A/N: I was surprised that no one had done a Lexi/Lee fic yet, so I figured I'd put this up. I might turn it into an actual story if I get some more inspiration, but for now it's just this.
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go
Even when you're gone
There are times -- many of them, in fact -- that I can't believe she's gone.
She was so full of life, so vibrant and beautiful and good, even if she was supposed to be a vampire, a soulless demon, an undead creature of the night.
Then again, she never was one for following the rules. Neither am I, really. I guess that's why I fell in love with her -- we were kindred souls, both of us bound to a life we never asked, a life we didn't want. I had never met anyone like her, and I know I never will again. She was the most amazing person in the entire universe, the only vampire I ever met who went out of her way not to kill people, instead getting blood from hospitals or blood banks.
They say the first one is the worst when it comes to a broken heart. But what if she's the only one? What if the one you love leaves you -- or, in this case, is killed by the brother of her closest friend -- and you can never move on? What do you do then?
For me, the answer was simple. Hunt down Damon Salvatore and kill him. I'd make him suffer like he made her suffer. Then I'd find some way to die, so that I could be with her again. Maybe I'd purposely let the sun burn me up, or break off a tree branch and drive it through my heart. Even that would be less painful than spending the rest of eternity without her. But then when I finally found him, in Georgia of all places, I couldn't do it. That was another thing Lexi and I had in common; we were never meant to be killers.
I probably could have killed him. I was that angry. But he had that girl -- Elena -- with him, and in her eyes I could see a little bit of her, the same blind devotion and love that she had given me so freely, even when I didn't deserve it.
I always thought Lexi and I would be together forever. And we will. She'll always be with me, because I never stop thinking about her, and about what could have been.
Whenever I think about her, the thing I remember most isn't what you'd think. It isn't her smile, or her laugh, or even the night that she told me she was a vampire. When I remember her, the first thing that comes to mind is the night we met. That night I realized that, despite what I told people and what I'd thought my entire life, I really did believe in soul mates. And she was mine. We were meant to be together from the very beginning. Lexi and Lee, the star-crossed (vampire) lovers. The modern day Romeo and Juliet, with fangs nonetheless.
But now she's gone, and she's never coming back. And unless I join her, I'll be alone forever. Because for me, there's no one else. There never was. And there never will be.
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me
I toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight
Bring me back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe in is you
If you only knew
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