Disclaimer: I dont own Mai-HiME.. sunrise does.. if i did, then, sergay and tate wouldnt even exist in that anime.. wahahaha!


It's already two in the morning yet here I am, still staring at you. Being able to look at you like this, without me worrying of being caught is pure bliss. I know this moment will only last until your beautiful eyes open, but for now, I will cherish this till it lasts. It was five years ago when I first met you. I didn't feel anything for you then, you were just another person whom I would share my apartment with for the next four years. However, as time goes by, this changed. Somehow, you slowly worked your way, into my heart.

I hate you for being almost perfect; it only enhances the flaws that are in me, making me feel that I don't deserve you even more. I hate you for everyone likes you; knowing that everyone else desires you, not only me. I hate you for being nice; I had no reason to feel anger towards you, not even a little bit. I hate you for wearing that mask of yours, even wearing it in front of me, making me feel that you don't want me to know the true you. And I hate you for making me feel this way, even I know in my heart that you can never be mine, I still keep on hoping, even if it hurts.

I smiled when the day you told me you found someone. I said I was happy for you but my heart is being torn into pieces with every word you say related to "him". I tried listening to all your stories, even if all we do talk about is "him". I bask in a simple joy of you being around, talking, and sharing your happy moments with me, even if I'm not in it. I smiled when you accepted the heart chocolate I made you for valentines even if you just placed it on the table for "he" has given you a chocolate cake and the two of you are going to eat it together. I smiled during the day of your graduation. I gave you a hug, even what I really wanted was to give you a kiss. Finally, you are leaving me. I held back my tears for you always thought that I was a tough cookie and crying was not my thing. But the truth was, I desperately wanted to cry. Cry my pain away, cry as I watch "him" hold your hand and take you to "his" car, take you away from my life.

Now, you came to visit me, I cleaned my apartment for two days but you don't seem to notice. The moment we started a conversation, we talked about "him", again. I just pushed the hurt aside and tried being happy, just seeing you here with me is enough to overcome the pain in my heart.

And at this very moment, my heart beats wildly as I gaze into you beautiful face. The face that has captivated my heart and has plagued my dreams for so long, I know you can never be mine, but I have always been yours from the day I met you. I love you so much that now I'm letting you go, still, my heart belongs only to you.

You stirred from your sleep and you slowly opened your eyes. I quickly pretend to be fast asleep, a little sad that the moment has finally ended.

"Good Morning Natsuki" you said as you tried shaking me to wake up like you always do. I opened my eyes and was greeted with your wonderful smile. Why? Why can't I ever have that smile all to myself every time I wake up? But it doesn't matter anymore, as long as you are happy with "him", then I am contented.

"Good Morning Shizuru"


hope you like it.. this is actually based on a true to life experience.. hahaha