As with any story I do not own these characters. These are just my thoughts of what would happen. Hope you enjoy.

"Last Month I woke up yelling at the top of my lungs, and now that is going to be in front of Kensi" he had said to Jack just a few months ago.

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It happened again. He woke up in a pool of sweat. This time he held the screams inside his head. He looked over and saw that Kensi was still asleep. Thank God I didn't disturb her this time he thought. His nightmares were getting worse and more frequent. The frustrating thing was he couldn't remember what they were about once he woke up.

He got out of bed and went to the living room. Of course Monty jumped up from here he was sleeping and followed him. Deeks went to the window and looked out to the water. It would be another hour before the sun would come up. Should he go for a run? Should he get his board and go catch some surf? Should he just suck it up and go back to bed? All questions he was asking himself. Instead he headed to the kitchen and bent down to get the bag that he kept under the kitchen sink. Just one swig would take the edge off. Just one. Then he dialed a number.

Meanwhile in the bed room, Kensi eyes had opened the minute he left the room. She felt him tossing and turning, but the last time she woke him up it didn't turn out good. She knew it wasn't his fault that he had pinned her down. The look in his eyes were so haunted. She didn't know what to do. She got up and went to the door. All she could think of was would this be another Jack situation. Could she go through this again?

She heard him talking on the phone. "I don't know what to do. I can't have her see me like this." "I think I might need to take a break"

Take a break, take a break from what? she thought. They had just moved in with each other a few months ago. She felt bad listening to his conversation. But she was glad that he was talking to someone but a little jealous that he was talking to someone else. Then she picked up the phone and dialed a number.

Two hours later they both headed to work in silence. Kensi had tried to make conversation over breakfast but Deeks was in his own little world. This was going to be a long day if they weren't going to talk to each other.