hello. this is my first fanfic so be nice! this does have a lil bit of Gates and Neela(which i know we all dont want that) but it sets the story for ray and neela.(there may not seem to be a lot of them in the first chapter but trust me im getting there!)hope you like it. read and enjoy!

chapter 1

Neela looked glumly over her paperwork. She was so down after Michael's death and she felt so alone. The apartment was cold and nothing came out of them. She felt so isolated. She had a thousand messages from Ray. He was just trying to help but she kept pushing him away feeling so guilty over having feelings for him. She threw the papers on the floor, she sighed loudly wondering what to do.

"Screw it!" she said grabbing her coat and her keys.

She walked past the hospital doors, past the sick patients as they waited.

"Neela! You're…you're in." said Morris.

"Why, did you miss me?" she said sarcastically.

"Well its just……….I thought you were taking a week off?"

" Not as a holiday. It was paperwork! I thought I could do it at home but …nah! I was fed up of staying at the apartment; I was fed up of all the calls I was getting. If it wasn't my mum ringing every 5 minutes asking how I am, it was my great aunt in Leicester who I've hardly ever talked to ringing checking to see if I'm beginning to cope! I mean it's been 5 months! She couldn't have called me before! "

"Oh! Sorry I was just…."

"Nah I'm sorry I didn't mean to snap at you, staying between those 4 walls at the apartment were driving me crazy!" she said walking to the locker room.

"Well well well look who's here," said a familiar voice. She turned round to see Gates in his uniform, hang on a doctor's uniform.

"Wha...what are you doing here?" said Neela looking confused.

"I'm now an intern which means I get to look at the lovely sight of you all day long!"

"Jeez, how charming but I'm still not interested"

"Don't worry, it'll happen, soon enough" he smirked.

"In your dreams mate!" she thought.

"How bout a drink tonight?"

"Nah thanks, I'm going out with a mate, Abby,"

"Oh right, maybe I'll join you," he mysteriously grinned.

"Maybe not,"

Just as he was about to answer back, the front doors burst open.

"Car crash, Mr Wurn has rib fractures, also has slight head trauma and severe bruising on his legs,"

"Take him through to Exam 3," Ray said coming out of Exam 1. He looked at Neela and how he wished things would work out between them. She had been ignoring his calls; it was up to her now. Yes he did have feelings for her but he still wanted them to be friends. They weren't even that right now.

"Hey Neela,"

"Hi," she mumbled after a long delay. Still avoiding me I guess, he thought.

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After they checked Mr Wurn out, Ray took Neela aside.

"Can I talk to you for a minute?" he asked

"No not really, I'm a bit busy," she mumbled trying to rush off. He caught her arm. He looked at her with cautious thought. Please can't we just get back to normal, he thought.

"Neela please cant we just work this out? Get back to what we used to have. You know those crazy nights of fun, you always yelling at me the next morning for drinking too much!"

"I live at Abby's apartment now, I cant really…" Neela replied but was cut off by weaver requiring assistance.

"Look I gotta go,"

"Neela, wait for me after your shift and we'll finish this,"

"I cant…."

"Please!" he pleaded.

She nodded as she walked over to exam 2. Weaver explained to Neela the patient who had been given a dose of GHB by her mate. But her sister saw the incident and brought her in. the patient couldn't really remember anything. The effects may have already started to kick in.

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After her long day of hard work, all Neela wanted to do was curl up on the sofa and watch TV. Oh shit! Drinks with Abby! She totally forgot she had plans.

She went to the locker room and changed into her clothes. She and Abby made their way to the club all raring to go.

"Hey can I have a double vodka and………." Abby proceeded looking at Neela.

"Oh err…tequila please,"

"Oh my Ray certainly has……………" Abby said before getting a glare from Neela making her stop. Great she's even started. Oh no…………………RAY!

Ray looked at his watch several times waiting and wondering. Where the hell is she? He thought. He wondered why she did this to him. Oh forget it, if she can't be bothered then nor can I! He walked out back to his apartment.

"Oh no, he's going to go mad! Oh damn it Abby!"

"Don't worry, I'm sure it wasn't that important."

Neela nodded and half smiled.

"Care to buy me a drink?" a voice recalled. What the… oh no! Please no! Argh, great! It was Gates hassling her again.

"Look do you not understand a British accent or something! I said NO!"

"I can't let you go, I think your special,"

"Spec….! We hardly know each other! I'm starting to wish I hadn't saved you that night!"

"You don't mean that!"

After much of Gates hassling Abby decided to leave, her head was banging and she had to get home to Luka and the baby. This was her first night off since the trauma of the gun shooting and she was already missing her little darling who had thankfully survived. After that it was just her and Gates. She was very drunk and Gates had offered to walk her home.

"Thanks but I can take it from here," she slurred.

" No its not, anything could happen to a …beautiful woman like you,"

"Urgh great!"

She got to her apartment and fumbled with the keys. She finally opened the door and Gates walked in. you could leave now! She thought

He stopped in front of her. He looked blurry to her and she couldn't really see anything. He came closer and from then on it was a blackout.

She awoke in the morning not remembering anything of the previous night. She looked down and she was in her bra and panties. She didn't even remember changing into it. She didn't remember anything but she felt weird. All she remembered was going out with Abby for drinks and having to meet Ray for their serious talk. Something was not right but she couldn't put her finger on it.


well there you have it. the 1st chapter. please read and review!

Chapter 2

Neela walked in to the hospital still wondering what had happened last night. She was looking round to find Abby, maybe she might have known. She bumped into someone dropping her stuff.

"Oh crap! I'm really really sor…." She began looking up and seeing who it was. "Ray!"

"Oh you talking to me now are you? What happened last night, I waited for you and you didn't wait for me, we were meant to finish our talk,"

"Listen Ray, I'm sorry, it's just that I had plans with Abby and I totally forgot about you,"

"Meaning you was meant to forget about me!"

"No! That's not…." He turned away from her as she spoke. His heart being broken every step he took away from her. He turned round the corner and slumped on the wall. Why oh why? He thought.

Damn it! She thought wondering what had just happened. She missed the times she spent with Ray, the laughs they had but she still felt guilty.

She was walking over to the locker room when she overheard Gates talking to someone.

"She was so good, it was unbelievable, she didn't want me to leave then bed!" he cracked.

"Good riddance, he found someone else to pester," she said to herself.

She finally found Abby treating a patient who had a gangrenous toe.

"Hey!" Neela said walking beside Abby.

"Hi," Abby replied.

"I thought you were only supposed to be working until 2pm? You should get some rest. Go home to Luka,"

" I've had my maternity leave, now he's having his,"

"Maternity leave? Oh that's quite a big secret about Luka, how did you produce a baby?" Neela sniggered.

"Ha ha, very funny, paternity leave! Anyways how was your night?" she asked with a grin on her face.

"O.. K, though I couldn't remember anything,"

"I'm not surprised with how much you drank but I didn't think you would get that drunk with the amount you had! Though Gates did keep buying you more and more drinks, God he does have it bad!" she smirked.

"Sorry what? Did you say Gates as in Tony Gates?"

"Do you know any other Gates who is crazy about you? And not in a good kind of way,"

"It's just I don't remember him being there,"

" Well why don't you ask him," Abby said coyly.

"Shut up!"

"Girl you have some admirers, first Ray now Gates. What is it the British thing!" she said but as she turned round she found Neela had already worked away.

Neela was still having a banging headache. She went to get some coffee. There was a queue so she first went to the storeroom picking up a few packs of saline, which Morris had asked for. She went into one of the operating rooms and handed them to Morris.

"Thanks and by the way I hear you scored with Gates, Nice touch!"

"What?" she replied looking stunned.

"Oh don't act all coy now, everyone knows,"

"But I didn't,"

"Not what he said," Morris quirked. She walked out confused. Did I sleep with Gates? I couldn't have, oh no… it was me he was talking about. I didn't want him to leave bed!

She walked to the coffee machine, it was empty, she put her quarters in and got her hot coffee she'd been waiting for. She turned round nearly spilling it on Ray.

"Sorry,"

"Forget it. I…I heard about you and Gates," he said sounding disappointed.

"Oh… you did, did you? Listen I…"

"No you listen. I don't get you Neela; I thought it was too soon for you… I thought you'd want to wait… I thought we had something… but obviously …" he cut off getting all teary.

"I'm… I'm sorry," she whispered.

"Me too" he said walking back.

Oh no! Don't walk away! She thought. I need to find gates!

She had finally found him and she needed to talk to him. But he was busy so he told her to come by his house tonight.

"Your house?"

"Yeah we can get more comfortable,"

"But…" she said but he had already left.

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She walked over to his apartment. What am I going to say? He opened the door.

"Ah! You're here,"

"Yeah so I wanted to talk to you about last night,"

"What about last night?" he said after a short delay.

"Well apparently you and me…" she couldn't finish it off as when she thought of it, it made her shudder.

"Well what can I say, it was great," he laughed. She smiled and faked laughed.

He looked towards his bedroom and said, " how bout a drink?"

"Erm no I really think we should talk,"

"With a drink,"

"I'll get it myself then," she said walking over to the kitchen.

"NO! Its just that the drinks are in the cupboard right at the back so…I'll get it,"

"Okay…" she said quietly finding his behaviour odd.

He poured the drinks and even though she could not see what he was doing, he took quite a while.

"Here you are, drink up, and we can get down to some uh… Business,"

"What,"

"Don't pretend you cane here to talk, you want more of last night!"

"No no I don't remember that's the thing!"

"I tired you that much out eh?" Gates slyly said.

So something did happen last night, the bra and panties situation. Oh dear what have I done!

"Oh…I.."

"Just drink up,"

"No I don't want to,"

"Just drink it!" he said with more force.

"Why?"

"JUST DRINK!" he said standing up with a look of evil.

"Urm, I… I.. Better go," she replied with a look of fright.

"You're not going anywhere!" he said with an evil smirk as he grabbed her arm. She turned and pushed him back with a big force. He fell back and a bottle slipped out of his trousers, it rolled into the floor going up to Neela. She bent down and picked it up, it was marked GHB. Holy crap! He was back up o the floor. Neela slowly looked at him and he had an evil look. As she turned to run to the door she felt his hand grab her hair and pull her back. They were both struggling, she tried to escape but his clammy hands still gripped her. She tried to unlock from his grip but he got her back. Her clothes were torn and started to get bruises were he held her so tight. He grabbed the bottle and tried to open the lid while still holding Neela. She was doing everything to get away but she was too weak and tired. He forced her mouth open so he could pour the liquid to make her unconscious. Tears were strolling down her face, and then she remembered something. Someone taught her a move to escape from an unwanted person. She trod on his foot, elbowed him in the chest and whacked him in the face with all the energy she had left, his grip loosened and he dropped the bottle. She turned round and kneed him where hit hurt. He fell down covering his crotch. She ran to the door and opened it. She didn't know where to go but she just ran.

She ran and ran until her feet ached. She went up the stairs and knocked on the apartment door. The door opened.

"Ray!" she said sobbing.

End of chapter 2.


well i know its not the best ending, and you may be thinking 'what the hell' but i really hope you like it. this is my first fanfic. read and review! please! im on the 3rd chapter now, hopefully you wont wait too long but forgive me if you do!