I do not own Rurouni Kenshin, that honour belongs to Nobuhiro Watsuki

Megumi

There are patients waiting

I want time to stop; I just can't go on right now. I want the time to mourn, to cry. Kaoru is dead, and Kenshin is missing. I want to panic and grieve.

There are patients waiting

The battles doctors face are different, they will always be needed at every moment. Illness is not a challenger at the door, demanding a duel, it slips in and the doctor must find the source and make it disappear. A doctor cannot stop time or wish that it could stop.

There are patients waiting

I don't have the luxury the others do to mourn; I cannot go out and search. I must stay here and take care of my patients. A man once told me of the benefits of saving lives and to not dwell on the dead. I now honour his words even though he is gone. That is why I stay here.

There are patients waiting

I cannot cry. Yes, Kaoru is dead and Kenshin is missing, nothing would change that. But what would she think of me if I give up now, after all the advice I have given her? Who would I be if I am willing to stop just because he is gone?

There are patients waiting

That is why I stay here and continue taking care of my patients. I know now, and understand it. If I do not work, another person may die, just because I wasn't there to help. Just because I allowed myself to wallow in despair. I could not allow that to happen. That is not me! I must express my grief through my work, I must try to save more people and prevent more deaths. That is how I must handle my grief.

There are patients waiting

End.

I'm working on a timeline from this point until before they leave for the island. I actually found this very difficult to do since Megumi is quite a mysterious character to me. She was the one who had to clean up and examine Kaoru before the funeral and that must have taken a lot of strength and I found it hard to convey. Hopefully, I managed to show it here.

Thank you for reading.