I do not own this show, if I did it would be JORI sex scenes every other episode ;) Just kidding.

Chapter 1: The Reason

Little Miss Perfect. Jade stared at Tori from across the room, loathing her in every possible way. She hated Tori, she hated her to the core. The latina was currently sitting along with Cat on the other side of the auditorium. "Hey babe." Jade smiled at the voice, she looked up to see her tall and very handsome boyfriend. He sat down next to her as he handed her the coffee he had brought. She sipped her Latte as Sikowitz babbled on about how Tori and Cat were supposed to do the scene. Jade watched as her best friend hugged Tori and laughed at her jokes, she felt a slight pang in her stomach. It was jealousy. She hated that her best friend was hanging with Tori more than her, she hated that everyone liked her. She hated Tori, no... no she didn't.

"And that's how you do the scene. Ok now Cat, Tori work your magic as I sip this coconut." Sikowitz said seriously, Jade shook her head at the old crazed man. Cat and Tori got up on the stage and began dancing, "This club is amazing." Cat said, Tori looked at her wrist. "Oh no Cat we got to go." Tori said quickly, Sikowitz yelled 'Cut.' "Ok now Jade take Cat's place." Jade scowled and begrudgingly got up and walked to the stage. "Now act as though you too are best friends. ACTION!" Jade and Tori hugged each other, "How are you?" Tori said sweetly, "Fine, now why are you here?" Jade said with a bit of malice in her voice. "I came to see you silly." Tori said giggling, "Well that's sad because I don't want to see you. Never have never will." Jade said chuckling darkly at the female next to her.

Tori looked like someone had just shot her puppy. Jade smiled at the look of distress upon Tori's face, "What's wrong Tori?" Jade said teasingly. She was getting to Tori, she could tell. "Jade what are you doing?" Beck asked her, standing up to come to the stage. "What? Is Little Miss Perfect going to cry?" Jade pushed, Tori just looked up at her and then to the faces of her classmates. She bolted out of the classroom, just like her first day at the school. Tori's tears blinded her path as she ran and she couldn't take it anymore, this pain. It hurt when Jade had said those things to her, not just because she wanted to be her friend but she wanted so much more.

Tori decided to just drive herself home, she didn't care if she got in trouble for skipping the rest of class. Jade had pushed her over the edge and she needed to get away from it all. She cried all the way home, she felt safe in her car. As soon as Tori got home she ran up the stairs and with luck her parents were not home yet. They would have bombarded her with questions that she didn't want to answer right now. She slammed the door of her bedroom behind her and plopped onto her bed, the tears had already stopped but she didn't know what to do or say or feel anymore. Why can't I be enough? Tori screamed at herself in thought, she could never be enough. All she had was music, she wasn't enough for Ryder and she wasn't enough for Steven who had cheated on her with Carly.

Tori was so preoccupied trying not to think about the events of today, which didn't work, that she didn't hear the doorbell ring at first. With the second ring and then it repeating over and over she jogged to the door and opened it quickly. "Took you long enough Vega." Tori's face fell as she stood there and stared at Jade. "What do you want?" Tori said turning cold suddenly, Jade's menacing smirk fell as she saw the pained expression on Tori's face. "Are you here to tease me more because if so then just leave. I'm tired I don't wanna deal with the bullshit right now." Jade was shocked to say the least, first Tori had never reacted like this and the way the curse word just fell from the latina's lips was strangely hot.

"Veg- erm I mean Tori, I came to apologize. I know I have been a huge bitch to you but I-" Tori cut her off, "You say this all the time, then as soon as we are around the others you just start up again. Don't make me think that we are going to be friends because it's a lie. I don't want to hear anymore lies. I've been lied to so much, I can't handle anymore so just leave." Tori shut the door in Jade's face. Jade had heard the pain in her voice and it hurt Jade to watch the tears fall from her eyes. She couldn't live with herself knowing that she had caused that, but wasn't this what she wanted. No. You want her. Jade's mind screamed at her, she began to knock on the door. "Tori. Please open up. I'm sorry. Please Tori." She said softly.

Tori had heard her on the other side of the door and began to cry again. She slid down the door and listened to Jade. Jade had known she was still at the door because she heard her slide down it, "I never wanted to hurt you. Dammit the reason I have been such an ass to begin with is because you are so perfect." Tori snorted at her remark, "Ok so you may not be perfect but you have this light about you thatI can't have at all. I hate how much you smile, I hate that I'm not the reason you smile." At this point Tori had stood up, "I just.. I hate how much everyone loves you because I love you too. I love you more than they do, the reason I pretend to hate you is because I want you and I can't have you." As Jade finished, Tori opened the door and was caught face to face with a crying Jade.

Tori had invited the crying beauty inside, they sat facing each other on the couches. Jade had been angry for what she had done to Tori, she hated that she had ever made a tear form in her eye. As Jade sat on the couch she noticed something as Tori set down a can of soda in front of her. Jade grabbed Tori's wrist lightly and pulled her sleeve up, all across her tan skin were light marks. "What is this?!" Jade hissed at her, Tori snatched her wrist away and pulled her sleeve down. "That is not nothing!" Jade said, but then lowered her tone when she noticed Tori flinch. "I'm sorry, it's just.. why are you cutting yourself?" she whispered the question, Tori looked up and met her eyes.

"I- I just couldn't take the pain anymore." Tori said with a frown, Jade looked at her and suddenly pulled the latina's body to her own for a hug. Tori was shocked but then returned the hug easily, the tears were forming in her eyes. "Please don't do that again. Please." Jade begged the girl that she was so desperately in love with, Tori could only nod not trusting her voice. Even with all that had happened she couldn't help but ask, "What about Beck?" Jade sighed, then pulled away from Tori, "He uh, he broke up with me today. After what happened in Sikowitz's class, he knows about my love for you. He was trying to help me win you but it obviously hasn't worked." Tori took in all of the words Jade had said and finally she spoke, "I love you too." The gothic girl smiled down at her latina, she felt at home, even with her dark side.

AN: Hope you liked it, tell me what ya think!