Lost moment, Lost Cause

AN: A collection of writing about how Yumi feels about Ulrich and her friends and life. The poem song thing is in bold letters.

Yumi's POV

I saw Ulrich talking to Emily. They've seen more of each other lately. I'm the one who said I just wanted to be friends, but I thought Ulrich knew what that meant. I guess I was wrong. I should have known he wouldn't understand the meaning of, "I just want to be friends." Most boys don't know when a girl plays mind games, but that one was easy. Easy enough to where even Odd understood what I meant. He can't be that clueless, can he?

What hurts the most is his response. He said, "fine, okay." As if he agreed. I lost him, and this time it may be for good. I've never felt this bad before. It's getting hard just facing him now. It's as if there's this wall I've put up around me, I put it there to keep him away. And when he gets closer to the top I make it higher so he can't get to me. He must of given up. I don't blame him. I'm the kindest person, I'm all open with my friends the way that I should be. Maybe that's what's wrong with me.

Forget Me Not

Hello moonlight

Falling over the blue sky

Drowning out the day time

Shadows moving in

Drooping over my skin

I'm alone again

I stare up at the world

Hoping that it would pass me by

No more goodbyes

Some times I wake up

Wishing no one knew my name

As I'm pulled back into this twisted game

I took some time

So I could rest my eyes

But it's no surprise

That I see everything fading

As I stumble to my knees

If my heart was a force field

I would be unstoppable

That no one can get too

After all that I've through

I don't want to be broken again

Shadows linger in the corners of the moon

As darkness fills my eyes

Until I'm blind

Then there's light from the sky

As water covers my eyes

Again I'm blind

Seeing now just how visible I am to you

I wonder why I ever tried in the first place

Some of these days I think I should have left you alone

And let you have gone on your own

Seeing your face every time I close my eyes haunts me now

For knowing in the back of my mind you'll always belong to someone else

What happens now?

Will someone answer please?

My barrier has weakened

And I have no strength to move on from this

Sometimes I wonder

If I lose my way, will you let me go?