Prologue

I need to hurry up. I'm gonna be late for school, shoot. It's our finals today. Geez. It feels like I'm running for my life. I should ran faster. Oh, God.

I glanced at my watch while struggling running against the flow of the people on the road. Five minutes. My eyes just popped out of my eye hole.

Without caution, well.. I-I just kept on running, I don't care what happens on me, I just have to reach the school in time. Ooooh, I can see our school's tower. I'm getting there. I just need to cross the street, run a little more, and then BANG! I'm at the school and ready to take the test. You know what, if I pass that exam, I'm going to be a doctor. My parents always wanted me to be a doctor, I know at first, I didn't like it. But I know that my parents are always the best. Run more, Sung Hyo. AJA!

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I can't see anything but the sky... a blue sky. I love the sky since the day I was born. I always believed that nothing's as beautiful as the sky. I always love it during the sunrise until the sunset. But at night, I frown because there's no blue sky and puffy clouds when it's dark. God is so amazing that He created the sky which I love the most, He's good for real. But why is it that my forehead hurts? Ouch. It hurts so bad... What's with it?

This needs to be touched, it's just on my mind. Ouch!

My forehead... has blood? Well, of course it has! But when I touched it and looked at my fingers, it has blood. Get it? OMG, Sung Hyo! You're bleeding! This sucks.

Oh, damn it. Get to your senses, Sung Hyo! Seeing the sky... means only one thing. I'm lying on the ground! Shoot, I'm running for my exams today, right? Why the hell am I seeing the sky and dreaming? Well, I hope I'm just dreaming!

I got up in a split of seconds, and the thing is I'm not dreaming. So practically, I'm running late for my exams and my future's just hanging by a thread. I looked at my watch, one friggin' minute before eight! Jesus, I can't miss this exam!

I have to run, I can still make it. Damn it, why am I in the middle of the high way? Did I just... Yes, I was lying on the road! Damn! I saw a man in white, hey... Are you... St. Peter? Since when did St. Peter have a shining white car? AM I REALLY IN HEAVEN RIGHT NOW? No. Wake up, Sung Hyo. You have an exam and your future's in it, so get going!

"Hey, wait!" I heard someone calling me. Though I did not hear him calling my name, I know he's calling me. I'll deal with you later, I can't be late in my exams today. "Wait!" Oh, die shouting. You don't know my name so no one's going to take it as if you're calling me. Okay, I have to goooooo! Hanky, I need you now. My forehead's bleeding, I can't take the exams with you still visible. They might not let me take the exam if they see blood in my forehead. I have to be okay. I can't actually feel any pain. It's magic.

FINALLY!

Ouch, my forehead suddenly hurts. Never mind, where's the guard... Oh wait, he's walking away from the gate.

"Hey! Wait!" No, I'm the one's who's saying those words. I'm just a second late, okay? Fine, one-minute late. But still, I'm on time! As if someone's gonna know I'm a minute late. "Hey, Mr. Guard!" I started shouting, as in shouting like crazy.

He saw me and walked towards me. "Why?"

"I'm Shin Sung Hyo. I'm going to take the exam. Look, I'm on the list, I promise. Shin. Sung. Hyo." I told him.

"Oh, yea. You're on the list." I smiled. "But sorry, you're late."

"Wh-what?"

"See... You're a minute and ten seconds late. Rule number one, 'We do not accept late students strictly'. So sorry, my dear."

"No... You can't be serious, c'mon."

"Well, I am pretty serious here." He looked at me mockingly. Old people, you're really annoying most of the time!

"Well, I am more serious than you are. And bet you know my future's out there. I'm just a step away from it, open this freakin' gate, Mr. Guard. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez!"

"Rule number two says, 'The guard should give the gate keys to the administrators' and I'm about to. This is my job, my dear. Try again next time." He waves the keys in front of my eyes.

"Next time? Are you kidding me? The next exam's six years away from now! Know what? If you could just let me in, everything's gonna be okay."

"I'm just doing my job, dear. Go and have fun, you wouldn't be happy to take the exam with a bleeding forehead. Go." I touched at my aching forehead. Sure, it's still bleeding. I'm such a mess. When I looked in front of me, the guard was about twenty-meters away from the gate now.

I have no choice but to shed tears... My future's there, how can I just lose it this way? Such a bad luck I had today.

Ouch, my forehead still hurts.

Speaking of my forehead, why on earth did it have a cut? Let me flip back the pages... All I can remember is that I was running as fast as I can to get to school to take that exam... I even saw the tower of our school that reminds me I'm actually near... I just needed to cross the street and run a little more to get to school-wait. Did I say... I just needed to CROSS THE STREET?

O.o

I crossed the street running and I saw the sky. What was that? Then I saw a blurry picture of the guy standing beside the shining white car who called out my name when I stood up and ran away... I must've been hit by that car! Oh, God. I cannot picture out his face! How does he look like? He's going to pay! I missed my exams and my future slipped away from my hands because he bumped on me! No, his CAR bumped me! I can't jump into conclusions but I'm pretty sure it was him! I just can't recognize how he looks like. Oh... It's making me cry.

Could he be someone like... Brad Pitt? Ugh, no. Or someone like, Mi Nam? I don't think so. Maybe he's my father? God, no! He doesn't have a white car. Damn, who the hell is he!

I'm so stupid. I'll die of my parents will know this. OMG, I hope I'm dreaming. I just hope I'm dreaming.

I'm sorry, mother, for breaking my promise that I will be a doctor someday. I'm sorry, father, for breaking your dreams for me. I'm sorry, Mother Superior, for being so stupid. I'm sorry, Mi Nyu, I broke my promise that I will be a doctor as you will be the nun. I'm sorry for breaking my own dreams. Can I be at least sorry to myself? Because it hurts that I can't be a doctor anymore. I was too irresponsible. This is seriously making me cry.

I went to the nearest beach and walked myself up. I looked at the sun, why do this giver of light seems so far away. Maybe that's the truth. That a light can actually lighten up the darkest corners of this world. It's always shared with other people. My light is my dreams, but look at the sky... It's too wide. Too much for dreaming of being a doctor. The world is too wide, too many people are dreaming of my same dreams. Maybe right now, someone had just grabbed it away from me. I let it slipped away from my hands. Seeing the sky this beautiful makes me cry even more.

It's still beautiful even if I'm this down. But it's ironic that it can't actually fade away into gray as I'm crying right now. Beauty is not like this. If only I can hide from the sky because I can't picture out what is beauty right now. But the thing is that the sky will always be there no matter how I try to hide.

Like crazy crying while walking. It's already seven o'clock in the evening, there's no blue sky anymore. It's full of darkness when I looked up, that's what I hate about the night. Mi Nyu would always tell me that there are those twinkling stars at night unlike at morning. She would always remind me that there's light in the midst of the darkness. I need those words now.

Why do the world seem literally spinning? Did I drink too much? Of course not, I can even drink pales of beers right now. Is this earthquake or something? I can't walk straightly.

"Are you okay, miss?" Someone I don't know asked me.

"Of course not, I am totally fine." I lied.

"You don't look so fine."

"Why do you care? How can I be fine when my future suddenly ran away from me?" I tapped him away. "I am stupid, okay? I missed the exam today to be an official doctor. I'm gonna be dead when I get home. I am just trying to enjoy this night."

"You look terrible, c'mon. I'll bring you home. I'll get you some coffee first."

"Hey, do I know you? Don't act like you care because you? You don't know me. When I say I'm fine, I'm fine. Move." I shoved him out of my way. Did I even see him? This world's such a mess, I cannot see anything clearly.

"One more shot, please." I told the bar tender.

My stomach's acting up. Comfort room, I gotta run now.

"Excuse me, excuse me." I shoved everyone out of my way. Please, move everyone. I'm in a bad, bad situation right now. Oops, wrong door. This way to the Female Room.

It's a relief. Whew... Wait, what time is it? I need more shots, please. Because I can't drink like this anymore when I get home. Oh, shoot. It's past one in the morning? Geez, I gotta run!

"Hey, wait!" Someone shouted as I was running towards the door. "Wait!" Well, I know I'm running in a crazy zigzag way. But I have to get home.

"Why are you late?" Mom surprised me when I entered the house. Act normal, Sung Hyo.

I smiled, no... I faked a smile. "I-I was enjoying the whole night!"

"Enjoying the night without your bag with you?" Dad was beside Mom. Well, I didn't see him when I entered the house.

"My bag? Oh, geez. Where could have I left it..." I was thinking... go think of any wise excuses, Sung Hyo.

"Stop acting, Sung Hyo." Mom said.

I'm dead.