A/N: I'd recommend listening to And I'm Home while reading.

Please, God…look at the life I've lived. Please, let me have a happy dream, for once in my life.

She knew from the moment they agreed to try this that it wouldn't work. She knew there was no way to bring Sayaka back, but she did it for Madoka's sake. She wasn't so sure, though. She told her it was just for Madoka, but was it, really? She started out hating Sayaka, wanting her gone and out of her way. But now, things were different. They were closer. Until Sayaka had been stupid and let herself become this witch, this monster. Kyouko could still hear Sayaka's voice in the witch's screams. And it pained her. She started to think that it wasn't just pretending for Madoka and giving her false hope; it was for herself. Somewhere, deep down, she truly believed it would work. But at the same time, she knew it couldn't. There was no bringing Sayaka back.

She knew from the moment she heard and really paid attention to the witch's screams that Sayaka had never let go. She'd always wanted to fight for justice, to save people. It was almost ironic how she had turned into the exact thing she wanted to protect people from. But that wasn't the point. Kyouko had tried to keep Sayaka from the one thing that kept her going, from the one thing she believed in. Sayaka had wanted to help people, Kyouko hadn't allowed it, and now it was clear that Sayaka had never really forgiven her for that. Sayaka would never truly know how sorry Kyouko felt.

She knew from the moment she created the barrier between her and Madoka and Homura what she'd have to do. Kyouko knew that there was only one way to save them and let Sayaka finally have peace. Kyouko knew she wasn't going to make it out of this, and that this was her last fight. It was a good way to go. She'd die for Sayaka, to let her soul finally move on. She's die for the one she loved. And that was truly worth it.

She knew from the moment she pulled the pin out of her hair and got down on her knees that this was it. This was the end for her. She couldn't say she was proud of what her life had been, but at the same time, she didn't regret it. She'd made mistakes but also had her achievements. She'd made enemies but also made friends. So yeah, she wasn't sure if she was ready to die. But she knew that now, she had, to, and she was pretty okay with it.

Don't worry, Sayaka. I know you don't want to be alone. It's okay. I'll be here with you.

…Sayaka.

She knew from the moment she kissed her soul gem and let it go that this was the right choice. She loved Sayaka, even though they had hated each other, wanted to kill each other. They had grown to understand each other, and bonded. They became friends. Their differences were prominent but so were their similarities. She really, truly loved Sayaka in every way possible. It was too bad she couldn't tell her. But still, this was most definitely the right choice.

As she used her magic to shoot at the witch, she kept these things in her head. She said her last goodbyes. And as she saw her soul gem shatter to pieces, her only thought was, I love you, Sayaka.

To her, the almost beautiful light from the explosion couldn't compare to the brightness her heart felt for the one she loved.

Oh, I get it. This is payback, isn't it? How funny…we started off trying to kill each other, too, didn't we? I thought you'd be a wuss. But no matter how much I beat you up, you kept standing back up. You are mad, aren't you? Is it just too hard to let go right now? I get it. But once you've had enough…

Come back, okay?