Disclaimer: I don't own iCarly, if I did i would choose Cam to be together when the show started.

Please be positive about this story this is my first Cam and first femslash. Be gentle on reviews.

Well most of you should know me I'm Samantha Puckett but my friends call me Sam. I'm mostly abrasive; get bad grades, in and out of juvie. But that was the old me. Ever since I started dating Carly two years ago I have changed my acts. I can keep secrets most of the time. I have a huge secret that no one knows about not even Carly. I usually tell her everything, but not this; I'm just going to tell you now. Ever since my mom was able to pick up a beverage that was alcoholic she has been abusing me. Well I guess I can get to the story.

I was in the Shay's loft kissing my girlfriend when my phone started buzzing in my pocket. It was Melanie my older sister. I pulled away and looked at Carly's disappointed face.

"I'm sorry cupcake but mama has to take this." I said. She nodded and said she needed something from her room. I answered my phone.

"Hey princess, what's up?"

Oh, nothing much, just working on homework. How are things with mom?" I started to tear up. "Okay I guess."

Samantha, I know you better than that, have you even told Carly about this?"

"No, I'm scared she'll think of me different or leave me."

"Samantha, trust me, she's your girlfriend. She won't leave you. You need to tell someone about this Sam, you can't let mother abuse you the rest of your life."

"But I can't do anything about it. She even let one of her stupid boyfriends rape me when I tried to tell the cops."

Carly's P.O.V

I don't think she knew but when I got out of my room I heard Sam talking to her sister. I stood there in heartbreak as I heard this from Sam. I didn't know anything about this and she wouldn't tell me? I'm her girlfriend for god's sake. I came downstairs near the end of their conversation and wrapped my arms around Sam's waist comfortingly yet protectively.

Sam

I felt someone's arms around me that felt like Carly's so I knew I had to end my phone call.

"Listen, Mel I need to get going, yeah see you on Monday. Love ya."

I ended the call and looked at Carly.

"Sam, why didn't you tell me?" she said.

"How much did you hear?" I asked her tenderly.

"Enough to know why you hate your mother so much."

I started to feel sick and nauseous but I wanted to kiss Carly really bad.

"I need to go to the bathroom." I said as I got up off the couch.

Carly followed and held onto my hair as I threw up. I brushed my teeth and left Carly in the bathroom. "Sam… Sam…. Sam!"

We sat down on the couch and I started crying. "Shh, baby it's going to be okay. Have you had your period yet?" She asked.

I shook my head. "Here let's go get a pregnancy test for you. Okay?"

I nodded. We walked down to the nearest drug store and got a test. I was really nauseous when we got out of the store and almost fainted. Carly picked me up and walked home. When we got in her apartment we sat on her couch.

"Now when did the rape happen?" She asked.

"I don't know, three maybe two months ago?" I said

"Let's go get you checked out okay?" She said. I nodded.

Well I hope you like it. Tell me if you want me to continue this. Please gentle reviews :) I will even give virtual brownies.