She heard the crunch of gravel as a vehicle pulled up into the drive of the X mansion. Choosing not to look out the window and build up her hopes, she stayed put on her bed, listening to the car door as it opened and closed again. Then, everything went silent.
She pondered for a moment what would happen if he had come home. Would she forgive him? Would she push aside the fact that he had left her for so long? Or maybe she would hate him. After all this time of longing, all this time since the last time they spoke, would she just tell him how much she hated him for leaving? Would she just demand that he left again?
So much had happened since he had left. She had lost many of her friends, let her powers go wild. She lost complete control of her life. She will never forget the day it happened.
It was the middle of October. She sat alone on a bench in the middle of the park watching the people walk by and the leaves of the trees fall to the ground. She could feel her heart breaking because earlier that day she found that the man she loved had left. Walked out on the X Men and her. He had done the one thing he promised he would never do, Leave. A tear slowly slid down the side of her face, cold against her skin in the cold autumn breeze.
She stood and began to walk across the park, her scarf flapping in the wind behind her.
"Poor girl, she looks so pathetic."
She stopped. Unknowing where the voice came, she looked around at the people walking by. Shrugging it off, she carried on walking.
"That's what happens when you push people away"
She cried out asking who was saying this stuff. The people around her just stopped and looked at her blankly. She turned on her heal and walked quickly out of the park towards the X mansion.
"Look at her, now that's what you call a mess."
She called back for everyone to shut up.
"You shut up you crazy Bitch!" cried someone from the crowd of people still watching her.
"yeah you crazy bitch!"
"Crazy, Crazy, Crazy"
She began to run down an alley, hands on her ears trying to block out the voices in her mind. She kept screaming for them to shut up but they just kept on.
As she ran down the streets things around her began to fly about, as if there was a whirl wind and she was in the eye. Trees, bushes and fences began to catch fire when she past them. She could feel all her powers spinning out of control, but of them all there was something deep inside that was bursting to get out. Something she had absorbed long ago but had trapped behind her mind barriers. The Phoenix was strong and powerful and would be the first to be released.
She sighed as she tried not to think anymore about what happened that day. She always feared that if she thought about it too much then it might happen again. She got up from her bed and walked over to her dresser picking up a picture. It was of all the team in the rec room. She smiled softly at her friends. They had all been so good to her over the past months, helping her get back on her feet. She gently placed the picture back on the dresser, moving over and picking up another one. This one was of 4 people. Two very handsome men, stood smiling as each one held on to their partners. She then glanced at the two women. Both red heads, one herself and the other a dear friend. They were all so happy that day. She took the picture and moved back over to her bed. The day this picture was taken was the last day she saw him. She was devastated to learn that he had gone. Sighing she placed the picture faced down on her bed.
There was a knock at the door followed by Logans rough Voice. She called for him to enter her room. She was apprehensive of the news. Would it be good or would it be bad? How would she know? Any news could be good or bad.
"Im sorry Red. We had no luck in finding him."
She released the breath she didn't know she was holding. Nodding to her friend, she turned and walked to the window. Gazing up at the stars she began to think to herself.
"Come on Scott, where are you?"
come on be honest... how many of you thought it was Rogue??
