CH 1.
The burn of alcohol barely feels like a tingle anymore, its practically water the way that Dean drinks the stuff.
The angels have fallen, Cas is nowhere to be found, I'm hiding the fact that there was an angel in Sam, Crowley is tied up in the bunker, Metatron is a fucking pain in my ass, and Kevin is pissed that he was left alone for so long while the world was apparently ending. So yeah I'm sitting at the bar and I am going to fucking drink it. I can't even look at my brother because I betrayed his trust and my best friend is gone.
Dean's cell phone rings his hope rising, hoping for his friend to be making contact, but instead its another friend. "Hey Charlie." Dean says gruffly.
"Dean what the hell!?" She replies. "That wasn't meteors that fell from the sky all over the world! Do we have a hunt?"
He sighs into the phone. "Nice to hear from you too Charlie. The angels fell, no we don't have a hunt. You should probably come to the bunker though just in case they come after you. We are trying to keep a low profile for a while."
"Awesome I'll be on my way, well not awesome that the angels fell and might come after me, why would they be doing that? Oh and I better have a room to myself when I get there!" Dean smiled now that Charlie sounded like her usual self.
"Because you're family. Of course you will have your own room" Charlie said something about not being such a sap and that she'll be there in a jiffy. "Take care and see ya soon."
"Soon as I can! You sound like you need me."
Dean gave what he hoped was a convincing chuckle before hanging up the phone. He loved Charlie just like he loved Sam she was his brother and there is nothing that he wouldn't do for her. Another glass was laid out in front of him, Dean barely gave a nod to the super hot bartender for a thanks.
Usually, I'd be banging her in the bathroom later. Dean thought to himself. But ever since Purgatory with Cas and Benny he didn't really feel up to it anymore. He did of course get some urges but he wasn't the nympho that he used to be, maybe its the alcohol. Dean gave a little half smile at his glass, nah couldn't be, nothing can turn off the beast totally.
The mood all of the sudden changed in the bar and Dean adjusted his body ready for an attack, the dagger at the ready. "Hello, Dean" A soft and familiar voice spoke from behind him and Dean's heart nearly broke with relief.
"Cas." the other man's name on his lips was like one of the many prayers that Dean sent to Cas both before and after the fall. Dean turned around and looked the angel up and down. Castiel looked almost the same, he didn't quite hold himself the way he did before the angels fell, his body looked worn and there was a bruise going across his face. "What happened to you?"
"Dean, I'm sorry. I am so, so sorry." Dean saw the tears start in Cas' eyes and he placed money enough for the alcohol and a tip on the bar and grabbed Cas, pulling him outside. Dean intended on going further than they did, but halfway to the Impala he heard Castiel give a soft sob and he stopped to hug his friend. "Dean I am sorry, it's my fault that the angels fell. It's all my fault. Dean."
"Shut up Cas." Dean wrapped the angel into a hard hug. "I am just relieved that you are okay."
"Dean, I'm not an angel anymore" Cas cried softly. "Metatron, he took my Grace for the spell, the spell to close heaven, none of the angels have their wings. It's my fault." Cas spat out the name like a curse.
Cas poured his heart out to the man who he would had given up everything for, Castiel hoped would Dean would understand and forgive him. There is nothing else that he could have wanted in that moment just that it was alright from Dean. "Cas, shhh" Dean pet Cas' head soothingly. "It's okay, we will fix it, just like we always do. More importantly we will fix it together." They stayed like that for a while, until Cas could pull himself together. "Come on Cas." Dean said when the sniffles stopped and Castiel was ready to let go. "Lets go home."
Dean and Cas sat in silence as Dean drove back to the bunker, it was one in the morning and everyone had already gone to sleep. Dean and Cas went into the kitchen to put away the few groceries that Dean picked up before heading to the bar, "Um Dean?"
"Yeah Cas?" Dean looked at the angel turned human curiously. "Whats wrong?"
"My stomach hurts and keeps making weird noises." Cas looked down at his stomach with worry.
Dean laughed for the first time in a long time. "Oh Cas! You need to get used to being a human! You are just hungry, here I'll fix you a sandwich." Dean made a few peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, since he also was hungry. He gave Cas a glass of milk and sat himself down with a beer.
"This being a human is awkward. I am not accustomed to my body not doing what I will it." Cas explained before biting down on the sandwich, his eyes widened and he chewed slowly. Castiel looked down at the brown and purple mash between the slices of white bread. "Wow!" He said with his mouth full. "THIS IS- tasty?" He got all excited until he struggled for the word he had not used before, he swallowed the bite. "Yes, tasty!" He took another couple of bites.
Dean absently smiled at Castiel, soon a little more color appeared in Cas' cheeks and his eyes brightened a bit more. Dean hadn't noticed the bags under Cas' eyes that were so deep now that they looked like black eyes, nor the scruff on the blue eyed mans delicious looking neck. After Cas popped off a couple sandwiches he looked at Dean curiously. "What is the matter Dean?"
Dean shook his head clearing his thoughts, did he really just think that Cas' neck was delicious looking? "Oh nothing Cas, just that you're gonna have to shave here soon, otherwise you're gonna look like you did back in purgatory." The two smiled at each other in amusement. "You also need some sleep. I promised Charlie that she could have her room, I've got some extra space in my room if you'd like?"
"Yes thanks Dean." Cas finished up the food and milk as Dean downed the rest of the beer and his one sandwich. They got up and walked to Dean's room, Dean grabbed a pair of sweatpants and instructed Cas to get into the shower and change into that. As Cas did that Dean got himself changed for bed, grabbed a blanket and laid on the couch that was in his room.
Cas walked out of the bathroom with just the pair of sweatpants on and Dean looked at the other man with approval. Cas wasn't buff but still had enough definition to turn anyones eye and mmm that V… STOP IT! Dean scolded himself, you can't be thinking about Castiel that way! He's your best friend. Dean had never really thought about his sexuality he had only ever been with the opposite sex and he thought he was pretty happy being on that boat. But he did know how to appreciate the same sex, and Castiel was a fine example of a male specimen. Dean took a deep breath and noticed that Cas had cut himself a couple of times shaving and chuckled. "Need help there Cas?"
"Yeah- I am not accustomed to bleeding for so long." Dean got up and helped Cas he put a little bit of mouthwash on his fingers and put it on Cas' face, he gave a sharp intake of breath as it burned. "Dean."
"Oh hush you big baby, it only stings for a bit, be glad its not aftershave that stuff stings and stinks." Dean chuckled before ushering the other man into the bedroom. "Go lie down on the bed, I'll take the couch."
"Thanks Dean." said Cas. "I can take the couch if you'd like?"
"No! I have already had a couple good nights of sleep in my bed, its your turn." Dean pushed Cas and the former angel flopped onto the bed. Dean turned off the light and situated himself on the couch, falling asleep quickly.
Castiel was in the middle of the road looking up at the sky, all over he saw his brothers and sisters falling from heaven. Castiel heard the screams, those pained confused screams, all over angel radio pounding into his head leaving claw marks on his memory. Castiel's heart broke as he felt the pain of each single angel as they got their wings sheared off and they were forced to leave their home.
"Cas!" he was being shaken from his nightmare. "Cas!" Dean shook his friend awake. Castiel opened his blue eyes so wide they looked as though they were going to pop out of his head, his hair more of a mess than usual because of his thrashing around. "It was just a nightmare Cas." Castiel pulled Dean onto the bed and hugged his friend. Dean wrapped his arms around the other man and stroked his hair, periodically kissing the top of his head. "It's alright, I'm here. I am always here."
Cas gripped Dean's shirt and they laid down together, Dean ignored the small puddle that was forming on his chest. Slowly Cas calmed down and fell back asleep, Dean did not move from the bed that they were now sharing, he could not leave Cas after that nightmare. Eventually Dean too fell asleep holding Cas tightly, not wanting to ever let go.
Dean woke up before Cas and smiled at the unconscious man. Cas was cute when he slept, honestly there is no other way to describe that face. With his pink lips all parted, his hair so wonderfully messy, and his eyelashes that fluttered slightly. Dean heart raced as he thought about what it would be like to kiss those wonderful pink lips, run his fingers through that mess of black hair, and look deep into those ocean blue eyes as- Dean jolted as he realized that Cas' eyes were open and looking up at him curiously. "Morning Cas." Dean said trying to play it off and hoping Cas did not notice.
"Why were you staring at me like that Dean?" Damn. "You looked like you wanted to eat something, are you hungry?" A faint blush crept on Dean's freckled cheeks.
"Yeah I am just about ready for breakfast, and maybe tell everyone you're here." Dean smiled, he really didn't want to tell anyone that Cas was here, he wanted the man to himself. Ugh these thoughts are going to drive me insane. "There are some clothes in the dresser over there if you wanna get dressed, or put on a t-shirt at least."
"Why do I need to put on a shirt? I am quite comfortable."
Because if you don't put on a damn shirt I might lose my cool and realize I am more into guys now and not girls Dean thought to himself furiously and blushed as the realization passed into his mind, no not more into guys, maybe just more into Cas. "Its the appropriate thing to do when company is around for a human." Dean explained, it wasn't really a lie after all. "You find something and then come into the kitchen when you are ready, I will make something for us to eat." Dean walked out of the room and went to the kitchen thinking to himself, Cas of all people you had to suddenly get a crush on, he is so unavailable and he's your best friend. Was it really all of the sudden? Dean pondered that question for a moment before thinking, No it has been brewing for a long time I think. I have just been in denial. "Hey Sam, Kev." he greeted his brothers as he walked into the kitchen. "Two things, Charlie is on her way and Cas is here."
Sam looked up at Dean curiously. "When did all this happen? Thats a lot of a bomb to drop at breakfast." Dean explained his late night trip to the bar and bringing Cas home, leaving his new revelation out of the story. "Cas!" Sam got up and hugged Cas and if you were watching closely Dean was nearly the epitome of the green eyed monster as his brother hugged his angel, Dean shook his head. Kevin and Cas shook hands with a warm greeting.
Dean decided pancakes and bacon sounded like the best thing at the moment, he made more than enough for everyone when Dean's phone went off. "Hey Charlie, you here? Nice timing breakfast was just put on the table, I'll send Sam up to get you." He looked at his brother with the question as Sam already heard his request, Sam smiled and got up to get the door.
"Charlie is awesome, you guys will love her. I have to warn you though she is kinda… odd. But in an adorable and easy to love sort of way. She is another brother for me and Sam, and hopefully you too." Dean explained Charlie to the two other men in the room.
Charlie and Sam walked into the kitchen and Dean hugged Charlie before introducing her to the other men. "Nice to meet you guys. Castiel especially." She smiled and shook the former angel's hand after Kevin's.
"You've heard about me?" Cas asked.
"Oh yeah! I've read all the books, or the Winchester gospels whatever you wanna call 'em." She smiled and sat down helping herself to some food. "You're pretty badass Cas." She chuckled at her little rhyme.
"Was, I am no longer an angel." Everyone except Dean and Cas had a reaction; Sam said "What the hell?!", Kevin choked on his pancakes, and Charlie had her mouth open in a big O.
"Metatron took my grace and tossed me down onto earth just before he made the angels fall." Cas explained and it was clear to Dean that he was trying to keep his heart distanced from what he was telling the group, it made him feel special that Cas was comfortable enough to be emotional with him.
"Oh Cas that sucks." Sam placed his hand on the angel trying to comfort him.
"Major suckage." Charlie nodded solemnly.
"Well what's done is done and now we have to figure out a way to fix it." Dean said getting into business so that Cas wouldn't have to keep the attention on him, Cas looked at him with a silent thank you. "Kevin we are going to need you to work on that angel tablet, something for us to get those angels back into heaven so that they aren't making hell on earth." Charlie chucked. "But maybe we can start tomorrow, I think we all need one day to rest up." Dean looked at Sam, who jerked his head towards the library, signalling that he wanted to chat and they should meet there in a few minutes, Dean nodded.
The brother's finished their food fairly quickly and excused themselves away from the table. Sam left the table first and got situated before Dean sat across the table from him. "Sup Sammy." Sam rolled his eyes.
"Do you really think we should take a break for a day? I mean- Hello Dean." All of the sudden Ezekiel took over causing Dean to jump slightly. "I promise to make this as short as possible, but Castiel is here, this is dangerous for everyone in this place."
"Well we are always in danger, we are hunters. Wait, are you asking me to have Cas leave?" Dean's eyes widened in anger. The angel in Sam nodded. "NO!" Dean stood up and then placed his hands on the table in front of Zeke and looked at him dangerously. "I will not ask Castiel to leave my side, not ever. We will have everyone get the anti angel tracking tats, we will be a little safer after that. Don't bring this up again, do you understand me?"
"Yes." The angel said and Dean sat back down with a sigh. "I understand why you want to take a break for a day but this problem is pretty big and we should get it dealt with ASAP." Sam was given back control and finished his train of thought.
Dean shook off how fucking weird this situation was and answered. "I think that we should get the symbols tatted on everyone so that the angels can't track anyone. Since it sounds like- it would make sense that the angels would be looking for someone who is responsible for the fall." Dean corrected himself almost too late, but Sam didn't seem to notice.
"Thats a good idea." Said Sam.
"Always with the tone of surprise Sammy, you should know by now not to doubt your extremely wise big brother." Sam and Dean laughed together.
"Its nice to see you smile, I am glad Cas is here." Sam said before getting up and go talk to the guys about getting the tattoos.
"Me too." Dean threw his feet up on the table and rocked his chair back slightly. He closed his eyes for a minute thinking about going with them to get the tats, Cas would get it somewhere that was easily covered of course, probably on his side which would mean he'd be shirtless for the duration of the tattoo. Now that was a nice view in Dean's mind, Cas sitting on the chair with no shirt on, a pair of Dean's jeans on that were just a bit too big that showed off those hipbones and the slight muscle definition of Cas' torso. Dean hummed at his thoughts.
"Dean?" said Cas from behind him. Dean jolted and nearly fell backwards but was able to set himself right in time, but the chair hit the floor a bit hard and it clacked Dean's teeth together. "Sorry." Cas was smiling. "Sam says that we are getting tattoos today. Could you help me find some clothes? I don't know what I can wear yet."
"You can borrow something of mine." They walked to Deans room together. "You can wear that shirt since its clean, Dean tossed Cas a pair of jeans and a jacket. Cas had pulled the sweatpants off already by the time Dean had grabbed his own clothes and his jaw dropped. Cas was wearing boxers that were just a smidge too tight so his cock was outlined. Dean had to rip his eyes away from Cas' cock and well toned legs, but that did not help that Dean was already hard. FUCK! he thought. Dean adjusted himself, willing the tent to go away. Instead of scolding Cas for being inappropriate he went into the bathroom with his clothes. "Shit." He whispered. "Go away, go away, go away." he looked at the tent in his sweatpants. He squeezed his hardon through the pants and groaned, there was no way it was going to go away anytime soon.
Dean turned on the hot water and stripped down to and got into the shower. Dean leaned up against the wall of the shower and took his cock in his hand with a sure hand, he closed his eyes and started pumping his member. "Fuuuck." he groaned and in his mind he saw Cas walk into the shower with him and sucking him off with his pretty mouth, those beautiful pink lips wrapped around his cock bobbing up and down with ease, his shocking blue eyes not leaving Dean's. "Cas…" Dean moaned into the room. "Caaasss" He hissed out Cas' name as he came, several spurts coming out of his cock and landing on the wall, Dean sighed and fell to the floor of the shower totally spent.
Dean heard the door close and he jumped with a yelp. "Did you call me?" Cas looked at Dean. Cas was still in just his boxers. "Dean are you alright?" Dean was so embarrassed that he couldn't move or say anything. Cas stepped into the shower, boxers still on, with Dean and knelt down to look into his eyes. "Your breathing is heavy and you are red. Are you okay? Do I need to get Sam?"
That woke Dean up. "No! I am fine Cas." Dean said still kinda out of breath.
"Dean, were you masturbating? Is that what that was?" Cas looked at him curiously.
Dean laughed at the other mans bluntness, then sighed he better tell the truth. "Yes I was, which is why privacy is generally common courtesy Cas." He gave him a pointed look.
"Oh. I am sorry. Just with you calling out my name I thought you wanted me in here." Cas said and Dean blushed beet red.
"I- I.. How long were you in here?"
"After you called me the first time I went to the door to listen and then I came in when I heard you call me again. I saw you on the floor of the shower and I got nervous." Cas looked at his friend, then a realization occurred to Cas. "Were you masturbating to me?"
"What?" Dean panicked "Ye-No! Would you let me please shower now?" Dean asked. Castiel kissed Dean pushing him against the wall and straddling his lap.
Dean kissed the other man back feeling the wet fabric on his dick and it started to rise again. "Dean were you masturbating to me?" Castiel asked again when they came up for breath.
"Yes Cas, yes I was. I was fantasizing about you sucking my cock." Cas stood up suddenly and Dean was so afraid in that second that he had pissed Cas off. "Cas I'm sorry-" He cut himself off as he noticed that Cas was pulling down his boxers to release his beautiful cock that was already getting hard. "Cas." Dean breathed out.
"Dean I've never done this before." Cas said and helped pull Dean to his feet.
Dean knew exactly what he meant. "Me either Cas, I guess we are just going to have to learn together." Dean wrapped his arms around the other man's neck and kissed him softly, tasting his lips and tongue as Cas slipped that into his mouth. Cas' arms went around Dean's waist pulling the two together in a full body contact embrace. They could each feel the other man's hardening cock pressing against each other, Cas ran his hands across Dean's well muscled back to his firm ass and cupped it, making sure to give the cheeks a good squeeze.
The two stayed like that for a while touching, exploring each others mouths, and their bodies until both were rock hard. When the kisses started to become more passionate Cas decided to please Dean and knelt down on the cold tile, the water dripping down both their firm bodies. Dean gasped as Cas grabbed his dick and started pumping it, all the while looking directly at what he was doing and never at Dean's face. Cas moved faster when he felt Dean's cock twitch in his hand and decided to give it a taste. Cas licked the slit of Dean's dick and tasted the precum, it was salty and not altogether pleasant but also not bad, Cas decided that he needed another taste and more of it to he popped the head of the member into his mouth and sucked on it, running his tongue around it. Dean gasped "Cas, oh god." Dean's heart was racing as he watched this beauty below him taste his first dick, and wow he was a natural! Never in his life Dean had felt this good with any female.
Cas cupped Dean's balls and massaged them as he moved slowly around the head of the penis in between his lips. Dean's hand finally went to Cas' hair and entangled his fingers in those charcoal locks, guiding him a little lower onto his dick and then back up a bit. Castiel, the quick learner that he is, got the gist and started moving up and down on Dean's cock with his mouth but still slowly, testing his own limits as well as how long Dean would be patient.
Dean was more patient with Cas is only because the different feelings that Cas was doing to him made him feel so good. Dean had to slide down to the floor so that he didn't fall. "Cas please, look up at me while you do that." Castiel was quick to oblige, he had the hang of what he was doing now so he didn't need to keep an eye on that, and now green eyes met blue. Dean bucked his hips involuntarily into Cas' mouth when their eyes met causing Cas to gag just a little but the trooper did not stop even to take a breath. Cas moved a little quicker, rolling Dean's balls in his hand as his head bobbed up and down on his cock. Dean gripped Cas' cock and started pumping it frantically hoping to get the former angel to lose his cool, he was rewarded with a whimper on his own dick.
Dean moaned, keeping his hand on Cas' head guiding him, not that he needed much. "Cas, Cas, I am gonna come soon if you keep that up." Dean pumped Cas squeezing and running his thumb over the head of the other mans dick the slick precum oozing out but almost immediately washed away by the hot water. Cas groaned again and Dean felt the spasms of the fallen angel and knew he was also about to had a smile in his eyes and moaned on Dean's cock sending vibrations up into his core. With that Dean lost all control and his hips met Cas' mouth, when Cas gagged on Dean's cock again he came. When Dean was finished Cas spit out the cum, which was not bad tasting it just was a lot, even more than what had splattered on the wall. "Wow" Dean breathed out and Cas licked his lips tasting what was left of Dean on his lips.
All Dean could do was nod silently, soon the water turned cold and Castiel shivered against his lover. "We should get dressed before everyone starts wondering where we've gone." Dean whispered and kissed the top of Cas' head.
Cas nodded and stood up, turning off the water. He helped Dean up. "We should get me some of my own clothes so I don't have to keep borrowing yours." Cas said suddenly.
Dean chuckled. "What if I like seeing you in my clothes?" Dean kissed the ex-angel's shoulder blade, making goosebumps rise on the smaller man. "Although you are probably right." Dean squeezes Cas' tight ass, causing him to give Dean a satisfying yelp, before getting out of the shower and toweling himself off.
Cas followed Dean's lead, getting dried and dressed, and stealing kisses every so often. The kind of kisses that the two of them could get used to for the rest of their lives. "Cas." Dean turned around leaning against the door before they went out of it, "I don't want to tell Sammy about this yet. Not yet. I don't really know how to explain it to myself not to mention my little brother." Dean looked at Cas' face carefully, hoping that he would understand.
Castiels blue eyes looked at his new found lover questioningly at first and thought about the statement. "Alright Dean. We can keep this to ourselves for a while, but promise me that we will be able to tell him eventually."
In response Dean kissed his lover full on the mouth, shoving his tongue into the other man's mouth, both of them exploring and moaning into the others mouth. "Yes Cas, we won't hide forever." Dean said breathlessly. "I know I couldn't handle it."
"Very good." Cas kissed Dean one last time before the two left the room to go get everything done for the day.
