Chapter 1
"From the beginning, you and I were like water and oil" Obito had spoken once.
It didn't take long for both of them to fall in love.
Didn't take long to start for them to start their own lives…
Didn't take long for it all to end
"Everyone get out of here quickly!"
Time was running out, walls where already crumbling and there was even barely a way to escape.
"Kakashi watch out!"
No.
Walls were crumbling
There was no escape
There was heart ache….
"OBITO!!!"
Bring Me To Life
How Can You See Into My Eyes Like Open Doors
Kakashi did what he did every morning before leaving his house; he knew that today he was supposed to go out and meet Naruto, Sakura, and Sai. Still this was more important, one of the most important things that he had left behind and the only thing he seemed to at least wish he had back in this world. Ever since he was taken out of his life by death, this one had been taken out by a brutal illness, he told no one of his tragedies.
He kept it all bottled up.
But he knew soon all of this was going to burst and the bubble of hope that hovered around was soon going to vanish. This could be the end.
'So soon' he thought as he ran his rough finger tips lightly through the soft traces of raven hair from the beautiful sleeping boy, his fingers trailing down to the boy's cold pale soft perfect firm cheek that once glowed like porcelain magic and now it was just a dull white color. He was his life in a way different, the boy was his son! And he had promised him that he'd always look after the boy.
Their son
A Final wish
His final responsibility and only
How can he ever help the boy open his ebony inky eyes and smile up at him once more, and call him father?
He longed for the day…but it seemed hopeless.
Konoha, down town
"You're late Kakashi!" Naruto snapped. Kakashi just smiled under his mask to all of them, he knew that Naruto and Sai were currently together and Sakura was with Ino and were married. He had kept up-dated on his surroundings despite the fact that he kept to the center heart of Konoha forest; he knew both females had also adopted a child. Though recently they had learned a new way were even with the same sex you could get pregnant, only if you ever wanted. It was actually a newer and even safer way than the first one they had ever conceived.
"Sorry, I got lost in old thoughts"
"Lia--!" Huh, old thoughts? Old thoughts about what Kakashi Sensei?" Sakura and Naruto asked tilting their heads in curiosity at the same time while Sai just sat there drawing his lattes art work. He'd like to think himself a connoisseur of all types of fine art actually. Though he only and always struggled to understand music and its basic fundamentals and composers, the way they could hear that music and lyrics in their head. It troubled him that he could not hold a lullaby to his head.
But this is way off topic already.
"Nothing much, just something that keeps me weighing down in the past…." There was a moment silence "let' get down to work….or whatever you called me here for" To Kakashi, Naruto, Sakura, and Sai were like his kids and this was their private small family, yet without his real son life just felt every bit empty, as if something warm and exquisite was missing from making a perfect picture. He could not enjoy life until he knew that he was alright.
"Well, you see Kakashi we have to take you somewhere" Sakura said looking to the side shaking her finger around in the air. Kakashi raised a brow, these three were planning something. They were always planning something ever since they were young.
"What is it?" Naruto and Sakura grinned in the same manner and Kakashi wanted to just leave and regretted even going out today. Sometimes he also wondered if Sakura and Naruto were born twins due to the similarities in their behavior. He should have not left his son's side, but his son was his own secret, no one here knew about him at all. No one would ever have guessed that he Kakashi Hatake has a son, no one would even give a chance to the thought. In his own kind of way he didn't want to but he truly felt those memories resurfacing.
He didn't want to share the burden. It was only and always his!
"Come with us Kakashi" He followed. Suspicion was in his eye. Sakura and Naruto just snickered; they loved this kind of stuff. Sai was just along for the riot.
Konoha Dome
"Happy birthday Kakashi!" Kakashi had to admit he was surprised; everyone seemed to here, all the groups, and even the Akatsuki members who were usually too stuck up to do anything, or even accept invitations from their own parents. He was speechless. On top of everything he had forgotten his own birthday! He was more preoccupied with way more precious things…….
"Come sit down Kakashi, you need it" Naruto said pulling out a chair and allowing him to sit down. Kakashi gulped when he saw everything. All the smiling faces, the talking, the laughter, and he missed his son's singing, his music, laughter, and his arrogance. It haunted him and he blamed himself, he paled as Naruto pushed him to the chair. He couldn't stand it, he needed to be by his boy's side, and he abruptly stood up knocking the chair away.
"I really can't stay" He muttered walking away. "I shouldn't even be here" he murmured to himself.
"No Kakashi wait!" Iruka came from behind and embraced the silver haired man that he loved and stayed with for almost three hundred years now. He'd been loyal and he was way more than patient, he needed to know what it was that kept this still short distance between them both after so long "Why do you always run away like that? Can't you please stay? Everyone is here to celebrate your special day" He could, he knew. But then he would feel like he did the wrong thing staying here. What about his son's special day? His dormant cold child……
"No" he kept walking "I'm sorry" he murmured. Everyone was simply staring in curiosity to his odd behavior but the sadness shone in his lone black eye that was reveled by his mask. Kakashi was hurting and they didn't know why.
"What is it that has changed you so much?! I can see it you know, you're not the same as you used to be!!" Iruka snapped backing away "you even hide your face under a mask from me and you just won't respond to me anymore…..I love you Kakashi! Why do you keep this distance" Kakashi's heart melted at his neglected boyfriend's words. Back then he had believed there was hope and that his son would get better so he tried to ignore it, but even though that missing part was hollow, Iruka was still there. And yet years flew by and still no progress for his son and he felt like he had been selfish thinking only of himself "Please tell me what's wrong!"
"I'm sorry" he repeated, so many years had passed that it seemed impossible "but I don't deserve you, I've hid so many things from you already" Kakashi's voice had begun to crack. "Kept secrets from everyone……"
"What-" Iruka was confused.
"I've never told you-or anyone for that matter about my eye, about his death, about my past, about his frozen state" Kakashi took in a shaky breath "I have to go, it's best if you don't follow me at all, today I just want to be alone to think on my own" Iruka wanted to stop him but Gai put a hand on his shoulder to keep him back as everyone watched a gloomy Kakashi walk away.
"Leave him be for the moment, he'll talk to us when he is ready" Gai whispered. In all their years they had never seen Kakashi so broken and now he looked as if he's lost more than anything in this whole world. As if all hope he once held was gone.
Kakashi sprinted home, he wanted to be there for his son and be by his side, he was not sure what was going to happen but if his boy did not awake soon he was never going to. So many years had passed already and his heart ache could never be erased, he felt bad that he could never let Iruka get so close to him or even come to love him as he once did love.
Once losing his father was not much, it did not hurt as much as losing his lover. The one that used to be his husband, the other father to his child, the missing piece of their now broken family.
Coming inside to the quiet room that once would have been filled with booming music and the singing laughter of a small child, the place now so dark and gloomy, he made his way over to the frozen person he was visiting just a few minutes ago. Or was it an hour? Who could tell, but he had learned that time sure does pass you by in a blink of an eye.
In this case, time was running out.
This was the last thing that he promised his love to care for, the last thing he had and truly wished to have back. Pulling a chair to the side of the bed Kakashi sat down and grabbed the icy soft cold hand in both his warm ones. "My son, my boy" He sighed.
Memories flooded his mind once more.
He wanted his son to know…..
It had all begun when he and Obito became more than just friends….
This is Being posted By Jazz, El's cousin.-Unlike her I have a laptop and decided to post my own story aside from her in this site. I've had this Idea when I first read the last volume of Naruto, and then the second Arch starts when they are all 15, so yeah. Hope you like it. I'm also using A song from Evanescene -Bring Me To Life.
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