Note: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh Gx and Neither the Characters
Warning: Contains Yaoi
Author's Note: Two pairings JehuxJudai and JohanxJudai, I am completely oblivious with choices. I will write two perspectives, from Jehu and Johan. Edits had been applied for this chapter, and it follows the story so don't let it stop you. ~Mwah.
Chapter 1
Jehu P.O.V
Having you in my arm, was it so different from the other boys, Judai? I'm better than him, we have similar appearances, but what differences did that make to you. I had power though, enough to even claim you as mine. Your eye shaken in fear, but it was much to my liking in a rather cruel way.
But you are beautiful, Judai. Looking back to distant memories, I could remember when I found you cuddling with the other me, Johan. Your eyes were still closed, but you were peaceful almost graceful in your sleep. You were everything to my liking, but you just made me feel a bond had connected between us as if it was relatively close to 'love at first sight'.
My own finger in locked with your brown hair almost stroking them in a gentle manner them, but I could feel a shiver from just my touches. You are grabbing on to my shirt so tightly, as if you wish this was all a distant dream. Looking at you now, merely seemed as if you were a victim to my brutality and as if it wasn't your fault. But this body is what you feared, the presences I am now was fearfully greater in every ideal. I'm sure you probably want your beloved Johan back, don't you? Wishing he was here to comfort you, but he was the reason that brought you to this mess. Judai, I love you, but you already denied my presences for far too long.
"Judai," Moving my hands towards the enchanting silky face, I pulled your chin up to make your eyes face me.
My face begins to twist into a wicked smirk, as I thought about how defenseless you seemed under my grasp. Your eyes shake vigorously, but you were so afraid of the outcome that it almost made me shrivel in pleasure. Pulling you close, you just looked at me with a frighten face as your body was trembling in my selfish desires. Ever so slowly, I forcefully pushed my lips against yours. Your hands that once clenched against my shirt have begun to lose its grip, but it soon turned into a push.
"Judai, don't fight me," I said, while taking a deep breath. Even though we were alone, you fall from the chair from fear, you were ready to run from me. Slowly standing up, you are stricken in fear, but all I could hear is your panting of panic. You were just easily swayed from this game, Judai. I begin to move forward, but your body continuously shifted away from me, as you were moping from the floor. "Johan," you called out that pitifully, but he wasn't here for you now.
Chuckling, this was going to be fun. You begin to stand up, but you were ready to run from me since the beginning. Even if you ran I would always find you, you should have known Judai, it would only be us in the end. Knowing you, you would come back for Johan almost begging from his embraces and his comfort. Lowering my eyes, I knew I controlled this boy's body; Johan was far too much frail to have this body. This should have been mine.
Slowly, my hands dabbed into the pocket of my coat; a small dagger soon appeared in my hands. If Judai wanted this body this badly, I would make sure I would take it from him, especially if it was only beneficial to Johan. Taking the small dagger, I began to caress my skin. Looking at you, you begin to put your hands on your mouth as you try not to break out another scream.
Your eyes shook with fear from the possibilities of what might happen to this body, as the smooth knife embraced my skin. "Johan!" You scream in panic, afraid that I would hurt him more than you. Chuckling, I pressed the dagger against my skin, as I slowly began to scrap the top with it, blood began to flow from my arms excessively. This experience slowly began to brush up on me, knowing that you held dare to this body was almost delightful; you would always come back to me as long as I held this body hostage. Looking at this body, I could barely feel the pain that was oozing out with blood. You loved him Judai, are you willing to protect him? Slowly, I took the dagger and pulled it on an upfront position, as I began to prepare for what will soon befall me. I begin to plunge the knife on the scraped spot, and blood begins to spurt out. Did it hurt? No, so why is my face expression changing? I enjoyed hurting you Johan.
Your eyes begin to budge wide. "Stop, Jehu," You begin to cry, but you ran to my side and grabbed the dagger and pulled it out from penetrating it even deeper. You had to watch over this body, but just how important was Johan to you? You slowly try to find a cloth to make a bandage, but the look in your eyes wasn't for me it was for another man.
You slowly pushed yourself against me, as you tried grab the spot. I felt happy, but somehow stiltedly I smiled tenderly at you. At least you came to me, but I knew the one that you truly wanted to have been Johan. Bringing your chin up, I pressed my lips against yours. "I love you, Judai." Even though, I could feel it difficult to pull you close with the mark against my skin. Your eyes lowered knowing you had to give me satisfaction for now.
My eyes befall against yours; I could see you had a hard time giving into submission. But I stopped for a spare moment, as I grabbed your hand and pulled you down to floor and pinned you down to a rather unmistakable amount of willpower. You make a small gasp, but you easily gave me an entrance to that enchanting mouth of yours. The opened mark on my skin had begun to pour, making it difficult to steady my grips on your arm.
My tongue began to push against yours, but you don't dare to bite my own tongue. Handling you aggressively, I knew that you wouldn't like this. I could feel your breath begins to slowly fade, but my eyes just watched you as you struggled upon my kisses.
Yet I was irritated of the situation I was in; this 'Johan' body was making me irritated. Judai should be mine, he belonged to me. Slowly stopping the kiss, your eyes open slowly afraid that I handle him in a new situation. Releasing my grip on you, I got off of you, as I placed my own hand on the area of sparked crimson blood. Even though I wasn't satisfied, I didn't want to see myself in this situation, was it pride? I want my little Judai to come to me. My hands began to overfill with stains of red marks, but it was unsettling.
"Jehu?" I could see how your eyes were directed toward me. Turning my head to the side, I could see how you were dangling from our last spark. "Yes?"
"I hate you, Jehu," turning my head back forward, I continued to head my way. "I know." I knew you detested me, but I didn't want to leave yet. This body was important to you, but I didn't want to give him up to you that easy.
It was utterly disgusting, in a dearly sincere way.
You never looked at me, you only looked at Johan. Can't you see? I only seek your attention, but Johan had everything from the start. I was jealous of him. Maybe one day you will understand.
"Continue walking away," I told myself. I could feel your presences fading from my side with the confusion running through your mind. Walking back to the Obelisk Dorm, I slammed the door shut with a rather abrupt sound. Slumping on to the chair, I could feel my anger being released into this pitiful state. My face lay to rest on the cool wooden desk, but my heart didn't ease.
I only felt hatred for this body, as I to dared not scrap my nails across my skin. "You wanted this, didn't you?" I could feel my mind taunting me, it was him again. Glowering, I just ignored it. This irritation was killing me, I wasn't Johan, but I am him at the same time. Touching my lips, I could still remember the kiss I implanted on Judai.
"I needed this, and you should know that the most, Johan." In the back of my mind, I could hear you chuckling. "You were the stupid one this time, Jehu."
Slamming on the desk in rage, I knew that was the truth. Everything became a ruckus, items off the desk were all on the floor, while I continued to rampage in rage because of Johan. The mark constricted my movement, making it harder for me to move and even harder to wince from pain. Even when I kissed you, I knew my struggles would just become a greater threat. Slamming myself on the wall, it was driving me mad, Judai when you look at me do you only see him?
Yet, you always deny my presences; I'll make myself known to your world. Looking back at the hand there is blood flowing out; I could feel it staining marks on the wall. Grabbing the bandages beside the bed, I could only feel a connection to you. You would have wanted this.
Chuckling, it was driving me insane. Placing a cotton piece on the area, I wrapped it up in a tape like structure. Finishing it, I looked around the room. Judai, you always lead me to confusion. "You know he loves me, so why do you even bother," Johan taunted in the back of my head. Biting on my lips, I tried to shake the ideas off of my mind only to find myself in deceitful wiles.
You're always like this, yet you are everything I want to be Judai's love. You get everything in the end, Johan. A good guy, that what Johan was, but what about me? This jealousy is killing me, so I was the bad guy? Like a battle, I was being sunk in a hole filled with knives in the bottom. It is like taking in all the hits.
"We both love him," I made a soft sigh, as tears began to flow down. We both wanted Judai for ourselves. Judai made it all worth wild. "This battle will be your lose, Judai loves me," I hear Johan's voice mutter.
Was it really okay for me to give up on you, Judai? Crunching up, I felt lost.
Johan P.O.V
Judai, I'm very sorry, but I have to let him go. Jehu must leave me for good, this is the bet. My beloved Judai, please just don't give into his submission. He must give up on you, that ais why I will show you victory is mine. That is why I must taunt him, till he can't stand up to us anymore. I promise you Judai, I will come back.
Sitting down on the Slifer Red dorm, I could see how lonely it has become. This room use to be filled with ruckus and constant battles, but now I could feel my grasp from you slipping. Everybody has moved either to the Ra dorm or either the Obelisk Dorm. Beside you, I could see that you are crunched up in your bed, trying to sleep peaceful.
I know you needed me, right now. I wanted to be there for you, but my presences will only cause you pain for now. This loneliness must be killing you.
I could feel his presences over you, even though I am no longer visible, I could still see you. Even though you look a bit out of shaped, we both loved you and for this we must fight. I won't give up on you, but hopefully you won't trade him in for me. I was already using my power just to separate myself from him.
Narrowing my eyes, I could see the bruises forming around your arms, as you sleep in fear. I could see you struggling to break from his grasp, but he loves you, Judai. He won't hurt you, but if he ever does don't be afraid, I will find you again and I'll fix the damage.
I need to break his spirit, but he was a tough one. Looking back at Judai, I could feel my own anger boiling inside of me. Touching you, I could see how I just went through you.
"I love you, Judai, forgive me," I said, but knowing Judai, he would be asleep.
Slowly, I move closer to you, I could feel my powers sinking. Reaching to the side, I moved down as I pressed down on your lips. "I love you, Judai," I repeated. You were asleep, but I was fading back to our body, Jehu. "Johan," your voice mutters in concern, but you don't dare to open your eyes.
With that a small smile raised on my face, it was heartwarming, but you will change when I come back. You will harden once again; going through struggles with Jehu will change you. Looking at you, I could remember our countless days of happiness, but now it was becoming hard to even be with you.
I love you, and this is not a lie, Judai. I must win this battle with myself, but each scar symbolizes the strength of our relationship. What I am afraid of now is how long you would last in my inner struggle. Remembering how you were shaking beneath him, I could only imagine this battle for you must be horrifying.
If I was right beside you right now, I would definitely try to protect you from the upcoming hardships.
