace Mercy West Hospital watching the world pass her by, "How did my life get to this point.". She thought to herself, as a tear rolled down her cheek.

It had been two years since she came out to Seattle and at first there had been the rows, the tears and the arguments but they had managed to save their marriage and if she was honest with herself they were in a better place then they had never been.

But there was one thing that was tairing them apart- the fact that she was barren., she knew that he would never admit it to her face, but it devestated him the fact that she coulsn't give him the one thing that they wanted most in the world- a child. And that truly broke her heart as she sat there and thought about the past year.

It was something that they wanted for so long but their caeers got in the way and in that point in her life she wan't ready for a child and now can't have any. That was her biggest regret.

She had left it too late and when she felt thst she was ready, they had gone to their doctors office. She remembers that's day as if it was yesterday, a day she will never forget and the look on her husbands face.

Flashback

"Mr and Mrs Shepherd, it's good to see you both again". Their doctor, doctor Symmons greeted them.

"And you to doctor Symmons". Addison replied for the both of them.

The doctor lead them to her office.

"So Addison and Derek, What can I do for you?". Doctor Symons asked with a warm smile.

"Well we want you help in trying to get pregnant". Addison told her.

The doctor looked at the couple in surprise.

"ok, but i'm sorry fail to see the problem, I thought if any of my patients could consieve it was the two of you". She responed to the couple in front of her.

"So did we, but we've been trying for a year and well with little success". Derek explained to her.

"Ah I see well first i'll start by taking blood from the both of you and we'll go from there". She told them..

once she had a nurse take the blood and asked Addison to change into a gown and examined her.

20 minutes later.

"Well I have to say everything is looking great Addison, but we'll know more when we get the blood tests back". She told them as Addison had goton and she took a seat back behind her desk.

"Well thank you doctor Symons". The couple thanked her and left the office.

1 Week Later.

Addison and Derek had come back to the doctors office after receiving a phone call telling them she had gotton the blood test results back from the lab.

"Addison and Derek Shepherd, here to see dotor Symons". Addion told the reciptioniest.

"I'll let her know that you have arrived, if you like to take a seat for a moment". The reciptionist replied warmly with a smile.

"Addison Shepherd?". The nurse called out.

Addion and Derek made there way to their doctors office.

"Addison, Derek good to see you again". She greeted them.

The couple sat down while doctor Symons rounded her desk and sat in her high backed chair that in front of it.

"Well I got both your blood tests back and i'm afraid it's not great news". She told the couple.

"Why? What's wrong?". Derek asked her.

"Your fine, Mr Shepherd". She replied.

"So it's me". Addison whispered softly.

"I'm afraid so Mrs Shepherd. Your blood reveal that you have an exstreamly low level of HGC in your system so that basically although you still ovilate every month, the eggs that your body preduces are not healthly enough to fertilize. I'm sorry it wasn't better news". Doctor Symons explained to the couple that sat in front as she slowlt watched the heartache and disappointment wash over their faces and she did truly feel sorry for them, as she front knew that nobody would make better parents then the couple sitting in front of her/

"What are are options". Derek asked after a few mintues.

"Your best option at the moment would be IVF". She replied.

"The percent rate?". He asked her.

"It would increase your chances by I would estimate another 30%". she told him.

"There's no point". Addison finally spoke for the first time.

"Addie honey we hav...". She cut him off.

"And if we do through with this and it doesn't work, what then?". She asked her husband.

"We try again". He told her firmly.

"And how many tries will it take before enough is enough? I don't this to break us D I don't, but what is the alternative?" she asked him.

Derek just looked at his wife as she sat truly broken in the doctors office and he knew he didn't have an answer for her.

End of flashback

6 months later and two failed IVF attempts later the couple still no closer to their dream.

Addison didn't actually realized how long she had sitting there for and knew she must back inside before they sent out a search party looking for her.

She entered the hospital and headed to the nurses station and picked up a chart that she had to fill out for her patient.

"Doctor Shepherd, there a truama on the way in, all attending are required". A nurse told her.

"Then why wasn't I paged?". She asked the nurse behind the desk.

"We tried". The nurse replied.

True on her word when Addison looked down at her pager there was four pages. Pushing her thoughts aside Addison made her way to the truama unit.

"Beth Green 34 years old restained passenger in a road accident". The paramedic started to ramble off the details.

So after husband and two kids were brought in as well.

"Bailey you and you interns take the kids" he told her.

"Robbins, Callie and Mark take the father". He ordered.

"Shepherds you take the mother". He told his secretly favorite doctors, not that he was going to tell anybody else that of course.

The interns, residents and attending all jumped inot action as the chief barked the orders as instructed.

"Beth, i'm Addison Shepherd and this is Derek Shepherd our neauro attending here at Seattlle Grace. We are going to take a look at you, ok?". Addison told her.

"NO DON'T TOUCH ME!". Beth screamed at them.

"I really don't need this today". Addison thougfht to herself.

Once they had undone the belts that was sucuring beth to the trolly, she started to thrash around, making it difficult for them to treat her., eventually them managed to examine her and found all she had a superficical cut to her forhead.

"That was something". Derek told his wife as they began to leave the unit.

"Yeah I know oh hang on I forgot my rings i'll be back in a minute". She told gim, giving a qiuck kiss and turning on her heels.

Addison made her way over to the side that she had left her rings on.

"Why did the two you touch me?". A voice startled her.

"oh Mrs Green , you scarred me". Addison told her as she put a hand over her chest to calm her breathing.

"I didn't want to be touched". Beth told her..

"Mrs green we had to touch you in order to treat you". Addison explained to her.

Meanwhile up in the chief's office a nurse knocked on the door, to which Richard granted entrence.

"Chief, the womn that was brought in a little ago, well you see thing is I thought I recongnized her soi ran her name through the system and I got a hit". The nurse explained to him.

"And?" The chief askedin reture.

"She was a patient in pysic". She replied.

"What was she treated for". He asked.

"Split personality. Chief". The nurse told him.

Meanwhile back in the truama unit all of a sudden beth leaped off the gurney and pushed Adison so hard the doctor lost her balance and went crashing onto the ground.

As Addison hit the floor as she knew she was in trouble, she heard and felt at least one rib break and the pain in her leg, back and adoman was almost unbearable causing her to scream out in pain.

As the intire truama unit heard the loud and then Doctor Shepherd everything froze, callie was the first one to react and ran over to her friend.

Addie? Adiison talk to me, come on sweetie say something". Callie asked of her friend but didn't get a response.

Callie looked down at her friend and realized she was unconscious.

"Get me and gurney and someone go get Dr Shepherd now!". She yelled at no one in particular..

Derek was wondering what was taking his wife so long so he made his back into the truam unit again.

"Addie, have you and callie got talking agai...". He stopped dead in his tracks at the sight that greeted him.

"No". It was barely above a whisper but the intire poperlation of the truama turned and looked at him.