Expectedly unexpected Chapter I

I'm running faster and faster but I'm not moving, Not actually running. I'm so scared of my thoughts and emotions that my mind creates a whirlwind of thoughts. The smoke fills my lungs and the liquid burns my taste buds. Was there ever a point when I was happy? I read the message sent to me a year ago today and I try not to cry, I really do try, but it won't stop. Its like the wounds are still fresh. I know I'm running out of time but I don't care. The thoughts of you kill me. I start sobbing your name over and over like its the cure to my pain but you're really the cause of it. My hearts aches so much that I forget I don't live alone. I really don't want to deal with all this pain. "Why did you do this to me Ansem?" I hear my pathetic voice brokenly sob. I'm lying on the couch with blood staining my arms, 10 bottles of tequila and drugs of all kinds strewn across the table. I hear the jingling of keys at the front door. My muddled brain realises who it is and my body tries to hide the mess that covers the living room floor but I immediately fall to the floor. I hear a pained gasp coming from this beautiful boys mouth and my heart clenches painfully. I put my head into my arms in shame. "Riku... Why?" Sora starts sobbing and runs up to me, cradling my head in this arms. I try to speak and put on my smile and say I'm fine but Sora hushes me. He starts to leave and call someone but I whine softly begging with my eyes for him to just stay. I'm in so much pain and I want him to take all of it away. I can hear him softly talking to someone. I guess he got his phone... He's so warm... I hear the sound of a motorcycle. He must've called Cloud and Squall. Cloud is a doctor at the local doctors office and Squall is a psychologist that worked at a rehab center, he was actually my psychologist the last time I went to rehab years ended up quitting and started dating cloud shortly after I got out and It was a coincidence that we met up a few years later. I felt like all of my body was made out of led and all of my senses abandoned me. All I could feel was the warmth of Sora hand Sora softly stroking my hair as my world was consumed by a drug induced darkness.

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