"I never loved you."

"You were just a distraction."

"Your mind is a sieve. "

"It will be as if I never existed."

I awake with scream so raw that my throat feels like it is going to erupt. It takes me a moment to gather my bearings and remember where I am. Just as I start to realize the situation, Charlie rushes in to comfort me. He pulls me, awkwardly, into his arms and speaks words of comfort. It breaks me and sends me into another fit of hysterics.

I hate how I worry Charlie. He hasn't slept this whole week because of my nightmares. I keep having the same one where Edward leaves me. You would think it wouldn't bother me as much seeing how it is the same every time.

I have been laying in my bed, just waiting. Waiting for Him to come back. Waiting for death to come and end this pain. Waiting for this teenage crush to be over like everyone says it will.

I hear Charlie speaking with someone on the phone downstairs. Some small, far away part of me wonders who.

"I don't know what to do anymore. She doesn't even move from her spot unless she is screaming her lungs out," Charlie says defeated.

He's talking about me, I realize. He sounds so heartbroken. What have I done?

"I don't know how to do any of that, Renee. I just don't know how to help her. Maybe this is my fault. I wasn't there when she needed me. I mean for god sake she ran from forks not even six months after she got here."

Oh God... he thinks it's his fault that I'm like this. I'm a horrible daughter. I can't believe I've been so selfish. There are people dying of starvation, being abducted, raped, and I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself because I was dumped. I stand up for the first time in a week. I, slowly, creep down the stairs.

"Maybe she could go and live in Jacksonville with you and Phil. She needs someone to help with this and God knows that ain't me."

I watch as Charlie sighs. He looks tired and resigned. I wrap my arms around him. He stiffens in surprise and tells Mom that he would call her back.

I whisper,"I don't want to go, Dad. I want to stay here. It's not your fault. I'm so sorry that I put you through this. I'm not going to let him break me."

Charlie looks down at me, taking a moment to realize what I had said. He suddenly breaks out in a smile. I will try for the rest of my life to make up for what I've done. I will never let anyone have that kind of power over me again.