Amanda,Fin, Olivia, and Nick all walked together down to the local bar, it had been a rough couple days, and they all needed to let go, and just forget about work.

"First rounds on me." Nick said holding up his wallet, giving them all a grin.

"Oh yea, that's what I like to hear." Fin spoke aloud, as he followed behind the girls into the bar.

"So how's everything been with you and Cassidy?" Amanda asked Liv, right before taking a swig of her bottled beer.

"Oh, we've been great, thanks" Liv replied taking a sip of her water, she wasn't in the mood to drink, plus she could only stay an hour or so before having to get home and began her weekend with Brian. Amanda just smiled at Liv as she watched the game up on the TV.

"Oh damn." Fin spoke as he swallowed down the last of his second beer.

"What's up?" Amanda asked.

"I just remembered I told my son I'd meet him for breakfast tomorrow." Fin said. "I'm gonna have to leave the party early..sorry, I'm an old man." Fin said with a chuckle before heading towards the door.

"I think I'm gonna head out too, Bri's waiting on me." Liv spoke giving Amanda, and Nick a warm smile before leaving.

"Oh, well Amanda, you'll stay with me won't ya?" Nick asked as he scooted over beside her at the bar.

"Oh yea, not like I've got anything else to do!" Amanda said sarcastically as she sipped on her third beer.

"I mean you can leave, it's just nice to have company." Nick spoke as he took his 4th shot of whiskey for the night.

"Shut up." Amanda said giving Nick a smile and then shaking her head at him "I think you better slow down there." she said nodding to the 5th shot of whiskey he had just ordered.

"Oh, what's a matter, it's the weekend Amanda, let loose, have fun." Nick replied putting a hand around her waist.

"Alright, now I'm sure you need to stop." Amanda said pulling Nick's arm from around her waist.

"Ah-Ah-Ah-I'm sorry." Nick said putting his hands up as to surrender.

"Bet your ass you are." Amanda said finishing her beer. "Here, I'm gonna call you a cab, and then myself one, come on." Amanda added as she grabbed her coat.

"Alright sweetie." Nick said licking his lips as he followed behind Amanda, watching as she shook her hips.

"Alright, your cab should be here any moment." Amanda said as she leaned up against the side of the bricked building.

"You know Amanda, you're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen." Nick said as he stumbled over to her side of the wall.

"Nick, your drunk...really drunk." Amanda said as she put her hand out to stop him from getting any closer to her.

"Nah, I'm not drunk..what's the matter with you?" He asked as he laughed.

"You, at the moment." She said turning away from him, folding her arms in annoyance.

"Oh come on don't be like that." Nick said putting a hand on either side of her face on the wall, he leaned in for a kiss.

"Oh my god, Nick!" Amanda spat pissed at Nick for trying to kiss her.

"Come on, I know you want to..let's not fight it." Nick said grabbing one of her wrists, and pulling her close to him.

"Let. Me. Go. Now." Amanda said just before jerking her arm from his grip. "I don't know what's gotten into you, but NEVER touch me again." Amanda said shaking as she watched the yellow cab pull up beside them.

"I'm sorry, I-." Nick was cut off by the cab driver yelling at him to get in. Amanda just looked away from him, she didn't know what to think of what had just happened, all she knew is it did something unusual for her, it scared her.

Amanda got home in about 15 minutes, she immediately ran to her bathroom. "This can't be happening again, not another coworker." She thought aloud to herself as she ran her hands over her face. She looked into the mirror, and then cried "What is it?" she asked as she slapped her knees with her hands, she fell to the floor "Do I have some big sign on my forehead?" She asked as she shook on the bathroom floor, she couldn't help but get so emotional over what had happened. "okay, pull yourself together, it's Nick, this isn't your old boss, no." She thought to herself as the memories of one of her last nights in Georgia came flooding into her head. Suddenly her cell phone began to ring. She looked down to see Nick's name flash across the screen.

"Uhm, Hello." She said as she wiped the tears from her cheeks.

"Amanda, I'm glad you answered, listen..I am so sorry..so, so, sorry." Nick spoke.

"It's okay, you know..it's fine." Amanda lied.

"No, it isn't...nothing about that was okay, I really am truly sorry, please forgive me." Nick begged through the phone.

"I already have.. no more heavy drinking for you." She said forcing herself to let out a chuckle.

"No, not for me, I'll see you Monday then." He said right before hanging up.

Amanda let the phone fall from her hands, she was still shaking, and now she was numb, from her thoughts, and from what had happened tonight. She walked into the kitchen and began digging through a drawer, "ahh, here you are." She said to herself as she opened the box opener up, and pulled the blade out. "I'm sorry." She said to herself before pulling down her black slacks and pressing the blade into her thigh, dragging it across three times, watching as her blood ran quickly from her new wounds, this to her was the only way she could feel, even if it was pain, she'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.

A/N: This is a re-upload from another one of my accounts (Which has been deleted), so if this seems familiar, you know why :o