I'm awesome

It's a word I use to express himself. It's a generic repeating phrase, it's a saying that I hide behind myself. Pretending

I'm awesome.

It means I'm scared, It means I'm scared of being forgotten when I watch my friends walk by me and forget I'm there. Staring at you with my glinting eyes, full of lies.

I'm awesome

It means I'm not actually okay being alone, I can't stand the thought being alone; one more goddamn day. Sitting here watching the world walking by.

I'm awesome

Means I don't want to forgotten by the history books, my friends or my family. Even my little brother resents that I'm still here, and no one notices me.

I'm Awesome, can't you see!

I'm not afraid to be anything but me. So I put on this mask I've been wearing for centuries and try to turn the charts, pushing over piano benches to attempt to get noticed by even the man who hates me.

Kesesesese.

If I'm different, will that make others notice my pain?

Five meters bitch!

I'm fake, can't you realize, I'm not sure of myself.

You can't take me down!

I do that myself.