Honey, Honey
I can see the stars all the way from here
Can't you see the glow on the window on the pane?
I can feel the sun whenever you near….
Choosing weather to bring back your boyfriend is easy.
Choosing weather to be with him is hard, especially if he cheated.
I loved Jeremy so much that I did all I could to beg the witches to consider to bring him back to me because I loved him. When you loved someone, you would do anything for him and that's what I did. I did something that I may never do for anyone else for good reasons. If Damon never moved from getting shot Jeremy wouldn't have gotten hurt. I mean come on Damon a damn vampire yeah he was dying from a werewolf bite but it wouldn't have hurt him as much since he was a vampire and dying anyway.
But I guess he did what he did I couldn't change that like I couldn't change the fact Jeremy kept seeing his dead ex girlfriends anymore, I couldn't change the fact that when he talks to me that he thinks of Anna, I couldn't change the fact he kiss another girl a vampire no less that was dead that he really didnt break up with.
I'm sitting on my bed, a cover wrap around me and I'm hugging a pillow crying my heart out. Luckily my dad wasn't here not like he ever know what's wrong with me because he hardly ever home with me. Ever since grams died he been distance lately. It's hurt me to be by myself knowing there's no one here to comfort me and ask me if I'm going to be okay.
When Caroline told me what Jeremy did I felt like I lost grams all over again only this time I didn't break down, at least not in front of her. My mind was to destroy the necklace first then to focus on my problems. When I finally did destroy it, or at least when I thought I did Grams was right there beside me helping me holding my hand. When she had to go she told me she was so proud of me.
Some of me found that a lie because I mess with the balance of nature saving my cheating ex-boyfriend. How could she be proud of that? How could she be proud that I use all my magic on that now I can only do little spells now? She can't be proud of that because I'm most defiantly not. I feel weak even worse I feel like empty more than ever.
It's been a day which turn into a week then 2,3,4 weeks until it turn into a month before I even left the house. I didn't go to school I had a spell done to make me get good grades for the last couple of weeks before school ended, I didn't go to parties I don't see why though the world already crazy, and I didn't go to grille, I just didn't go nowhere. Elena, Matt and Caroline would come over and visit me but I also did a spell to make it seem like I'm never home. I never answer my phone, check my email. I did nothing but sit on my bed cry, sleep, eat which I barely did, and cry again.
But I'm determined to be myself again. I'm done with the crying and feeling sorry for myself. It's time that I get back on practicing magic since I have nothing else to do and be myself again. I fell asleep thinking how much tomorrow is going to change for the better or for the worse.
Well thanks for reading please review. I don't own Vampire Diaries just wish I could write for them someday so I can create some Bamon love.
