As Merideth sat on the red-eye plane to Seattle, she clutched the arm rests lost in her thoughts. How would her friends treat her after she just up and left them? There is no way they would ever forgive her. She considers the possibility of maybe avoiding her friends...but at Seattle Grace, that would be like turning water into wine, virtually impossible. The plane signal goes on and the captain announces over the speaker that they will be landing shortly. Merideth is pulled from her thoughts when the small boy beside her begins to cry. She smile lightly as she watches his mom and comfort him. They shushed him and assure him he will be just fine. The happy family makes it look easy, like happiness is that easily attained. If it was, then how come every time Merideth tried to grasp it, it just slipped further away? Merideth was the last one on the plane. She was glued to her seat until the flight attendant told her she had to get off so that they could get it ready for the next flight. Merideth looked at her with pleading eyes as she pulled herself out of her seat. After she collected her luggage, she rented a car and drove into Seattle at the minimum speed limit. Deep in thought again, she remembered her last day in Seattle:

"Merideth!…Merideth!" Derek shouted at her as he chased after her into the parking lot.

"I don't want to see you" she mumbled angrily.

"Can't we just talk?" Derek pleaded and even flashed a weak smile.

"Talk about what?! The fact that we had sex in a hospital bed during prom two weeks ago while you were there with your wife, or maybe the fact that you have a wife?!" Merideth had tears in her eyes and she was shaking with frustration and anger.

"Merideth…" , Derek said quietly as he tried to brush the hair out of her face.

"No! No! Not anymore Derek. I am not letting you do it again. You have had two weeks to tell Addison, yet you are still married. I won't wait any longer, it's over/ I…I have to go. Sorry." She was barely even whispering at the end. She got in her car and drove away leaving a deflated Derek behind her. The last time she saw him was in her rearview mirror. She wasn't positive, but she swore she saw him crying. The rest was a blur to her. She packed some essentials and was out of the house before George or Izzie got home She even tried to say goodbye to her mother, but Ellis would not see her., so she went straight to the airport and bought a one way ticket to New York. Merideth had always regretted the way she had left two years ago, but she couldn't take it anymore. She had tried many times to call or write, but she could never figure out the right things to say. She was never happy on New York, but it had giver her time to think. She had given up being a surgeon 4 months into her internship at New York General after having an emergency surgery that she kept very secret. She took up teaching at an elementary school and also quit that. She then began working at a teen center and did a lot of rewarding work with pregnant teens. She had lost the glow in her face and didn't smile for a while. She was also very thin and fragile. Though she eventually began to gain back some happiness, she felt as though a huge part of her was missing. Merideth didn't mind it in New York and was trying to be happy. She was making progress when she got a call from the chief . She never did find out how he got her phone number, but he told her she should come home and be with her mother because he didn't know how much time she had left. Merideth was hesitant at first because she was really starting to enjoy her job and thing were beginning to look up for once. Her mom ended up winning in the end and Merideth decided it was time to face her fears and move back to Seattle.

Tell me if you like it because I have the next few chapters done, I just want to know if I should keep posting