Title: No Words Were Needed
A/N: Song used is Don't Let Us Get Sick by Pat Guadagno. I do not own the song, nor do I own the characters of Stargate SG-1. I am simply a fan writing for my own pleasure purposes. Also this is a new style of story that I've written, so please forgive any minor ish mistakes, but do enjoy. Cheers.
Jack POV
The drive home felt like hours after leaving the base. I couldn't stay there any longer. Standing there watching Sam speak at Janet's memorial service was heartbreaking. She had just lost not only a co-worker but also her best friend. Sam spoke of how if it were not for Janet a number of the people within the SGC would be dead; including himself. After the service I wanted nothing more than to go up and embrace Sam again just as we had did in infirmary, but I knew that wasn't possible. The regulations were still there, and then there was Pete.
I arrived at home and slowly made my way inside, my bruised ribs were still very sore and all I wanted to do now was take a few pain meds, have a beer, and go to bed. As I make my way inside I headed straight for the kitchen, grabbed a beer from the fridge and reached into my pocket to find the bottle of prescribed pain meds. I know it's not smart to mix the two, but at that moment I didn't care. I hurt emotionally and physically, and if anything is going to help, it was this. Instead of heading towards my bedroom, I found myself making moving closer to the living room. I dropped my dress blue jacket and the tie on the lounger as I headed for the couch but not before hitting the power button on the CD player.
Don't let us get sick
Don't let us get old
Don't let us get stupid, all right?
Just make us be brave
And make us play nice
And let us be together tonight
As I continued to listen to whatever CD was in the player I take a sip of my beer, and it is as I am doing so that a picture on the mantle catches my eye. I remember the day as if it were yesterday. But really it had been months since that day, it was Cassie's 18th birthday. We had a dinner before she headed out with her friends for the night, and it was before she left that she insisted on a "family" picture. "Alright, you guys get together and I'll snap it" I had said. But Cassie was very insistent that I took be in the picture, "No way Jack. I want you in the picture too. We're all family" she said. So there we all were, Daniel, Teal'c, Janet, Cassie, Sam, and I. As I continued to examine the picture, I couldn't help but focus my attention to the now missing member of our family, Janet. She was so happy that day despite her little girl becoming a young adult. She had been such an amazing mom to the young girl she too in; and now the poor kid has lost both her mothers. I lift my beer to salute our fallen friend. 'We'll miss you Doc' I whisper. It is then that my eyes are drawn to another member of the family; Sam. I never noticed it until now, the fact that she isn't even looking at the camera, in fact neither of us are. It is as if we're lost in each other's eyes and the funny thing is I can't even remember why. 'What she must be going through right now. I wish I could be there for her, but she has Pete' I think to myself as I take another swig of my beer.
The sky was on fire
When I walked to the mill
To take up the slack in the line
I thought of my friends
And the troubles they've had
To keep me from thinking of mine
'It shouldn't matter. What we have is something that they'll never have. She and I have this bond…a bond that has been there since I can remember. He isn't the right person to be with her right now. Dammit I should be the one to hold her in my arms while we both mourn the loss of our friend.' I say to myself as I place my beer down on the coffee table and head towards the door.
As I got closer to the door I had images running through my mind that it could have easily have been me that she is mourning tonight. The fact that I was able to walk away with only a few bruised ribs is a miracle. I grab my keys that are on the banister and go to open the door, and it is there that I see a teary blue eyed blonde standing on my doorstep soaking went from the fallen rain.
Sam POV
After the ceremony I looked around for him, but Daniel had told me that he had already left. I said my goodbyes and headed towards the elevators, and doing so I did my best to keep my composure but as soon I had got to my car the tears came. I couldn't control them. Thinking back to when I saw Jack get shot by the staff blast, my heart sank. When I walked into his medical room I tried to hold back the tears but they came with full force and he just held me. Every time I think about him getting hit I can't help but think that this was going to be his last hit. I panicked, and a Major in the Air Force, panicking is how people get killed. But this time I didn't care, the thought of even losing Jack terrified me. After what felt like hours I was finally able to start my car and drive home, or at least I thought I was going home. When the car finally came to a stop I found myself parked outside the Colonels home. The thought of going home to my house, to a man who clearly loved me hadn't even crossed my mind. Pete wasn't who I needed to be with, it was Jack. The fear of losing him is what brought me outside his house; it's what encouraged me to walk up to his doorstep in the pouring rain. I needed to be sure he was alright, and alive.
Don't let us get sick
Don't let us get old
Don't let us get stupid, all right?
Just make us be brave
And make us play nice
And let us be together tonight
Still dressed in my dress blues with tears rolling down my face, find myself just standing outside his door. I've managed to make it this far but for some reason I can't find myself to knock on the door. I can hear the soft music coming from the living room so he must still be awake. 'You need to do it, I need to know he is alright and alive.' I say to myself as I raise my hand to knock on the door…when suddenly it opens. And there standing in front of me holding his eyes is Jack.
Jack POV
As I quickly open the door in order to make my way over to Sam's, I find her standing there. I don't say anything; instead I move aside and allow her to step inside, out of the rain. She slowly makes her way past me and towards the living room, upon seeing her do so I head off in the opposite direction towards the bedroom.
A few moments later I make my way back towards the living room having quickly changed into jeans and a t-shirt, I was sure to also grab a change of clothes for Sam; and old Air Force t-shirt and also sweatpants that I knew were going to be too big but I didn't think she would mind. I found her standing by the mantle looking at the very picture I too had been reminiscing about. Janet's face, her smile, and remembering the last time the team was all together clearly had made fresh tears fall from Sam's eyes. I slowly walked towards her and as I do I see that her legs are beginning to shake and just as they are about to fall out from under her I catch her in my arms. She slowly lifted her head to look at me, and it was through those tears that I saw the most beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen. Slowly I helped her back onto her feet and gesture towards the change of clothes I had dropped on the chair, and it then with a slight nod that she grabbed the change of clothes and headed towards the bedroom.
As Sam headed towards the bedroom, I turn my attention to the kitchen and decide that a pot of coffee is probably needed for her. It brews quicker than I thought and as I head back towards the living room with a cup of coffee for Sam and a cold beer for me, I notice that Sam has yet to emerge from the bedroom. However as I take a seat on the couch and slowly begin to sip my coffee, through the sound of the music coming from the CD player and the rain pouring outside, I can still make out the soft footsteps Sam is making as she slowly comes back to me.
The moon has a face
And it smiles on the lake
And causes the ripples in Time
I'm lucky to be here
With someone I like
Who maketh my spirit to shine
Sam POV
As I emerged from the bedroom, now clothed in an oversized t-shirt and sweatpants I can smell the fresh brew of coffee. Slowly I make my way back towards the living room , however stopping atop the stairs. Standing there I can't help but sigh with relief. 'He is alright and alive' I think to myself as I continue to watch him sip his beer. Suddenly I see his head start to turn to look at me. Normally I would start to show a nice shade of red, but this time it's different. As he continues to look at me I can see the pain in his eyes, a pain that has been there too many times before, and it is there that I notice that he too is seeing pain, but not his, this time it's mine.
I carefully make my way closer towards the couch being sure to never break eye contact with Jack. It is as if he is drawing me to him. But suddenly I stop. It's like there is a force field preventing me from getting closer to him, a force field that I am too good at putting up. As much as I want to be near him right now, I'm scared.
Jack POV
'She's hesitating' I think to myself as I continue to watch her. I've seen this too many times before. But at a time like this when it's clear that we need each other she again puts of this force field, but this time I am going to break through.
I rise to my feet and slowly walk towards her; I see once again the tears forming in her eyes. Without thinking any further I quickly take another step and pull her into my arms. At first I thought she would hesitate and try and pull away from me, but instead she wraps her arms tightly around me pulling our bodies closer together as she cries those tears into my shoulder.
After a few moments I guide her towards the bedroom, I decided that it isn't coffee that she needs instead rather it's me.
Sam POV
I can feel my legs moving but in a direction that I am not sure of, at least not until I take a moment to stop. Jack had led us towards his bedroom, and as I take a second to think about it, it's not what it seems. So many times I have dreamt of the day that I would share this very bedroom with him, but tonight is not that night. I can see Jack looking at me with concern, but as I give him a slight nod he continues to guide me into the bedroom and towards the bed. And it is there that as I stood at the foot of the bed that that I see Jack lay on his back, and it is not too long before I am joining him. I place my head on his shoulder and wrap an arm around his torso as he too brings his arms around my body, holding me tightly. His arms felt strong and caring, which was exactly what I needed. I needed to feel him close, to smell him, to feel him around me. I felt his arms tighten even more around me as he I buried my face deeper into his neck. Sam shut her eyes and tightened her arms around him as well.
Don't let us get sick
Don't let us get old
Don't let us get stupid, all right?
Just make us be brave
And make us play nice
And let us be together tonight
Jack POV
I held her as close to me as I could. The tears began again. She cried over Janet, and she cried over almost losing me. I felt frustration of not being able to do more for her. I was angry, angry over the rules preventing us from being together, angry that the rules wouldn't even allow us to do this. But tonight neither one of use cared. This was the closet we had been to ever crossing that line. Tonight we needed each other, and tonight the rules weren't going to stand in our way.
Instead, it was the unfortunate event of losing a co-worker, a friend, and family member that let us be to together tonight, a night in which no words were needed.
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