Why?
WHY?
Here i lie on my bed. I just saw sayori hang herself. I was her best friend. She cared more about me than anything else in the world. I told her i loved her. I do love her. That didn't stop her though. I don't understand. She isn't just a game anymore. Salvato should have known that when he made me love her. I can't lie here and stare at the ceiling. I have to find a way to save her. I sit up and look at my bedroom door. Beyond that door, is my computer with an adorable ball of extinguished sunshine hanging within it. I go to my computer.
There she hangs. Her beautiful blue eyes faded almost to a steel grey. Her neck and fingers bloodied. A struggle. She did it wrong. She accidentally strangled herself. That just makes it worse.
I reach for my mouse and the game restarts. It's glitchy, though.
I don't know what to do. Sayori's scene starts. What appears though is a sayori torn into bits of pixels.
"Sayori? You can't leave me." the bits of pixels shift around the screen as her ruined dialogue comes up, slowly.
"Come on, sayori. I love you. I don't believe you left me willingly. Come back to me."
"Asdhjaoprigaoerhfl;asdfjasdlfk;"
I lean forward, almost subconsciously. That wasn't a dialogue box. I heard that. The bits of pixels look like they are condensing.
"You have to try harder than that. I know you, sayori. You have enough fight in you to do this."
At this point, i don't know if i am just blindly reaching for anything that i think could bring sayori to me. Maybe i am losing it, but i swear she is responding to my encouragement.
"rYa!5?"
Holy shit. She can definitely hear me. I can't find my breathe. Alright.
"That's right, beautiful. Come on, baby girl. I know you can do it."
The pixels merged together and returned to the shape of sayori. But they weren't in a position that i had ever seen before. That isn't her sprite. She appears to have become animated. I can't see her face. She doesn't have her details. She is just a golden silhouette.
"Sayori? Can you still hear me? Are you alright?"
*THUD*
My monitor just shook.
*THUD*
The silhouette is banging on the screen. She's trying to escape!
"Come on, sayori! Let's be together!"
"I'M COMING, RYALS!"
She pulls her fist back one more time. My monitor is emitting a golden glow that is nearly blinding at this point.
Ironic. She always was described as a ball of sunshine. As i finished that thought, her fist collided with the screen one more time, in that same moment, the golden glow became blinding. All i can see is her fist. It didn't stop at the screen this time. Here i sit. Her little fist is passing through the screen with the rest of her following it.
If she wasn't about to punch my face, i would say she looked like an angel descending from a heaven. Who am i kidding. She will be sorry. She will probably nurse me until i wake up when she gets here and realizes she knocked me out with one punch.
Then it all went dark.
My head hurts, there's going to be a headache waiting for me when i open my eyes. I know it. I'm not alone. There's someone stroking my head. And my head is on something soft and warm. This just gets better and better. Guess i'd better open my eyes, now. Great. The golden glow is gone.
As i open my eyes more, i am greeted with something wonderful that i had come to the conclusion i would only be able to see up close in my wildest dreams. Sayori's beautiful face and blue eyes. There are tears in the corners of her eyes. I hope she's crying because she's happy to be here and not because she punched me in the face.
"I'm so happy you're okay!" she beamed at me as a tear fell and landed on my cheek. I can't hold it in. I start crying here in sayori's lap. I take her hands in mine and hold them. Warm flesh and blood hands. Warm, soft thighs under my head.
I let go of her little hands and stand up, then i pick her up in my arms bridal style and carry her to my couch and just sit there and hold her for a while. "I wanted to save you so badly. In the end, i still couldn't't save you." I meet the gaze of her deep blue eyes and hold it.
"Ryals. Don't look at it that way. I never would have found the strength without you. You gave me a reason to live." at that, we both start crying. She now clings to me just as strongly as i cling to her as we let our love and longing and hope and even some despair flood out of us in the form or tears.
"Sayori. I want you to know that no matter what i love you. I struggle with depression, too. I want you to know that from now until the end, i will stand by you and i will lend you the umbrella that i hide from my rain clouds under, so you can hide from yours with it."
this just made both of us cry even more. We held each other as though our very lives depended on it.
After another while, i started stroking her hair. Her red golden hair was as soft and smooth as silk as i ran my hands across it. Even now, her face stained by tears. Her body trembling in my arms. Her hair a wreck from putting her head in my chest. She still looks like the most beautiful angel that i have ever seen. I love her.
"Sayori. I know you love to eat. It was almost dinner time when you joined me in this world. I am sure it is time for me to show you your first real meal." she pulls her face from my chest and beams at me through her tears, complete with a smile that could rival the most perfect spring morning,
"i would like that."
