-It's a bit sloppy but what I imagine might have happened-

I slip through the door seemingly silent, but I know he can hear me. My breath is ragged and unsteady, but I exhale deeply, knowing that I have to be strong to do this, I have to make him believe me, and also make myself believe that this is the right thing to do.

The room is dark, partly because the lights are out, but also because the curtains are drawn shut, tight to keep the light of reality distant. I can still make out the silhouette of his broad shoulders and back. And somehow, deep inside me like a pull in the back of my stomach, I know…that he knows. My eyes flicker all around him, his mind is closed to me, but I hardly try to penetrate the barrier, knowing he doesn't want me in. There's a pang of guilt because I know why, and I have to stop myself from stepping forward and putting my hands onto his shoulders and wrapping myself around him. I could see him turning in my arms and bringing his face close to mine. I stop breathing, I can't let myself go there, I can not, or I will never do what I know in my heart is the right thing.

So quickly I have to refocus my eyes to see him clearly he spins around to me. My eyes flicker to his face just briefly, but I can already see the pain there. Swelling in his eyes, I can see it. I look to the side, and I hear him, breathing heavily, but only loud enough for me to hear. My lips part and I'm about to speak ,but he's there. So quickly, I gasp. So fast my head is unclear on what I am meant to do here. I can smell him, but my eyes slipped closed at some point. "Schuyler." He breathes. "There is a way." I squeeze my eyes shut, No no I've tried everything, you and Mimi are bonded together, there is no way. I think over and over. He brings his forehead to mine. "I can find a way, I know there is a way." He sounds so determined, his voice is confident but strangled because he can feel me pulling away.

I realize I have to see his face, I have to see that I am right, that he belongs with Mimi, his perfectly blonde twin sister. I never should have put myself here, in the middle of something so powerful was insane, I should know, of all people, my mother is lying frozen in a coma that keeps us separated. When I look into his eyes and see the longing there and realize it is for me, it's enough to push me through. "I can't," I choke for a second but keep going. "I can't be with you. We don't belong together." I say the last part firmly, and then I see the light in his eyes for my go out. Pain, indescribable pain contorts his face into a grimace and he closes his eyes for a minute, and as he does, I choose that moment to slip out of the most wonderful room in the world, a place I would never forget, no matter how long I live. Some many wonderful memories there, and I vowed to never forget them, and to never forget Jack.