Author's note: Okay, um, this is my first fan fiction, like, ever. So don't be surprised if it's weird, sucky, and out-of-character. This is also the first thing I've started and actually finished in almost forever, so… sorry in advance. It's a one-shot, so don't expect any 'chapters', even if you do like it. Sorry. Maybe on another story.
Umm, also, reviews are greatly appreciated… and try to be nice… please?
Summary: Sort of L's thoughts while he's on the rooftop. Nothing special or out of the ordinary. Just sort of wrote it today in math class.
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN DEATH NOTE OR ANY OF THE WONDERFUL CHARACTERS! If I did, there would be much more gay man love. :
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Light… You're Kira? Yes. I suppose I always knew. But still… I had hoped…
L stood in the dreary half-light of the rainy afternoon. Atop the roof of the Kira Investigation Headquarters, the rain fell heavily, drenching the slight figure completely.
Light, maybe if… No. I don't think I could have prevented this. I wonder… Were you born to kill me, or was I born to die at your hands?
Soaked and shivering, L crouched down into his comfortably uncomfortable sitting position and began rocking back and forth on his heels.
Light… My Light… Why?
Tears poured freely for the first time in decades, mixing with the rainwater already running down his face. Onyx eyes squeezing shut, he sobbed, falling to the side.
Light, No! You were my friend. I – I believed in you… I trusted you…
A bitter smile crawled across his face as yet another sob shook him. He sighed heavily, stopping his shaking and laying completely still.
Light… I still haven't learned. I let myself grow close to you, and look where it's gotten me. How stupid I have been. How blind! Before you, I never had to second-guess myself. I was always so sure. Things were always so clear.
He shook his head roughly, sending droplets of water in every direction. He took a deep breath, and stood up. Suddenly, his hands clenched themselves into tight fists, shaking now, not with sorrow, but from uncharacteristic and barely controlled rage.
…God, how I hate you, Light!
"Ryuuzaki." The few softly spoken syllables were enough to cool L's anger and freeze him in place instantly. "Ryuuzaki," the voice continued, "what are you doing up here?" There was a smile in the velvet voice.
A fake smile. False kindness. Friendship, loyalty, these words mean nothing to… To Kira.
Anger rekindled, L turned to face the man behind him.
He was perfect, of course. He was always perfect. L wondered at his own good fortune for being able to spend hours and hours with this angel.
Tainted angel. He corrected himself.
But somehow, remarkably, L's anger and hurt seemed to be melting away. It was always like this around the young genius. Nothing seemed to matter when he was nearby. The world's troubles disappeared, and L floated in bliss just when he was with him.
Light…
"Come on, Ryuuzaki. Let's get you inside." With a smile, Light took L's and pulled him though the door. A few seconds later, it closed with a soft click.
… I love you…
Even in his own mind, it sounded like a plea.
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