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charlie
slow drifting, wave after wave


It was funny because she'd never had that desire to become a mother, perhaps because it never felt the right time or her relationships weren't stable enough. She never missed it either because you can't really miss what you never had right?

Only when she found the baby, little Charlie, she couldn't believe how natural it came to her. Even the sleepless nights when the little bugger couldn't sleep didn't faze her, it was just her natural reaction to mother him.

Laura teases her saying she's becoming broody and maybe it's partly true, perhaps Rosemary is becoming too attached to a baby that isn't hers, a child she's only babysitting for a short while until they find out who his real mother is.

"no sleep with him, even less without him." She says once he's gone missing. She spends the majority of the night staring at the ceiling wondering how she can feel such a bond for a child that biologically has nothing to do with her and who she only discovered by chance.

"You really miss him don't you?" Laura asks and she sighs because deep down, of course Rosemary does. She wouldn't be her if she didn't get too attached. On the other hand she doesn't miss him because technically speaking, he isn't hers to miss.

"Just a little," she replies but even she knows it sounds silly, he isn't hers, he'll never be hers, "we could've kept him."

"Rosemary! We should've taken him to the police station when we said."

She sighs but doesn't verbally answer for a couple of seconds before answering, "I guess you're right."

They find Charlie, eventually and they find his mother too, the one he's meant to be with. And it breaks Rosemary's heart to hand over the child she's nurtured and grown attached too after all these days. She tells Laura she's okay, she's fine but still gets her to drive.

Been the light sleeper she is Laura's certain she hears Rosemary cry that night, however by morning its forgotten about and not mentioned. Rosemary knows it wasn't meant to be, it was never meant to be and she shouldn't be sad over something she wasn't ever meant to have.


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