A/N: so, I've this written out on my computer at home, but i don't have it with me, so you'll have to bear with me as I can't remember all the details. I hope everyone enjoys! Please rate or review, and if not, thanks anyways for reading!
My Only
Matt-centric
I love him, more than I have any right to. But what he doesn't know, won't hurt him, right? I mean, I've kept it to myself this long, so why should it matter now...?
Because, I'm dying today, that's why. I know that he has this deluded notion that both of us are gonna make it out of this suicide mission he has us on, but the truth is, I know I"m not going to make it, because that's not the way my life works. It's okay that I'm dying though, because it's all for him, and it's okay that even though I know telling him today won't really make any difference, I'll still feel better going out of this world if he knows how I really feel. So, for the time being, I'll keep my mouth shut, because I know if I tell him too soon, he'll call the whole thing off, and I would be dealing with a very pissy Mello for the next...oh, lets' just say three to five years. Years of listening to him rant on and on about how I distracted him that day, and how it was his one chance to beat Near, and blah blah blah blah. But, if he wasn't like that, then I wouldn't love him, now would I? The truth is, I've loved Mello since the day we first met at Wammy's House, when he saved me from the older kids making fun of my goggles. I thought of him as a fallen angel, and I've followed him around like a puppy since then.
It's too bad I didn't have the courage to tell him sooner or maybe my life might not end this way...or maybe he would have killed me himself? I honestly don't know what his reaction will be, But I can honestly say I don't expect him to feel the same way. To him, I am a friend, a pet, a lackey, only here to do his dirty work, his submissive companion. His only true family.
It's time. I wave to Mello, get into my beautiful, bright cherry red car, and speed away, Mello pulling out close behind me on his bike. It's a two minute drive to point A, and I fire the smoke bomb, wait a few seconds for Mello to grab the Kira woman, and then take off, distracting some of her body guards. I light a cigarette and wait for the inevitable. They have me cornered. I take a deep breath before radioing Mello
There's static.
"Mells, you there?"
"Yeah Matty, I've got Takada in the back, where are you at?"
I sigh. nows the only chance I've got.
"They've got me cornered Miheal, and it's going to end for me, so there's something I've gotta say before I go..."
"Yeah Matty, What is it? You only call me that when there's something serious happening."
"Mello... I-I...I love you. So when I go, don't follow me, 'kay? "
"Mail... I can't say I quite return the feeling, but... that's okay, because I love you in a different way. You're my best friend, man. And don't you tell anyone I said that, or they'll think I'm a sap, or going soft, or something."
"I won't. Just promise me something, 'kay?"
"Matt... anything."
"Don't...just don't follow me. Live a long, happy life, for both of us. Please, just... live for me?"
I don't wait for his reply. I step out of the car, hands raised high, cigarette between my lips. I'm ready to die, but I still try to bluff my way out. No such luck, as I feel my body riddled with bullets, and the last thing on my mind as I am met with a blinding white light I refuse to go into, is that Mello is alive, and that I intend to wait a lifetime for him right here.
The sad part is, we don't always get what we want... Now do we?
A/N: soooo yeah, did not turn out like i planned. please rate and review! I love all of yous! special thanks to Lynxhiddenangel on youtube for the wonderful fan vid she made for me!
