Wandering up and down this street

No sound but the pounding of my feet

And the steady drumming of my heavy heart

Reminds me I'm alive when everything is falling apart

All the things I held onto are far gone

Wishing I could fix the things I did wrong

To tell you how I really feel

And save your life from this condemning deal

But that time has passed and it's much too late

My chance has been burned by a fiery hate

Of those who live to see others pain

To torture and mock and drive them insane

I have too many scars that time just won't heal

O I only wish I couldn't feel

You used to hold my demons at bay

And you would tell me it would be okay

But the dam has broken and the floodgates have burst

And the darkness has an unquenchable thirst

To swallow me whole and darken my eyes

And pull me under no matter how hard I try

To fight my fate and change my past

My destiny's coming much too fast

I hold your memory close to my heart

In the form of an amulet from which I will never part

The wood is scuffed and the leather worn

It seems to stand as a tribute to mourn

Of a life that was lived to protect and save

You were fighting the evil to the end of your days

And yet I know I'm the one to blame

For this twisted turn in this sickly game

Whether intentional or by pure chance

I'm responsible for this dark circumstance

Your empty seat seems to draw my gaze

And remind me of the better days

Where my greatest worry was the safety of others

And my only duty was to take care of my brother

I fall to my knees and let out a cry

"Why o why did you have to die?"

You left me here alone and afraid

Fully aware that my debt has been paid

Each hotel room seems so dark and dreary

And there really is no rest for the weary

Sleep won't come as I toss and turn

And as I drift my thoughts do churn

My sleep is wracked with nightmarish dreams

I jolt awake with a hair-raising scream

Your image is burned into my head

And I think back to something you once said

"You will always be safe while I am here"

My vision swims as I wipe away tears

I weep with sorrow as I look to the sky

I just want the chance to say goodbye

And say thank you for all that you do

And tell you, dear brother, I truly love you

Goodbye Forever Dean