Wandering up and down this street
No sound but the pounding of my feet
And the steady drumming of my heavy heart
Reminds me I'm alive when everything is falling apart
All the things I held onto are far gone
Wishing I could fix the things I did wrong
To tell you how I really feel
And save your life from this condemning deal
But that time has passed and it's much too late
My chance has been burned by a fiery hate
Of those who live to see others pain
To torture and mock and drive them insane
I have too many scars that time just won't heal
O I only wish I couldn't feel
You used to hold my demons at bay
And you would tell me it would be okay
But the dam has broken and the floodgates have burst
And the darkness has an unquenchable thirst
To swallow me whole and darken my eyes
And pull me under no matter how hard I try
To fight my fate and change my past
My destiny's coming much too fast
I hold your memory close to my heart
In the form of an amulet from which I will never part
The wood is scuffed and the leather worn
It seems to stand as a tribute to mourn
Of a life that was lived to protect and save
You were fighting the evil to the end of your days
And yet I know I'm the one to blame
For this twisted turn in this sickly game
Whether intentional or by pure chance
I'm responsible for this dark circumstance
Your empty seat seems to draw my gaze
And remind me of the better days
Where my greatest worry was the safety of others
And my only duty was to take care of my brother
I fall to my knees and let out a cry
"Why o why did you have to die?"
You left me here alone and afraid
Fully aware that my debt has been paid
Each hotel room seems so dark and dreary
And there really is no rest for the weary
Sleep won't come as I toss and turn
And as I drift my thoughts do churn
My sleep is wracked with nightmarish dreams
I jolt awake with a hair-raising scream
Your image is burned into my head
And I think back to something you once said
"You will always be safe while I am here"
My vision swims as I wipe away tears
I weep with sorrow as I look to the sky
I just want the chance to say goodbye
And say thank you for all that you do
And tell you, dear brother, I truly love you
Goodbye Forever Dean
