He is ashamed.

He doesn't have to tell me, I can see it on his face. The way he doesn't look at me as I suck his cock. His head is turned away and his eyes are closed as if looking down at me would be a sin.

When I am inside him, he doesn't move or make a sound for fear of being caught. Even now as I try to bring him to completion, his hips don't move in abondon trying to force himself deeper into my mouth. The pain I can read on his face tells me that he doesn't even want the pleasure I'm bringing him. Coming would just solidify the supposed wrongness of our relationship.

I understand where His shame is coming from. Two men being together is not something that people tolerate, especially in the shinobi world.

Mission sex is ok, its something entirely different. It is used purely as a physical release and to relieve stress after difficult missions. I am sure he has been a participant in some sort of sexual activity during his own missions, although I was the first to take him, the first he trusted to take him.

*

My Lee.

You are strong, kind, and caring my love. Why are you ashamed of being with me?

I am not ashamed of us and yet time and time again I agree to this mockery of love making. We meet in places where only the lowest of people come to do their business. I don't enjoy this but here I am, on my knees in this disgusting alley for you, always for you.

You drag me to these places to be with you but you do not participate beyond letting me touch you. How conflicted you must feel, wanting me so badly and knowing how people would react if they knew about this, about us.

You don't have to worry though. I will protect you, with my life if I must. No one will harm you with me by your side and if they do, they will die. I never want to see you hurt again. I may have been the cause and I may have almost killed you but when I think back on it now, it pains me to know how badly I hurt you. I'm sorry.

Why do I agree to this? Why have I not ended it? I am the Kazekage. There are many people that would gladly be my lover but none of them are you, Lee. None of them are you.

I love you. I know you love me too.

Love, we both know that is a concept I still do not fully understand. I fear I never will.

I love Temari and Kankuro, but they are my siblings. That is a different kind of love. You taught me that Lee. You taught that the love for a brother is different than the love for a friend or for a lover or even for your favorite food. I'm still not sure how you can love food. You can help me to understand that as well.

Lee, am I going to show you there is nothing to be ashamed of. I promise you, you will never feel this way again. I am going to make love to you in your bed here in Konoha and in my bed in Suna, until it is our bed and our home that you speak of.

*

I have been thinking too much and not paying attention to what I'm doing. I know how much it pains him for me to do this, take too long.

I have decided. I am going to take him back to his home and show him what he means to me. I'll make him weep and want to show me what I mean to him. He will never be afraid of us again after today.

Before I can change my mind, I release his cock and tuck him back into his pants. He looks at me in confusion.

I caress the back of his neck and lean in to kiss him. This is the only time he ever moves. His kisses are wonderful and perfect. I can never have enough of them.

My free hand searches for his and our fingers link together as his other hand moves to tangle in my hair.

The need for air comes and much sooner than I'd like, I am pulling my lips off his. Lee's eyes are half closed and he looks content. I lean my forehead on his.

"I love you."

He stiffens before he replys, "I know."

Its always the same. He never says it back but I know he feels the same. I can see it in his eyes when he looks at me from across the room and hear it in his voice when he says my name. Its only fear that prevents him from saying it. He will say it before long. I will make him.

I take his other hand and lead him toward the end of the alley. His grip tightens and he begins to sweat. I let go as we approach the busy street.

We walk in silence toward our destination, which to him is unknown. He will know soon eoough.

Lee's eyes widen as we reach his apartment building. He looks at me to voice his confusion but I silence him with a small shake of my head.

I take him to his bedroom once we're inside.

As I sit on the edge of his bed, I pull him down to straddle my lap. His mouth opens to speak but I swallow his words with a long, breathtaking kiss. I could drown in his kiss.

It was barely there, but I heard it. A small sound in the back of his throat, trying to make itself known. With renewed vigor, I plunder his mouth with my tongue as I lay him down.

I will bury his shame with my love and make him forget.

I promise.