Hi, I'm new here and this is my first story that I've ever written. English is not my first language, so I'm sorry if there are any mistakes.

"I'm gonna hug you right now" - said Shay. The blonde doctor moved a little closer and wrapped her arms around smaller brunette. Within miliseconds from that touch Rafferty felt relieved and she felt like nothing else existed.

How can I miss something that never knew I needed - thought Allison. The warm embrace that she was in was soothing after hard day at work. Leslie clasped to her and she relaxed in her arms. They just stood holding onto each other. She moved her head and unintentionally smelled Shay's hair. She felt different, something was awaken inside her, strange feeling she didn't yet recognised.

"Come to the Molly's tonight" - Shay whispered to her ear. All teasing and sarcastic coments aside. She has just realised what three month suspension means. There will be no homofobic banter with her partner. No delicate flirting nor teasing.

Through last couple of weeks they made a connection. Until now neither of them could see that, but now, facing "the break-up" it was all clear. For Shay it was different to that friendship she had with Dawson, there was something more and she was wondering if Allison could also see it.

They stood like this in silence, in the locker room maybe for couple of seconds, maybe minutes, maybe hours. It was comfortable and they were perfect fit. After a while Shay broke the embrace suddenly missing the warm presence of her partner. She shut her locker with a loud band, grabbed her bag smiling to Rafferty and left the room without a word.

Allison was trying on her sixth outfit, she could decide what to wear for the evening. Nothing seemed to fit. She didn't feel like this in a long time. All that impatience, that strange annoyance. She just wanted to be at Molly's with Leslie but she didn't want to seem desperate.

Rafferty knew that Shay is probably already there, drinking with boys after their shift or maybe covering Dawson behind the bar. She went to kitchen, grabbed the largest glass she had poured herself lots of her favourite whiskey. She took a large sip to taste the liquor and felt it coming down through her throat leaving burning trail inside her.

After drinkin almost half of her drink she heard loud beep. Ever since Shay invided her to snapchat there were sending mostly their stupid selfies or funny things that happened near-by.

She opened it and saw Shay behind the bar with the sweetest grumpy face she'd ever seen.

guys want 2 play truth or dare & i suck at it :(((( - it read and Rafferty smiled widely to her phone. She was already a bit tipsy, but almost naked - only in her bra and panties. She couldn't decide what to wear.

The brunette straigtened her bare legs and took a photo added - can't decide wut 2 wear ;( and clicked sent.

She decided to look for some socks in the drawer, guessing it would be the easiest part of clothing to choose. In the bottom of her drawer she found her stash of pot and her pair of lucky socks. One of them was blue, other red, but she was wearing them on almost every important event that she could possibly think of. Including her first day at Firehouse 51.

Again she took a photo of her legs, now with socks on - is it gay enought? ;) and smiling to herself she rolled a small joint to calm her nerves.