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Jackson POV

"So you had sex with your mom's spy, didn't you?" April asked Jackson, except it didn't sound like a question at all. They were sitting at a table in the cafeteria, Jackson was a little suprised by April's burst of courage. Usually she would never ask him that kind of question.

"What? No. I did not have any sexual relations with that woman!" He replied, trying to be as serious as possible. He didn't know why but he wanted her to believe him, okay maybe if he was honest with himself he did know why. He just wasn't ready to admit it to himself yet... if ever.

April just rolled her eyes at him "of course you didn't." She replied her full of sarcasm. "You know when somebody says that he did not have sexual relation with someone it just means that he did in fact!"

"Who did not sexual relations with someone?" Alex let out carelessly, sitting next to April. He didn't sound like he cared to have the answer to that question at all, so Jackson was wondering why he was asking in the first place. He really wishes Alex would go away. He had so many reasons to hate the guy but they got that weird "friendship" going on, so whatever. Lately he really wanted to spend more alone time with April, he really didn't know why though. Most time he was already with her if he wasn't by Sloan sides. He didn't even know how it all started, all he knew was that now he noticed the way her hair shined, her perfume, her smile, the way she would laugh. He noticed fucking everything and it was driving him insane. Not that he minded, he always thought that she was attractive but when in the hell did she get herself stuck in his head so much!

"He slept with his mother's english spy" April answered Alex's question. She said it in a way that he couldn't discern, maybe she was disappointed in his action or maybe she really did not care. Jackson wondered which one was worse.

"Way to go man! She was freaking hot!" Alex exclaimed with his mouth filled with a bite from his sandwich.

"Of course you would think so! She was an attractive young lady some would say, but that doesn't mean that you would be oblige to have sex with her! And don't be gross Alex swallow before you speak!" Was April jealouse? Jackson got a bit of hope. Maybe she didn't want him to be going around fooling with other girls 'cause she wanted him as much as he wanted her. Or maybe he was just freaking delusional and was reading way too much into her answers.

"Stop being such a freaking virgin Kepner!" Alex retorted "Let the guy have some fun!"

"Dont talk to her like that Karev." Jackson always had the urge to protect April since the first day they've met, but now that urge got even bigger. And the reason for that did scare him a little.

"Whatever" Alex lamely gave back.

"Does it bother you?" Jackson asked April.

"What?" April asked back confusion written all over her face.

"That I slept with her?" Jackson would get the answer he has been looking for one way or the other. He just didn't expect to find it while having Karev sitting across from him.

"No, why would it?" There was nothing giving away what she did really feel and Jackson felt a wave a disappointment wash over him. "I mean if you want to, then it's your perogative but you could do it with someone you really like or even love. That is all that I'm saying." April finished. Maybe there was hope.

"Now you got to agree with me! She's a total virgin!" Alex shot back after April explanation.

"Watch it Karev" Avery warned.

"What I'm just saying Kepner, he tried that, we both did, and look where it got us. Nowhere that's where! If not into a deep pit of hurt and despair. So if he wants to screw anything that was on his way why not let him?" Alex said, revealing a bit of his feelings the only way that Alex Karev could. There was a pause in the conversation, everyone lost in their thoughts. Jackson did pity the man a little bit. Alex went through a lot of crap in his life. Before he would've agreed with that logic but now, not so much. He could blame the longlasting feeling that he was developing for April for that.

"Yeah well maybe, who am I to tell you what to do? I was just showing my concern for you that's all" It was all April said before returning to her lunch. Munching mindlessly on her vegetables while reading a medical magazine.

Jackson didn't say anything, anyway he didn't know what he could say at this moment. He just looked at her, she never realized that she was being watched. He liked her a lot there was no denying that, hell he could say that it was more than that. He loved her.

He surprised himself at that thought. At the exact moment that came the realisation he looked up to see Karev watching him. He had a smirk on his face as if knowing exactly what went through his head.

He was in love with his bestfriend who had no idea of his feelings. He had no freaking idea of how he was going to deal with it and Alex Karev seemed to have his suspicions about it.

He was royally fucked.