Prologue
I picked up the razor blade staring at the shiny metal that used to comfort me when the world tried to destroy me. I missed it ,I miss the blood running down my arms as I slid the blade across my wrist it easily with little effort .This life is behind me. I threw the blade down listening to it scream as it hit the arms burned ,they longed to be scarred,my scars longed to be reopened .I can't take it.I reached for the blade and clenched it in my hand .I put it against my cold skin and applied pressure.I saw the crimson liquid seeping through."Marissa."his deep voice filled my ears.I dropped the razor and he knelt down beside me and I saw my reflection in his visor,my eyes red from the took my arm inspecting the new addition to my past."I thought you stopped."I could hear the disappointment in his voice even if I couldn't see it."I'm sorry Chief."My words were nothing compared to took out a bandage and put it across my cut."Come on you have training,someone has to kill those elites."He stood up and I took in the sight before me ,green armour shined with the lights of the ship and his height would make anyone feel inferior.I stood up,"I'll get my armour on chief."I lowered my head and headed for the doors when I felt a hand on my shoulder."It will get better."He spoke in a warm voice.I nodded and continued to the lockers,"I hope so."
