Umm... Not much of a change but I'm revising all the chapters now. Just to make 'em better. I ended up putting chapter one and two together. Um. Yeah... I haven't done anything with my fics in a looong time now. This should be a little better now. Um... Review I guess.
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In the park on the Durandal. chaos sat alone in the dark room. The artificial moonlight reflected off his silver hair.
One of the fireflies drifted up in front of him. He reached out and caught it in his hand, brought it close to his face, and inspected it.
'It's not that long until… I have to tell them,' he let the firefly go and it flew away. "But I wonder, will they hate me?" He frowned and looked at the floor.
' When the gate to lost Jerusalem opens, she will awaken… KOS-MOS will awaken. What do I do now? Wait?' He looked towards the water fountain and then at the stars. 'I don't understand it. Why couldn't someone else carry this burden? I've made friends ... And they trust me. Why do I have to break their trust?'
MOMO walked in and looked at him. "chaos, are you okay?" The realian asked as she sat down beside him
He looked down at her and smiled. "Yes, Are you?"
"Yeah!" She smiled.
"Why are you still up?" He asked standing up and stretching. He put his arms behind his head.
"I noticed you were still up and I just wanted to see if you were okay." She looked up at him.
Chaos knew that that wasn't all she wanted. "What else MOMO?" He put his arms down to his sides.
"Huh? Oh…Well…" she started, embarrassed that he had known, "I wanted to ask you…have you ever…loved anyone?"
"Well…I ." He was taken aback by this question .
'What should I say to her? I can't tell her the truth. No, not yet. I can't tell MOMO about her.'
"Have you?" She asked again.
"Yes, I have. It didn't work out very well." He didn't like talking about his past, let alone being questioned about it.. So many things had happened. It was almost to confusing to think about.
"Why didn't it?" She asked looking at the floor almost afraid to meet his gaze.
"Because…" Chaos looked to the his feet, his face being completely covered up by his long silver hair. ' She died.' He thought.
"chaos…," she walked and stood beside him, "I shouldn't have asked."
He looked up and turned and faced her, "No," He put a hand on her shoulder. For the first time, someone saw his tears.
"chaos…?" She said in a worried voice.
"No MOMO, you did nothing wrong. I'm…just confused right now. I'm sorry." He said, taking his hand off her shoulder. "I'm going to bed. You should too. You don't want to get sick before you go to live with your mom." He smiled.
"Yeah, are you sure your okay? I mean I co---" She started to say, but was cut off mid sentence.
"MOMO, I'm fine. I'm tired anyway. You go get some sleep. Sorry for waking you." He stated.
"It's okay! I'm glad I could help!" She bowed and walked towards the door. "Goodnight, chaos."
"Goodnight, MOMO." He waved.
After a few minutes, he walked to where the Elsa was docked. Then went inside and could finally go to sleep.
When he finally dozed off to sleep, he had the same dream that he always had every night since she had died.
(In dream)
chaos was running in a dark forest on lost Jerusalem . It was the first place he had met her. He heard someone calling his name, but he could never find them.
"Yeshua! Yeshua ! Help me!" Yelled the voice of a woman.
"I'm coming! " He yelled back as he pushed a tree branch out of the way. "Where are you?" This time, he heard nothing. Not even the sound of the crickets. He stopped and looked around him. All of a sudden, the forest around him disappeared, and was replaced with surrounding darkness.
"Are you confused, Yeshua?" chaos turned around in shock. His eyes met with those of Wilhelm's. Behind him, he saw her, KOS-MOS was laying on the ground behind Vector's CEO. Her hair was the same shocking blue, but instead of armor, she had on a pure white dress.
"KOS-MOS!" chaos yelled as he ran to her and held her close to him. "No…KOS-MOS! Wake up…," He shook her gently, "You've got to wake up. You can't die here! I love you!" When he realized that she wasn't going to wake up, he gently laid her back on the ground, and took one last look at her before standing up.
"Why?" His hands shook with anger and sorrow. " Why…did you kill her." He turned to face him. "WHY DID YOU KILL THE ONE I LOVE!" He screamed with hurt evident in his voice.
"Loved…? Yeshua, I didn't assign you here to fall in love. Your mission was to bring KOS MOS to me alive. Since you didn't, I took care of it for you. She couldn't have loved you." He smirked at how chaos was reacting. "We're higher beings then the people on this planet are. We know more than them."
"Wilhelm…YOU'LL PAY FOR THIS!" He screamed as he lunged towards him.
(end dream)
"No…NO!" chaos woke up to the sound of his screaming. He knew he was awake, but he didn't open his eyes.
"Is he dead?" He heard Hammer question.
"Yeah… Dead people scream. You idiot! He probably is havin' a bad dream." Tony responded, resisting the urge to smack Hammer.
"chaos? Having a bad dream? That's almost impossible isn't it?" Hammer said, glancing warily at Tony. Tony let out a annoyed sigh.
chaos decided to open his eyes before Tony and Hammer got into a fatal fight. He opened his eyes and immediately covered them back up with his arm, the light stinging them with it's intense brightness. "Sorry if I woke you up." He apologized as he sat up and ran a hand through his already messed up silver hair and yawned. They were just staring at him. "What? What did I do?"
"What were you dreaming about? Why do you want to kill someone?" Hammer asked.
Chaos sighed. " It isn't important." Chaos laid back down and covered up. "Better get to sleep. Captain won't be very happy if we woke him up at this hour you know. Remember what he made you do last time?"
Hammer and Tony both shook at that memory. They, alone, had to clean the whole Elsa. They found rooms that they didn't know existed and didn't want to know existed. That thought alone was enough to make even Ziggy cower in fear. They nodded and quickly threw themselves in their beds.
That left chaos alone to think. 'That dream again. No…Not a dream…More like a memory that haunts me whenever I close my eyes. I couldn't save KOS MOS. I couldn't save her. Wilhelm. It's all your fault. I truly loved her. I got to her, too late.' He turned over on his side to where he was facing the wall. He sighed and took out a golden locket she had given him. He fingered the golden chain in his hands and opened the heart shaped picture holder and looked at her. Inside the locket there was a picture of him with his arm around her and KOS MOS holding up bunny ears behind his head. 'We were so happy then.' He remembered the day she wanted to have that picture made.
(Flashback)
They were walking hand in hand through on of the parks close to where KOS MOS lived. She saw a guy that was taking pictures for free.
"Hey, Yeshua, why don't we have a picture made of us?" She said walking in front of him so he would stop walking. In that time, he dressed normally in a white tee shirt, black baggy jeans, and black sneakers.
"I guess. But why, I'm not going anywhere." He stopped walking and turned to face her. "Are you?" She stopped walking too and turned around to look at him. Cerulean met with almost translucent blue. He saw nothing but innocence and deep love there. A love he could never really explain but was afraid of losing.
"Pwease? " She tugged on his arm and gave her best puppy dog pout. Her eye's shone up at him. She was trying to be as cute as she could. It was working on him, and she knew it.
He let out a small laugh and sighed. "Okay, okay…just stop being so cute! And let go of my sleeve before you rip it off." She let go of his arm and grabbed onto his hand and drug him to where the man taking the pictures was. He couldn't help but love that day.
(End flashback)
He grasped the locket and held it close to his heart. ' I will always love you KOS MOS. Always.' With that thought he drifted into a wished for dreamless sleep.
A few hours later, he slowly opened his eyes and was met with a sight he didn't expect to see. MOMO was standing over him with a worried expression. "Hey." He said as he swung his legs over the side of the bed and stood up. MOMO looked at him and checked him with her sensors.
'Hmm… Nothing seems wrong with him. So why is he acting so strange.' She shook her head, making her peach colored hair move with her head and mess up. "Never mind." She mumbled.
"Did you say something MOMO?" He asked .
"No. Never mind. It was nothing chaos." She sighed and closed her eyes, 'I hope he is okay.' She thought, worried.
"Well MOMO, we should get to the bridge before captain decides to throw me off the ship, huh?" He smiled down at her. She opened her eyes quickly, hiding any worry that was so evident a few seconds before and smiled back at him.
"I'm going to stay behind for a little while okay? I'll be on the bridge in a few minutes, K'! " She then bounced off happily to the girl's cabin.
"Ok then, MOMO…" He stared oddly at the girl as she skipped off to the girl's cabin before walking out of the room and heading to the bridge.
