Why do I feel like this? Towards my own sister? This is wrong and I know it, but I just can't help myself. Maybe it's the way her hazel eyes shimmer when she walks into the sunlight, how petite her body looks when she wears an extra large shirt before going to bed, or maybe it's how brilliant she looks while reading a novel, but whatever it is, I fell head over heels for her. I loved Sara with all my heart, I know that now, after years of trying to ignore the butterflies every time she said my name, or how a simple brush of the arm made my heart race. I know she could never feel this way about me.
"Tee tee, can you come here for a second?" Sara called from the living room. Hearing my nickname pass her lips made me blush.
"Coming Sar." As I pass the window I realize it was dark, which had always been my favorite time of day. I see my sister sitting on the couch with her glasses on, she had obviously been reading. She patted the cushen next to her, signaling me to sit down.
"What do you want?" I asked, my voice sounded a bit angry although I wasn't mad. She just looked into my eyes and we stared at eachother for what seemed like an eternity. Finally she said "Tegan, um, I was wondering if you could rub my back, I think I have a knot."
"Uh, yeah sure, ok." My voice sounded a little nervous, but I hope she didn't catch it. Fuck Tegan get a grip. She's your sister. I had to whip off my sweaty hands before I could even touch her. I start where she pointed and I felt her shoulders relax under my thumbs. I could feel my heart pounding through my cheast as not so-nice thoughts came to mind. She let out a sigh as I countinued massaging her shoulder. I could feel myself getting turned on but I knew I had to fight the erge to do something I know I'll regret. I cleared my throat. Here goes nothing.
"Um, Sara, there's something I have to tell you." I could feel my throat get tight and my eyes started to water.
"Tegan what's wrong?" She turned around and looked at me with her beautiful loving eyes. I was breathing faster than normal. No turning back now, I have to do this.
"Well, Sara, the thing is...I love you. With all my heart. I know this isn't right, but I had to tell you." I was scared to look up. From the noises she was making, I could tell she was crying too.
"I love you too Tee tee. I've been wanting to tell you for years, but I could never say anything, because I was scared I would lose you." I looked up at my sister. Her eyes were a light pink, but I knew I couldn't fight the erge any longer. I placed my hands on her face and we kissed. Our lips fit perfectally together, as though we were made for one another. She tasted so sweet, and I felt like I was floating on a cloud. She took me by the waist and pulled me in closer. I felt her cool tongue rest on my lips, asking permission to enter. We started kissing harder and soon I found myself unbuttoning her shirt.
